Saturday, December 31, 2005
Counting down to 2006!

Excatly 24 hours from now it would be 2006, hence today marks the last day of 2005! This year passed really fast with lots of shits and crazy things happening. I'm already thinking about 2006 to be honest...and well i've also got a splendid picture perfect of what i want to acheive in 2006, or rather should i say what i am dreaming of?!

LOOK! Its really such a perfect 2006 if any of them came through ok!

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hey i haven finish pls don't start puking or showing me this face ok!? ----->> -_-!

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Distinction in all my modules!! yeah rite floyd u fucking dreamer!

WOW! Wouldn't it be such a marvelous year if any ONE of those BIG FAT WISHES came true?!

Yes it certainly is....someone please give me a fucking good tight slap across my face now!

Ok be serious now, actually there're lots of things i wanna acheive in 2006 and well u can say its part of being ambitious. First and foremost i wished everyone would be in the pink of health. As for my ideal 2006 resolution, it would be to use my head more instead of my heart. I really have to learn to say NO in the certain siutations as well. The next one up would be my diploma in information communication technology certificate! I've struggled through this shitty course for like almost 3 years and finally i see light at the end of the tunnel! Kudos to me for braving this rocky boat but there's still alot of effort needed to ensure i actually get to see and toouch the cert!

I want a good and refreshed face as well, that means getting rid of eye bags, cleanly shaven everytime, and a visit to the dentist as well. I'm vain i know i've to love my own face afterall right? I wanna meet Miss Right as well, and i know its not easy and there's no definite date which tells me i'd meet her. But its just a wish, a hope, and hopefully when the chance comes i'd seize it gleefully with both hands! Sometimes i just don't know to feel lucky being single or envious when i see the things singlehood brings and the romantic mushy stuffs a love can give.

I wanna smoke less and i think the plan is going on well.....well until the christmas period when i start smoking non-stop! Fuck i really need some inspiration like soccer or a sweetheart to motivate me! I wanna start working as well, i've been slacking and living off my 'lucky jackpot' for too long, 3 years that is! Its time to stand up and be counted, its time to repay what my parents gave me all these years and save for the future. This also means i've to learnt to spend less and spend wiser. I'm rash with my money and take it for granted sometimes although i've to admit i love spending money as i wish. I'm one which would rather be bankrupt than die with a million in my coffin! Alrite these are just some personal goals i'd wish for the upcoming year. Dare not wish too much lah and don't wanna wish for ridiculous things as well!

And my last wish for 2005 is to be able to start 2006 with her........

Guess I won't be blogging until Jan 1st or 2nd depending on how much energy i'm left with. So let me wish all of u guys, my idiots and bitches......

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HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!

Let the countdown begins.............!!!
posted by mango at 12:00 AM 0 Bitchings
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Save your last dance for me

a bitter sweet compassion i felt
yields no definite returns though

There're some days where everything, every touch can be so beautiful - when the person is in front of u. There're many things i wished could be mine yet i know there're much more that could never have. The bitter sweet feelings of something so near yet so far is torturous at times, ever felt it?

I was or was not suppose to be zouk-ing yesterday i had no apparent idea. Vincent said he'd call me after he woke up from his nap. The thought of paying that expensive cover charge wasn't very appealing to me either. Then she called, i had no qualms about it even though i was half way through my dinner and watching tv. Bath got changed and fixed in like 10-15 minutes and rush down to Orchard with all that heavy dinner still rumbling in my stomach. I found myself asking "hey didn't i told myself i had to stay home today? i'm so tired from the flu yesterday and have been going out late for the past 3-4 days". On the way there Vincent kept asking me to come down Zouk at the last moment, physcho-ing me to bring her as well. I knew she doesn't clubs but even if she does i wouldn't want to bring her there as well i'd rather spend invaluable time with her alone out there. Its stupendous how effective cupid's arrow could be.
Aside from being late for like 10-15 minutes which i felt like banging my head into a wall, everything was smooth and simple i guess. It would be relaxing on normal circumstances but it isn't when ur in the presence of someone special.

Looked up vincent and the guys at zouk afterwards and i felt like a cheapo. I skipped the cover charge thanks to someone signing me in, and had free drinks as well. Wow but too bad i wasn't really in the mood to club, but neither do i think the person i'm thinking of would even spare a split second to think of me. Went home at 3 to catch the merseyside derby between Liverpool and Everton and the match is one of the reasons why i managed to sleep so well with a smile on my face afterwards LOL. Liverpool rocks!



save your last dance for me...
the one which matters most...




posted by mango at 6:27 PM 0 Bitchings
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
At this rate...

..I'd be bankrupt in no time. I can't remember doing any shopping this month unlike the previous Decembers which i did alot, yet when i checked my bank statement today i got a shocked that I'd spend almost $750. All these on food, cigs, clubbing, booze and other stuffs!

Impressive?

Quite!



Ideal?

No way!

Its really wierd considering that right up to the 2 weeks vacation on dec 16, i only went clubbing once, so it must be the food! But right from the start of the 2 weeks break, it was madness really i think the last time i club so regulary was almost 2 years ago. But during the 2 weeks break i was clubbing like 2-3 times a week or once every 2 days! I love boozing so as a result i can't resist the temptation sometimes. The cover charges are expensive during this month as well, why don't have a gentlemen night then? Its fair this way lol! I hope Vincent says we're not going zouk later on when he wakes up from his nap or else i'd find the hole in my pocket getting bigger without doubts! Zouk + Phuture means a $23 enterance fee + the bloody expensive drinks there and i'm going to be spending like $80 to $120 tonight alone! Nooooooooo!


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some of the receipts for this month's clubbing i managed to dig out, there's alot more which are missing!

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Anyway, sent Joanne off this morning at Changi Airport. We had Sakae sushi for breakfast cum lunch and i'm forced to eat this piece of appetite spoiling and sickening piece of raw salmon. I swear no matter how much lesson i place on it or soy sauce i dipped it into, the moment i place it into my mouth i felt like puking and tried to swallow the whole thing instead of chewing it. And Joanne can still laugh and giggle so loud there!


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I fucking hate eating fish especially the smell of it and fish skin let alone raw fish! Damn Joanne ur the 2nd lucky person u know what i mean right! ARGH! Alrite its the 2nd time i send someone off and yes there was abit of sadness like the first time. I really love the airport as well, the feeling of being there and unable to check into a plane is so horrible and sad man! The next time i'm there i'd be sure i'm boarding a plane! It would be soon i guess, real soon once i finish my final semester and Thailand/Hong Kong awaits me!

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Bon Voyage!
posted by mango at 8:45 PM 0 Bitchings
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
2005

A little update on the past 2 days which i din't felt like blogging. X'Mas day itself was spent at home celebrating my brother's birthday with log cakes and big turkeys and then i joined Mike and Gen at Zouk. The music was different probably because of a guest DJ from Holland i heard. As for boxing day itself it was a last minute rush to Harry's bar at holland village to have a drink, chat and catch a soccer match with Joanne as she'd be leaving S'pore on Wednesday. She must be sick of watching soccer now though, right auntie?!

4 Days from now marks the end of 2005 and the beginning of 2006. To be honest, i can't wait for December 31st to arrive for 2 reasons. One of them being that 2005 is a kinda bad year for me and the other having 'a date' to look forward to! For once i won't have to countdown in clubs or pubs as well, so thats another good point! I'm excited, really excited like a little boy knowing that his dad's gonna bring him to his first ever fun fair! Maybe...just maybe, 2005 is gonna end in a surprising and beautiful manner beyond my wildest dreams and expectations.

2005 is such a topsy turvy year! Had my fair share of ups and downs but i estimate there were more downs than ups! It has also only just hit upon me that in 7 or 8 months time i'd be a botak slave to my country! So what did i acheived in 2005? I believed i acheived very very little and i'm ashamed of myself for that. I'm still searching for my first A grade in poly. I'm still searching for my princess. I'm still trying hard to gain extra kilos. I'm still finding that piece of inspiration to quit cigs. I'm still in the process of realizing my true friends. On the brighter side my temper's no longer as bad as before, little things can't provoke me into a reaction. I've learnt to use my head more instead of my heart. I'm graduating soon as well. I've learnt some very harsh but vital lessons from relationships. I've learnt to survive on my own more. I've curbed my splurging habits too. Just some highs and lows from an uneventful year which passes really well as too. I remember 1 quote from last december vividly: "2005 will be a better year, and u're the reason". It never materialize though, thats why i say words are really cheap and things can change really fast.

The end of the year also marks the 5th month of my blog and i've always been wondering who actually frequent my blog or actually read it? Would u guys be kind enough to let me know through a simple comment in the taboard or comment box? I would appreciate that!
posted by mango at 7:46 PM 0 Bitchings
Sunday, December 25, 2005
The day itself

Merry X'Mas my friends!
Happy Birthday Irwan!

Last night din't turn out to be that bad afterall. Ok i admit there were general unhappiness and mixed reactions amongst us when we were going fullerton, one being the price of the ticket $28 bucks, the other being the fun factor there and others as well. But all was fine and well from the moment we entered the lift lobby to the place. My first time there in the name of 'one fullerton' as i'd been there before when it was still known as 'Centro' so i roughly know what to expect there. Music was fine, drinks was kinda cheap especially the bottles but the crowd was kinda dead until 15 or 10 minutes before 12am. Let me count...this is my 6th straight xmas eve i spent clubbing and partying away. I wish this would be the last, the 'last' for a very long time to come.

There were some surprises there as well, din't expect to run into old friends like Amanda and those from school like Mike and Genievive. Its funny with the case of Genievive considering we've 'known' each other for like a year and from being in the same class in the past and yet xmas was the day we 'choosed' to actually talked to each other and even ended up at the same place dancing together. Singapore is so small, fate can be so funny and xmas is so surprising at times!

As usual i slept very late after chatting the wee hours of the morning away and woke up only at like 6.30pm today. I wanna party and booze somemore, i wanna drink all i can for all this xmas and make sure the next one would be something completely different....


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I can't find anyone whose willing to go! Understandably most are either too shagged from last night's party or have to accompany their gf or are kinda broke. UghH!! nooooo!!

Pictures from xmas eve 2005 cum irwan's birthday at one fullerton. As usual there were people drunk AGAIN! Why is there always someone drunk when we go partying or clubbing as a class huh? I'm still trying to figure out!!


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wow! i'm drooling!!

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don't u find this random picture shot a beauty?

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still managed to find some energy to cook myself an xmas supper lol

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the finished product, simple and nice stomach-filling!
posted by mango at 8:20 PM 0 Bitchings
Saturday, December 24, 2005
The day before

Drop by drop they fell from the sky, if only it was snow but no it was only rain. There's a slight chill and breeze blowing, i feel cold inside out, my body's numb and so is my mind. Why am i feeling so much harted today? Isn't it supposed to be a day i look forward to? I can't recall an xmas eve i felt so horrible, so blue and moodless. How fast things can change in a year, last xmas i could only recall happy memories, and to think one year had already passed so quickly. Thats life i guess. Full of ups and downs.

I really love this time of the month, beside chinese new year this was the only time of the year i love most. But i feel totally different today, everything seem to be in a mess or going wrong. Couldn't get to sleep until 5am yesterday thanks to the god damn flu and guess what? Woke up at 8am, that means 3 pathetic hours of sleep ok i did forced myself to sleep at 1pm and woke up around 4.30 but i still feel so tired and moody all over. I just realized one thing this month, that i have extremely few friends, friends whom i can count on, friends that i can go out with. So few of them that when i look at my flooded msn and hp list i can't help but wonder why?

5.30pm now and i still haven a clue where to go tonight. I'm thinking of spending xmas eve at home for once, the first time in like 8 years. Clubbing and partying on this ocassion has certainly lost its taste in me after years of repetition, how i wish i can have someone, even friends will do, to have a simple nice dinner outside and celebrate. Like Chris said, he really wanna have a dinner and the mentioning of turkey makes me carve for it. Sadly it won't be happening this year. Messy confusing and fusturasting night ahead i predict.....not to mention lots of havoc and chaos.....

Merry Christmas Everyone
posted by mango at 4:48 PM 0 Bitchings
Thursday, December 22, 2005
A day to forget

I swear if not for Vincent and Melvin, my day will be totally unimaginable! Looks like old buddies can always be counted on, i can't thank them enough for accompanying me till the wee hours at Zouk especially when Vincent had camp at 7am in the morning. Thank guys, i'm so appreciative that my day was not totally ruined. Can't thank u 2 enough man!

Nobody fucking likes to be 'put on plane', i specially hate this especially when its a last minute thing and i'm all dressed up and outside. Thats certainly the case today i was fucking stranded outside without a clue as to wat to do. Yes whatever the reasons are, no matter how reasonable they seem, its just not right to fly someone's plane isn't it? I was so fucking happy when Kylie said we're going Zouk as i was dying to be there just for tonight and 20 mins or so before i left my place i still double confirm with them to be sure we're going. Their reply was yes and yet when i'm out of my place they said its off due to all sorts of reasons - no money....not many people know...not many are going....most are saving for saturday's clubbing...whatever it is, god damn shit! Why can't they tell me earlier? And even if they did told me late, why din't they bother to do anything to 'make up' for it or something? And did i mention i saw them there later on? What the hell were they doing there? Why am i not invited? Am i a friend to them? Do they ever respect me at all? Why am i always the last to know about something? Why do i have no say in anything? I think too much? FUCK IT actions speaks louder than words and they don't lie do they?! The disappointment hurt is deep, deep because its caused by people i feel i could count on, people whom i feel are the closest to me currently, people whom i trusted!

Enough of the rantings, Zouk was fucking packed today, and luckily i bumped into liting and carol so managed to cut through the long queue. Zouk and Phuture is fun for many souls tonight i guess but i can be counted out of it. I felt i should never have made the trip down there, disappointment is all i got from the night spent there. Bumped into quite alot of friends down there, 'Hi-Bye' friends u guessed it right! Tonight i learnt a lesson, humans can be fucking selfish and insensitive, the treatment dished out can be cruel at times. I guess i should start being selfish myself as well, screw it i don't give a damn about anything or anyone right now and if u dun like me it doesn't gives me a reason to like u as well. Enough is enough, the feeling is sick, really sick!
posted by mango at 4:18 AM 0 Bitchings
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Boredroom

Plain boring Tuesday with almost nothing to do save for some revision classes. I wanna go zouk/phuture so badly tomorrow but finding someone to go along is like finding a geniune branded wallet in the 'pasar malam', almost impossible. ArghH!!

Happened to stumble upon this blogring stuff and being too bored means its hard to resist the urge to try...


What pattern is my brain?
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Hmm this is quite true to say, i'm a dreamy person who imagines and fantasize alot and often. I do think i'm extremely hard to read at times due to my contradicting personality and ever changing moods but i'm not sure if people are impressed with my imagination lol

What my underwear says about me?
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Hahaha how can this be true man!

If my life is a movie, what genre would it be?

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Seriously i would prefer it to be a romantic comedy!

The world's shortest personality test

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Is that right? Someone please tell me!?

What kind of seducer am i?

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Hmmm let u guys decide this? lol

What kind of kisser am i?
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Okie i won't say i'm a bad kisser alright...just somewhere in between lah!

What is my ideal relationship?

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True, chemistry and compatibility are just 2 of the most vital issues i'd consider in a relationship.

What kind of temperament am i?

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Those who know me will say this is true isn't it? But don't fucking judge if u don't know me!
posted by mango at 2:04 AM 0 Bitchings
Monday, December 19, 2005
My white X'Mas

Kylie u've got to admit your pictures are slow slow slow thats why i'm only able to blog today! OoPss!

I realized something - my body is in a total wretch right now. The 2 weeks plus without gym, the injuries i sufferered during the soccer tourement, the late night clubbings, the boozes, the cigarettes and all the junk food, the they played a major part as i found out this morning when i hit the gym. I was struggling to do hit my usual standards and couldn't even last 2 hours inside there, damn i must cut down on that unhealthy lifestyle but its hard considering the fact that its year end now and there're bound to be lots of parties going on. Hard to resist!

Thereafter i had to return a book to the school library, in the middle of a 2 week long break! U can imagine how sick the feeling is having to travel all the way back to school just to return a bloody book i borrowed. I hit upon a capricious idea on the way there, watch a dvd there before i go back since the weather is freaking hot might as well cool down abit inside there. I din't regret the decision, the dvd i watched, 'one night in mongkok' was cool man though gross at times. This quote from the show left me thinking about how frustrating life and love can be - "The one we want to meet just doesn't appears, the ones we don't want to meet seem to appear all the time like an enemy". This quote is extremely fitting in my case, Miss Right never seem to appear, whilst Miss Seem-So-Right and Miss Un-right seem to appear all the time. The time hasn't come for me I supposed, but its frustrating at times seeing myself lack what others have - a happy everlasting love. Its so difficult to meet this person, is heaven playing some joke on me?

The movie also brought something to my mind - christmas, my white christmas. Actually i've no idea what defines 'white christmas' but to me its simply an xmas where everything is as white and beautiful as snow. One thing for sure, there's no snow in Singapore which is why my dream xmas would be something like a walk in the alluring snow with my love one, cherishing and lavishing every bit of the moment in the morning, a magnificent shopping spree in the afternoon and a nice simple dinner on a high building with great ambience and equally appetizing food. Dream on Floyd! There's no god damn snow in spore, u'r a pathetic single guy, u've no dollars like Bill Gates and there's great restaurent on a high building in spore as well! Ha! I feel wierd for the first time ever this xmas I suddenly dread clubbing or partying away. Maybe i've grown tired of this kind of celebration having been doing it for the past 6 years or something. All i want for this xmas is not a hell of a party with lots of booze and fun, i just want a simple and memorable xmas. It doesn't have to be a white xmas like what i describe above, it just have to be spent in a memorable way with a special person. The latter is more important i guess, sometimes its not the things we do or the places we go that makes it memorable, its due to the person we spend the day with. Sadly excatly 5 days from now its xmas and the signs are that it will be a lonely xmas even if i were to end up partying with my mates again. White xmas, my oh so distant dream....

Anyway an update for Saturday, I seem to have found a perfect place for chilling sessions in 'MOS aka Ministry of Sound'. We were there to celebrate Owen's 20th birthday and most of us were quite well dressed for the ocassion which is pretty cool haha! The initial sight of the extremely long and 'snake-like' queue turns me off immediately but i'm glad we make the point to queue as it was worth every single time of ours as we found out later. My first impression of the place was COLD, very cold! I can't remember any other time where i stand outside the enterance of a club, bar, pub or disco and felt so cold! Some of us managed to escaped the $25 enterance fee thanks to the sms invitation thank god! The RnB place resembles a strip club due to the wired fences that stretches from the floor all the way to the ceiling. I can visualize girls clinging onto these wire fences and gyrating their bodies against it, peering out of the wires with sultry eyes. Elmo, Sze Wei, Daniel and myself were the first excited bunch to get into the place while the rest were still outside and were really looked like 4 newbies in the clubbing sence, running around with delight while trying to explore the whole place. There was even an escalator leading up to the 2nd floor!! I guess it was the first time many of us seen an escalator in a club! Anyway the whole place was similiar to Zouk in terms of design and size but nicer and way bigger. The mushroom seats are the best of all, especially those in the retro room or the white room! One can easily doze off while resting on those seats and we even played wrestling there! Guys stuff which left the girls grasping in horror lol!

Speaking of the retro room, it is exactly what I imagine a retro theme disco to look like, completed with all the funkly 70s 80s furniture and a dancefloor with multicolor panels. The only thing missing is John Travolta grooving to the beat on the dance with his famous "take your $ out" move! The toilet signs were too small, so small that we could nearly enter the wrong ones! Well as for the crowd it was so-so, i would say Zouk mambo night's crowd is way better than MOS. Overall its a really cool place but there can be more improvements to it, definitely an idea place to chill out though...well at least from looking at the msn nicks of those who went, i can say so! Joey u missed out on a great party! =D

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the guys...

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and the ladies...

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elmo is the happiest guy uh..

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"1..2..3...4...5...6....7..u've gt to finish 7 shots man!"

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alan screwing chris...poor fiona haha

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i'm so extra lol!

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retarded!

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another one!!

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look at that evil smile on elmo's face...and his hands! hahaha!

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2 coronas, some vodka, some chivas and he's out...great mushroom seats though!

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this is what guys do when we're high!!

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muahhahaa x-rated!

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wah even the girls r joining in...wrestling royal rumble uh?!

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owen's bday 'suit'...construction worker!

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lol

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i'm near invisible in the white room!

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Happy Birthday!
posted by mango at 11:21 PM 0 Bitchings


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