The naked truths of Mango!

boring night

2009-01-06T01:36:00.002+08:00

Boring Night

It is Monday night and Bangkok and aside from having a really good sleep, having Japanese Ramen for dinner, I haven't got a plan. And so it marks the most boring night of the trip so far. Decided that since I have got time on my hands I should just resize those truckloads of pictures and blog a little. Unfortunately the connection is rather slow and at 1 baht per minute of usage, I figured I would need to spend like 500 bahts to edit and upload everything. That just isnt worth it so I'd have to make do with 1/8 of the amount of photos I have and the rest would have to wait.

Just checked the airfares to chiang mai this evening and the prices were terrible even for thai budget airlines. It costs something like $B4000 (roughly SGD$200) for a 2 way trip to chiang mai from bangkok. Add up the taxi fares to and from the airports and it just really isnt worth going. Looks like I'd have to settle for Issan and Pattaya.

It's been more than 2 weeks since I'm here and it's really starting to feel boring. The hotel receptionist are probably sick of seeing my face 2-3 times everyday and the housemaids have even figured out how I want my room to be prepared and tided up. Do I miss Singapore? Do I miss home? I don't. I'm even trying to see if I could extend this vacation and alas my already long bills longer.

At the Suvarnabhumi airport, its rather quiet there but slowly the tourists are returning..

Clearing customs was so hassle free and fast!

With Mel at the taxi stand outside the airport

My messy room at Citin Hotel in Pratunam, finally I'm back at Pratunam!

The view from my room window

Baiyoke Suite hotel

I love street breakfast....only $2+ for all these!

J-One massage parlour + sauna (with special of coz) and no, I havent been there before!

The busy Sampeng lane at Chinatown

On the TukTuk back from Chinatown

Cant really see Mel's hair braids

Being vain, being me

refreshing trip

2009-01-04T20:58:00.002+08:00

Refreshing Trip

The smell of pollution from the heavy traffic in Bangkok is such a stark contrast as to that of the refreshing sea breeze in Hua Hin. Things didn't excatly went well these, I got into some kind of terrible tummy ache on the 1st night after indulging myself in those cheap and tasty seafood. I spent almost the entire 2nd day in bed down with stomachache, fever and then cough. Terrible but the phramacy saved my trip from turning into a disaster.

The weather there is fantastic, it feels like I'm in genting. Yeah it is that cold especially in the morning. The beaches were great as well and for like the first time in my life I could sit on one of those beach chairs just in front of the coast drinking away, watching people of all walks of life walking past me and thinking how great life is. Fantastic getaway it is from busy hectic bangkok. Anticipating my next trip to Pattaya this weekend!

fire in santika.....

2009-01-01T17:44:00.001+08:00

Fire in Santika

A twist in fate....a devine help from above......

And I'm alive in 1 piece.

Unfortunately for my friends they were not.......

1 Dead....

1 Burnt....

God bless them.

I need to get out of bangkok now, im going to Hua Hin tml for a short getaway. I need some zen.

feeling sick on xmas

2008-12-25T17:10:00.003+08:00

Feeling sick on x'mas

I finally found some time to blog while waiting for my friend to get ready to leave. The golden rule when meeting a thai is to turn up at least 30 mins later than the agreed time. There are pics i wanna upload but Im not sure if i should plug my usb into this computer just in case there's some virus.

It's been 4 days since I've been Bangkok and things haven't been a bed of roses so far. The street outside my hotel is flooded due to a pipe burst which makes walking out to the main roads rather annoying. Obviously I couldn't wear any flip flops out. This is my first christmas in Thailand and my 2nd consecutive one away from Singapore. I have to say Christmas isn't really a big deal here, there's no countdown - at least at the club and places I went, nor were there any obvious christmas parties going on. Seem like Christmas eve is just another public holiday for the locals. I spent my christmas eve shopping away at Platinum Fashion Mall with Mel from the late afternoon onwards before hitting the club JET at night. Finally I was able to get into that club and got myself a comfortable sofa seat. Made a couple of new Thai friends there as well. It was an ordinary xmas eve for me. Nothing too special but I had my fair share of fun.

However today isn't that fun, I woke up with my eyes feeling heavy, body feeling numb and I just had this feeling some kind of illness - possibly fever or flu is just around the corner. It's really terrible to be sick in a foriegn land.

Merry Christmas all, god bless.

the end of yet another chapter

2008-12-19T22:46:00.003+08:00

The end of yet another chapter

I truly appreciate the turn out, the efforts and everything these people have put in to make it a lovely sending off for me. I've come to the end of yet another chapter in my life and it's time to take a long well deserved vacation before commencing on another new adventure. It does feels really wierd and yet great for a long while to be able to wake up at 10.30am. I just haven't gotten used to the feeling of waking up having and knowing I have a free day ahead. It's like waking up on a Saturday or Sunday. I don't feel 100% about anything though, the feelings are very mixed. I feel a little stress, I feel happy, I feel anxious, I feel contended. I have absolutely no idea which is the correct feeling.

But its ok, for I had a wonderful Friday. Thanks for the memories.

My boss

The most old fashioned person i ever know lol

7 more working days

2008-12-08T12:37:00.003+08:00

7 more working days

The speed which this year passes by is really scary. It seem that not long ago it was January, then June and now it's the last month of the year - December. I say it's scary because time can really pass so fast and if u haven't been doing anything useful, time can really waste you. I feel wierd this year, as much as I look forward to the month long break, I can't help but cast a wary eye beyond all that fun and festive period. It's going to be a very important period in my life.

I love the beach, especially the sunrise view

It's been 12 years since I slept in 1 of these...too long

The sound of the waves brings tranquil to my soul

Simple and beautiful sights

Signing off

privacy down the drain

2008-12-04T19:48:00.004+08:00

Privacy down the drain

Everyone has secrets and I'm a very private person to begin with. I really loathe it when people indulge themselves into my innear world. It can be as simple a world as an email account. Absolutely nobody, not even the president has the right to interfere in my privacy unless I warrant them the permission to do so. Some people just don't get it and unfortunately those people happen to be what I consider one of my good friends.

What is an office when everytime u leave ur desk u have to remove your cards, lock your drawers, hide all your valuables or even lock the door? It's like living with thieves. Some days ago I found my e-mail suspiciously wierd.....the message which have been read keep reappearing as unread. Ever the simple minded person, I blush it off as a technical error in outlook express only for the problem to deepen when it totally appeared that someone is controlling my email account, marking all sorts of mails as unread, defracing my messages and even worse, deleting it all. Better still, the culprit (i'm disappointed with this person so i shall leave his name out) managed to convince me that it's some bug and even offer to help me contact the IT services hotline to resolve it. Needless to say I did panic when my messages started disappearing and my reactions must have been kind of funny. Things resumed back to normal after like 20 mins, and I was infact more surprised than suspicious at the speed it took the "IT Team" to resolve the problems at that time.

And when I eventually found out yesterday that the person had actually secretly added himself as a delagate on my email which entitles him to all access of my email which also means he got the passwords to my mail and other forum accounts, I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. I see as a good friend and u do this shit to me? I can take jokes and I understand u love fooling around but what is funny to u may not necessary be the same to me. As pissed as I am, I'm at a loss of words, even if the purpose is to conjure me into thinkin that my email or computer has got a bug or virus. It just isn't funny. Whatever happens to 'Privacy'.

If there's one thing that never fails to piss me off is when people try poking their noses into my private business no matter what the purpose is.

genting trip

2008-11-20T05:57:00.002+08:00

Genting Trip with T13

I have been really busy with myself for the last 2 weeks, hardly had any time to update. And now that I do, here it goes.

For starters, T13 is the name of my poly class and about 2 weeks ago we went to Genting, our first overseas trip as a group. Honestly I wasn't looking forward to it because I didn't wanted to go in the first place but the ticket have already been bought and regardless of my presence or absence, I would still have to pay for the ticket. Hence common sense prevailed. I went ahead and thank god I did. To call it enjoyable would be an understatement. I called it fulfilling. The last and only time I ever been there was at least 11 years ago. Alot has seen changed, of course the present Genting is way better and I found out it is quite a good place for a short weekend getaway. That trip also marked my casino 'debut'. I've been to various casinos before especially those higher end ones in Macau but I've never tried my hand on the gambling tables. I'm just not a gambler but I've since broken my duck. Call it beginner's luck - I won roughly about RM300. It could obviously have been more if I had been more daring with my chips but it obviously could have been worse either. Neither way, it's a win win situation as it's all just for fun.

Despite having a pretty good time out there, the trip was extremely tiring no thanks to how the arrangements and timings, especially that of the hotel check in was made. We reached Genting at about 5.15am having departed Singapore at 10.30pm and that is at least a good 7 hours. Ok the journey isn't really tiring as the coach was very comfortable. But we had to wait until 3.30pm the next day before we could check in the hotel. I never had a good impression of First World Hotel ever since my friends told me the rooms were small like mouse holes and I was proven right. It wasn't the mouse hole rooms though, it was the horribly ineffecient check in methods they have there. It may be the biggest hotel in the world with over 6500 rooms, each filling at least 2 occupants which potentially makes it a good 13,000 guests in the hotel at a time. This is where the check in queues were terrible. The queue numbers sequences seem longer than the Great Wall of China. Thankfully Owen had arrived a day earlier and we were able to rent alittle space in his room for our bags - all 14 of us. Can u imagine if that hadn't happened? We would have to carry all these bags everywhere - breakfast, lunch, casinos, theme parks, etc.

Needless to say I was severely deprived of sleep throughout the trip. 4 hours is probably the most I have slept overall. I haven't encountered such a terrible hotel before, even the last visit to Genting, although I remembered everyone being made to wait for check in time to arrive, we were able to proceed everything fast. That was at another hotel though. Well maybe I'm too used to the 5 star treatment and smooth sailing check ins I have experienced from Bangkok Hotels. Thankfully the return journey on that first class coach - the first time I see a coach so classy and even have cabin crew serving food etc - was very comfortable. Just a pity I was too tired to explore the numerous features like games, movies, massage chair as I spent almost 80% of the journey sleeping away under the blanket.

And yes I finally gotten my LG Secret phone, the first time I'm switching away from Nokia phones. I almost shot myself in the foot when I tried to set the language and ended up pressing Chinese. It is not like nokia phones where I do not need to be able to read the words to know where I needed to click or go to change it back to English. Luckily I managed to get Dad to revet it back to English for me. He too spent a good 30 mins figuring that out. The consequences would have been dire if I had accidently pressed Korean or Arabic instead of Chinese! Anyhow, I love my new phone to bits and it certainly looks and feels alot nicer and classier than in the photos shown below. =)

stranger things have happened

2008-11-03T20:29:00.003+08:00

Stranger things have happened

Recently, afew things that haven't crossed my mind actually happened. First, I randomly browse on someone's profile and the next day that person messaged me my full name and asked if I was from Boon Lay Primary school. It was truly amazing as not many could actually remember something that isn't really worth remembering - such as my name, after more than 15 years. 15 freaking years. And the best thing was that she wasn't even from my class. Apparently I had all but forgotten that I had been placed in different chinese class and we happened to be in that particular chinese class. However I honestly still couldn't figure out who is she. I will have to wait until she shows me her primary school photo I gues. To others, it may seem normal that they still keep in touch with their primary school friends but for me, apart from afew who ended up in the same poly, secondary school or somehow have crossed paths now and then over the years, I really do not keep in touch with anyone and its even more amazing someone I don't know back then remembers me so vividly. It must be because I was the worst student in Chinese class!

People often say I haven't changed over the years. So it must be easy to spot me in a 13 or 14 years ago photo.

As if that wasn't enough, I actually found someone who shares the same birthday as me but is excatly a year younger than me. Again it is probably normal to many others but when say same birthday, I don't refer to strangers. It must be at least an acquaintance and for 1/4 of a century, I've had 25, 26, 28, 29 June but never a 27 until last night. Now I have a good vibe about this, long may it continue.

halloween 2008

2008-11-02T18:11:00.004+08:00

Halloween 08

It must be the only time of the year where I could get stopped by guys in the toilet with requests of "can i take a picture with u?" or "can i take a picture of u?"

The initial plans were zouk but unfortunately when u have friends who are Saggitarius or Aries, their extreme lack of patience can make a short queue seem longer than Rapunzel's hair. The queue wasn't long but the number of people who were queuing for their 'friends' and the refusal of the management to open the door until 9pm or something makes it really unpleasant especially when u consider the number of people in costumes and make up that must have made them felt like humans in an oven. Then someone suggested Double O, I suggested St James but the majority of the votes went to Double O. I had no say, and I guess Zouk will have to wait another year. It was a pity because there were alot of interesting costumes around and the atmosphere should be perfect.

It was only about 9 when we got to Double O and to be honest I wasn't too please about going there. I told Jeri that if most of the people there aren't in costumes then I'm getting my ass out of there. When we got in, the place was rather empty, so much that the smoking room actually reeks of more air conditioned air than cigarette smoke. I was annoyed and being me, no matter how much I try to hide my displeasure or unhappiness, even with the aid of a mask, it will always show. My body language was that of a man being forced to be standing at where I was currently. I guess they got the message and soon we were on the way to Butter Factory where there was a queue that doesn't seem long. It was there were the halloween mood started to really take off as we fooled around with each other and took photos with absolute strangers. Then Sze Wei and Shank came with their friends and things got better there only for the impatience of Daniel to move things back to Double O again. His reason was that the queue wasn't moving. It was ridiculous because the queue had moved at least 200 metres from where we started to where we were presently. The last thing I wanted was an argument on this ocassion so I told them they could go back to Double O while I stayed on with Sze Wei and the others to see how things went.

Unfortunately for me they seem to have made the right decision. A "Full House" sign was soon placed right in front of me and there were only like 10 heads before me. I waited another 15 minutes before deciding i wasn't going to waste another minute of it and headed back to Double O to join them again.

The misfortune of the queuing aside, things were really smooth the whole night except my body which was sweating horribly under the costume. But it must have been worth it was I kept getting photo requests, stares, waves, compliments about my costumes, hugs, and even kisses from absolute strangers including a guy who wore an SIA stewardess outfit! The only troubles were that I had to lift my mask to smoke or drink. So I am pleased to have come through my first Halloween which I dressed up - successfuly. Onwards to next year!

(There are too many photos, majority have been placed up on my 3 major social sites - hi5, friendster, facebook. happy viewing!)

No taxi would take us until Daniel removed his mask to flag a cab while we hide somewhere!

The funiest costume I saw!

My costume for the night - a mix and match from my own creations

london bridge has fallen down

2008-10-27T21:49:00.005+08:00

London Bridge has fallen down!

London bridge has fallen down
Fallen down fallen down
London bridge has fallen down
The reds brought it down!

I wanted to post this entry right after the final whistle but the over dose of euphoria in my body and the fact that I was totally 'wasted' after the game made it impossible. Few would understand the magnitude of the game resulting in immerse passion and crazed actions throughout the red mist yesterday that was East of Anfield, also known as Harry's bar at Chijmes. It was my second time watching a big game there and I would like to think I've clearly found my lucky place to watch big games outside with other fans.

Yesterday's game was a big one for alot of reasons. For 4 years 6 months and 8 days, no team have ever beaten Chelsea at their home ground. It was a top of the table game and there's alot more at stake besides bragging rights, points, and pride.

Jeri and I had arranged an outing for the forummers to watch this game and in order to get the best possible seats we were at the bar as early as 6pm, more than 3 hours before the game. And by 9pm which is 30 minutes before the kick off, the near empty bar had transformed into a sea of red mist. Songs and chats filled the air, people came in their dress code for the night - red liverpool jerseys old and new, liverpool polo t-shirts, sweaters, caps, anything that is red and has the liverbird on it is deemed appropriate. And then a female Man U fan came in with her red Man U jersey to absolute boos, mockings and taunts from the crowd - friendly ones though.

For 90 fucking minutes, strangers were going to become friends, enemies were going to be united and any form of unhappiness is going to vanish into thin air. The mission was simple - to turn down stamford bridge and to roar the reds to victory.

As usual, the official anthem "You Will Never Walk Alone" was belted out in full voice that could have blew the roof off. Everyone had their arms around the nearest person they could reach as we sang the anthem feeling as sense of pride and brotherhood gushing through our blood.

Then the game started and after 10 minutes, Alonso scored as the roof immediately went off. It was a miracle that our table supporting bottles and glasses of beers and drinks managed to stay intact amid the wild celebrations. The next 80 minutes saw the usual chants and songs belted out, fingers and fists raised at the screen whenever a bad decision came from the referee, claps whenever Liverpool made a good move and abuse like "fuck off" being shouted from all parts of the place. And when the final whistle came, everyone went bonkers, and before I knew it I found myself up on my feets dancing, jumping and hugging everyone that I could reach. We had done the impossible, we had written history and we have beaten Chelsea, one of our main rivals at their home ground where no team had managed to for 4 fucking long years!

I thought my behaviour was crazed enough but I was wrong. Jeri totally outdone me as did many others including a guy who looked like he's in his early 40s jumping totally non stop like a Duracell Rabbit waving his big Liverpool flag. As most of the crowd exited the bar, a number of us stayed back to celebrate and the most memorable thing worth noting was when everyone stood up some 40 minutes after game had ended, arms in arms, forming a huge circle and singing You Will Never Walk Alone with pride and joy. I believe there is going to be a video or clip made from occassions like this as I saw a professional camera/video guy filming the Liverpool fans the whole night.

Overall, last night had surpassed the nigh we beat Man U and it was a surprise considering how bitter the rivarly is between Liverpool and Man U. Nevertheless I couldn't be bothered as long as we are kicking the asses of these shitheads. Long may these memorable nights continue! But there was downside to it all - I had made the mistake of not checking my camera before bringing it out and the battery was totally flat!

An hour after the game, people were still jumping up and down!!

reunion

2008-10-13T18:49:00.006+08:00

Reunion

It seems like a wierd combination. One is an intelligent girl, successful in everything she's ever done, loves the finer side of life. Another is a hyper and fun-loving girl, although blur, clumsy and almost always late all the time, never fails to brighten up someone's day. And the last one is a sentimental alpha male, full of himself almost all the time. Somehow this combination did click - more than 5 years ago. Back then, we were all in the same polytechnic and used to hang out almost every weekend at an extinct place call sparks amongst others. Those days, it will never happen again, even if the place suddenly came back to life. The years just can't be rolled back all over again and honestly I don't think any of us can see ourselves spending fun-filled and carefree nights out. Those were the days, the days of being young with our entire lives ahead of us. Memories I will bring to my grave.

Then the time came and we graduated and went on to greener pastures as what everyone would do. Meet ups started to depreciate especially after Jean went to further her studies in Perth. But we still managed to keep in touch via msn, unfortunately the same couldn't be said about Von who always have a problem managing her little time and endless tasks. Time passes and Jean became one of the very few who could claim to know me quite well. The last time we met it was over a year ago when we went to party at the now shut-down Ministry of sound. I still can't believe the damn place has closed its doors for good! It holds so much memories for me, the nights I wasted my soul and life there. And so more than a year later we finally found time to meet up. Instead of the usual clubbing and chilling places, Jean came up with the idea of playing games, away from the hustle and bustle of the city nightlife. We settled for Holland Village where there's a Settlers' outlet but also other hangouts like cafe, coffee clubs and bars which will provide us with some aftermath options.

Like the good old days, all the little unhappiness about waiting so long to initate a meet up or whatever evaporated into thin air the moment we met. And all the laughters and nonsense starts flooding back. It seem like 2003 all over again except that we have all added afew digits to our age. And like old times, Von never fails to amuse us, be it initiating stupid facial actions or coming up with stupid answers like "Angel City" to questions such as "What is the capital of Angels". (The correct answer is Los Angeles) We spent a good estimated 3 hours in Settlers playing games before heading to coffee bean nearby to engage in nonsensical stuffs like cam whoring. It should be 1 am when we headed home to put a close to the night. I managed to get home in time to see England smash 3 second half goals past Kahzakstan to complete a simple and very satisfying Saturday.

We didn't play this for 3 hrs, just that during this game we had opporunities to snap photos

Very well defined!

I found the perfect tool for self-timer mode - only for the amused waitress to take it away after 20mins!

This is ROFL

I really like Jean's shoes! If only I was a girl or I have a GF.

something unique

2008-10-10T20:53:00.002+08:00

Something Unique

Technology have never cease to surprise me. I thought some of these photos look rather unique, and I certainly have no idea I would look great. Was it me? Or was it technology? Either way, it's just for the thrills.

subdue the obstacles

2008-10-06T19:27:00.003+08:00

Subdue the obstacles

A man has only one escape from his old self : to see a different self in the mirror of some woman's eyes.

Clare Boothe Luce

There are few moments in life as wonderful as that of having a car, a full tank of gas, a map of the entire continent spread out in front of you and the most gorgeous woman in your back seat. You would feel there isn't a place on the planet you wouldn't be able to go. Borders? What borders would there be? They will be nothing but checkpoints to remind you that you've reached a new stage in your adventure. Unfortunately for me, these checkpoints seem to be nothing but a forlorn conclusion.

In life, I tend to wait for the good things to come. And by waiting, I miss out. Usually, what I wish for doesn't falls into my arms, nor does it falls in front of me just for me to pick it up. It falls somewhere nearby, and I have to recognize it, stand up, and put in the time and effort it requires to get to it. I used to have the idea that heaven is unfair and cruel; not anymore. Heaven is smart, he knows that the things which falls into our arms, are the ones we wouldn't appreciate. I am like a man stranded in a drought and just when I had my hopes up as the skies turned dark and gloomy, a slow drizzle came instead of the thunderstorm I desired. I would have to make a decison. I would have to pick up my bucket and work to catch each drop as it falls from the skies.

Many times, my failures in life were the results of confusions getting the better of me. Each time I ask myself whether I should or shouldn't, I would often end up making the wrong choice. And so I decided that it is a time for a change, afterall if I keep doing the same things, I will keep getting the same results. If I think I could have, then I could have. As soon as I asked myself whether I should or shouldn't, it means I should. I am great believer of fate but I also believe that man can overcome destiny sometimes. Just that he needs to understand the obstacles better, and find a solution for each of time. In a war, if you are going against 2 allied armies, you could fight both of them single-handedly where he chances of winning is not as great as when u study the objectives of your enemies. They might be allies but they could be joining forces because of different reasons. Hence if you know your enemy, you will be able to use different solutions on each of them and instead of fighting 2 armies you could end up fighing just one. It is the same in life, find our your enemies, understand them and then work out what you need to do to subdue them. I think I have found out mine.

I was never one who could talk all day long directly and openly about the more private side of my life and I still is. It is not surprising then, that people often theme me as a wierdo or discreet person who is simply un-understandable. Everyone has secrets and a private and that safe is one which is entitled only to people worthly of unlocking it.

F1 Singapore Grand Prix 2008

2008-10-01T13:54:00.003+08:00

Singtel F1 Singapore Grand Prix 2008

38 days. It felt like I was never away for that duration in the first place. I haven't missed blogging a single bit during the time I was away. It felt like a rest I have long warrented. The timing of my laptop's death couldn't have come at a better time. I still haven't got my new laptop yet which is quite annoying and bothersome, but I felt I needed to blog about such a historic and memorable event - The first ever F1 night race held in Singapore.

I've been an avid fan of F1 for the last 2 years and so when they announce last year that we would be hosting the first ever night race in 2008 I couldn't contain my delight. That delight would soon turn into a series of moans when the ticket prices were released. $168 being the cheapest 3 day pass and that does not provide u a seat at a grandstand. The most expensive was the mind blogging $6500 ones but I figure out a $1399 one would be great enough. The problem was that the tickets were released in Febuary this year and the race only took place in September. A mad rush for the tickets, especially the cheaper ones ensured the moment they were on sale. The only F1 friend I could think of didn't wanted to go so I just gave up the idea. It seem at that point of time that watching my first ever F1 race live would have to wait at least another year. That was until Friday.

I woke up with a swollen left eye on Friday morning and with it being a Friday I decided that seeing a doctor doesn't hurt. There was another thing on my mind - F1. Friday was the first day, the practice sessions. But I shrugged it off and got myself ready to see the doctor. Then, as if heaven had the script written for that day, it rained. A morning thunderstorm at 8am. Without a choice, I had to delay the visit to the doctor. I started surfing some classified sites like ebay and came across a number of people placing their F1 tickets for sale. Like a heorin addict who haven't had a jab for a couple of hours, I started an intensive search for a suitable package in terms of price & types of seats. I wasn' even aware that I wasn't supposed to go and I had nobody to go with. That would wait though as I soon chanced upon a great offer of $1100 for a pair of grandstand tickets. There were other options as well and for the next 1 hour or so my phone buzzed non stop with all kinds of offers and trading activities. While negotiating with various people, I started thinking of who I wanted to invite. Finally I settled on Denise for the practice session with me and Jos watching the qualifying and race with me. It was quite a chaotic last minute decision and with the exception of Friday, I was always sure who I wanted to watch the race with. Initially we had only decided on the qualifying on Saturday before she changed her mind saying it's wierd to watch the qualifying without watching the race - muc to my delight and relief.

I could write all day long about everything that took place through the 3 days so to summarize it up, it was simply a magnificent and memorable experience. The kind that I could relate to my grand children and the kind whereby in a decade's time people will still be talking about it. And me? I could proudly say: "yes I was there, I was there when it took place and I was there when Nelson Piquet crashed his Renault."

The whole event obviously cost alot of money, and to most people it's simply insane paying over a thousand to watch cars but to me it was worth every single penny of it. I must have spent something close to $1400 for everything (tickets, transport, meals, souvenirs, etc) over 3 days but there's no regrets it was an experience of a lifetime.

The only general unhappiness was $10 for a plate of cai tao kuay (carrot cake) and it took 30 mins to cook, almost got me late for my race! Oh red bull cost $4 a can too!

A fabulous skyline view of the circuit

Expensive race passes

Can u spot Kimi Raikkonen (Ferrari's 2007 world champion)?

Priceless photo!

Friday - Practice Session

A crowd gathering outside city hall mrt hoping for a free peak into the circuit on Friday

Spectators find all sorts of ways to take a rest from the heat

Me & WeiXiang

Me & Denise

I like this picture, i think it looks great!

BMW formula V6 cars

Ashton Martin

Nico Rosberg's Williams

McLaren Mercedes

Marina Bay Grandstand

In front of DXO

View from Esplande Waterfront Grandstand

Toyota

Red Bull

Honda

Ferrari

Toro Rosso

Lewis Hamilton

Kimi Raikkonen's Ferrari

Robert Kubica's BMW

Spectators without tickets

Saturday - Qualifying Session

Some unknown race marshall i grabbed to snap a photo with

USA modeals - they look more like ladyboys to me lol

Vintage car - check out the spare tyre location!

Our famous 'durians'!

In front of the supreme court

Zouk at the padang!

Drinks menu!

So cute! I mean the greeny icon haha

In front of the Ferrari store!

Anderson Bridge

Slacking at work? They dont get paid anyway!

Brazilian street performances by ladyboys

Mark Webber's Red Bull Renault

She could hardly snap any cars, too fast lol

Eagerly anticipating the moment of their lives.....Jus kidding!

BMW

In front of the Zouk Resident DJ

BMW formula V6 cars

Kimi during qualifying

The track and grandstand at Padang

McLaren in full speed during Qualifying flying lap

Sunday - Race Day

Chilling before the race

Race Marshalls positioning themselves to snap priceless pics during the drivers parade before the race! Damn it, jealous!

Drivers Parade - Kimi Raikkonen (The rest are in videos)

In our seats

Before the race

Nelson Piquet crashed in front of us!

Help and safety car arrives

Fernando Alonso

Lewis Hamilton

Towing the car towards us...much to everyone's delight!

Nico Rosberg

Closed up view of the screwed renault

The marina bay grandstand

After the race. Satisfied - fully!

Video Clips
Some are not uploaded, too many to upload!

the great debate

2008-08-25T03:32:00.004+08:00

The great debate

It has been awhile since I blogged, the primary reason is that without Mr Laptop, there isn't alot I could do. It's just not the same using someone else's laptop - there isn't the softwares I need to resize and edit my photos, there isn't alot I could do and it just isn't as comfortable sleeping on a new bed as one you have been sleep on for years. While I can't possibly get by forever with that as an excuse for not blogging, it also require something interesting or special to bring me out of my shell. I found it yesterday when I read the papers - the PM's national day rally on getting people to get married and start families younger. But that's not it, it's how they only publish the females' opinions and what they say in it that is really interesting and yet disgusting as well.

I, for one is tempted to have my own say. So from a guy's point of view using the same questions as thrown to the females, here goes...

I'm single but no desperate because...
I allow alot of opportunities, some which seem really right for me, to slip by me in the past. You could see it as I've screwed up or I haven't met Miss Right yet. Either way, it makes sense. But I don't see the point of getting married young just for the sake of it if one is not ready. As a guy there is a greater responsibility and burden carry. I've been single for 2 years and there's no rush about getting into a relationship because I would want the next one to be the last one. It's hard to find someone you like who also feels the same way as you. Many times it's a case of either party feeling differently from the other so they don't click.

Singaporean women are a turn-off because...
They are hypocrites and too money minded. Some could on for hours about how they don't need the 5Cs, or how simple minded they are. But before you know it, you see them splurging on the latest Louis Vuitton speedy handbag or talk so deep about sports cars that leaves you wondering if they expect you to pick them up in a Ferrari for a date or something. They talk about how Singaporeans guys are poor dressers but there seem to be alot more slippers, flip-flops and singlets around in town these days and no prizes for guessing which genders are the ones wearing it. I've gone on a date before where I'm all dressed up appropriately while she turned up looking like she's going to the nearby shopping mall's supermarket. If that isn't a major turn off or a lack of social graces, I don't know what it is. The women also generally have unrealistic expectations. They expect to be treated like a Queen all the time which is impossible and how can you expect a guy with power and knowledge to be submissive and pamper you like a Queen all the time? To summarize it all up, their words and actions are often contradicting and they are always difficult to appease, never contended with what they have and always seeking more. It can be suffocating after a long hard day's work where you sit down with your partner hoping to unwind or something and then she starts talking about the latest handbag, condos or going away on holiday.

My ideal partner is...
One with a kind and beautiful heart who is both family-oriented and not too outgoing. I can't handle wild cats who just want to party and have fun all the time. They don't give me a sense of security with this kind of behavior. A kind and family-oriented person tends to be more responsible and well-mannered. I'm not going to be a hypocrite and say looks doesn't matter. It does, afterall you will be seeing her everyday when you get married and obviously it has to be someone I enjoy seeing right? I need someone who is able to understand me which is probably as tough as solving the Da Vinci Code. Being intellectual, confident and self-assuring doesn't hurts too.

My response to PM Lee's National Day Rally...
While PM Lee's concerns are valid, I'm against the idea of using match-making to resolve the problem. In my opinion, it is a selfish stance that will only pile up the problems in future. How can one be so selfish as to ask the people to get married just to resolve the country's problem? That is like scarificing one's happiness to appease the nation. Will people be happy marrying someone and yet doesn't love them? There's going to be more unhappy workers everyday and definitely more divorces. We aren't living in the 70s or 80s, majority of the people here would prefer to seek their own happiness themselves without any aids. Of course there will still be a minority who, for some reasons turn to match-making. Also, the high standard of living and sub-standard income doesn't helps either. Why would anyone want to get married and start a family when they themselves already have problems financially?

tagged

2008-08-11T17:06:00.004+08:00

Tagged

I haven't got a clue what this is all about but it seem I should be honoured I got included without me asking so the next manly thing to do is to at least write the entry for Auntie HB. Afterall, I get to watch free movie and see some interesting people if everything goes according to the instructions stated on her blog. Lazy to elaborate, read it here.

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The craziest thing I have done for love is believing it is love when it actually was a booty call…

Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008

(ORIGINATOR BLOG: http://the-hb-diaries.blogspot.com)

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The craziest thing I have done for love is to fly all the way to Bangkok for 6 days without taking a single day of leave just to see her.

Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008

(http://mynakedtruths.blogspot.com)

Not gonna tag anyone, don't think I have the time to do it.

i ain't got no squat

2008-08-09T23:29:00.003+08:00

I ain't got no squat

Funny post that I found. Writer is an Englishman working in Bangkok. Now I think I know why there isn't any squat toilet bowls in western countries haha.

I had a business meeting today in a government office in Nontaburi province, about an hour away from my home. The meeting began at 9:00 this morning and by about 9:08 my bowels were rumbling. I had to take a dump.

Big Time.

Unfortunately, I didn’t think I could jump up right after the meeting began and disappear for ten minutes, so I decided to wait until we had a break. That turned out to be nearly 90 minutes later.

At break time I set off on a fast walk to the men’s toilet which I was told was one floor down. Rather than spend a lot of time describing the sight I was faced with when I arrived at the WC, I’ll simply refer you to the picture at the top of the blog. While this is not precisely what my toilet looked like, it’s a damned good approximation.

I couldn’t believe it. This was a Thai government office. How could they NOT have a *real* toilet for me. There were three stalls, so there was hope. I checked them all. No luck. Three squatters.

I realized that the stall had a bucket of water but no toilet paper. (If you have to ask you don’t want to know). The clock was ticking, but not just on the break time. I had a more urgent physical clock ticking away below my belt line. I needed to act fast.

I said a little prayer and looked on the wall near the door of the bathroom. YES!! There was a toilet paper roll mounted on the wall. The idea is that you grab a handful on the way in and use it at the appropriate time. I moved as quickly as my condition would allow and started pulling. It was a good-news-bad-news thing. The good news was that there was toilet paper. The bad news was that it was the end of the roll. There was just enough for one, very careful, ass-wiping. There wouldn’t be any second chances.

I draped the clean toilet paper around my neck, leaving an empty roll for the next unlucky bastard who found himself in this building and needing to pinch a loaf. Now, if you’ve never used a squat toilet, it’s difficult to explain just how hard it is to use one if you haven’t grown up using them.

You don’t sit on the throne like Al Bundy on a Sunday afternoon, you squat over a hole the way I imagine Neanderthals did when they needed to grunt one out at the end of a long day of hunting. Thais — in fact most Asians — spend their lives squatting and they can manage to achieve a flat-footed position with their bum just inches off the ground without ever having their balance or equilibrium threatened. Me? I can’t do it. I never could have done it in my life. I can’t dream about learning to do it. Somehow, Thai people simply lift their skirts or drop their drawers, squat directly over this hole in the floor and fill it with poo.

Now, one of the things to get in your head if you’ve never visited one of these is that the floor is always soaking wet. The bucket of water that is used to ‘flush’ the toilet invariably ends up wetting everything.

I’ve always struggled to manage my kit so that I accomplish everything:

My trousers stay dry
I shit in the hole and not on my pants
I pee in the hole and not on my pants or my shoes
I manage to clean my bum and flush at the end without soaking my underwear like sponge

I’ve found only one solution over the years.

Basically, I get undressed. I take my pants and underwear off and hang them in a safe dry place while I manage my business with the squatter. Getting my pants off requires losing the shoes, and if I don’t want them to be soaking wet I have to remove my socks as well. It gets to be quite an undertaking in the typically hot, fetid, cramped, stinking environment of a Thai squat toilet.

Today I was in a shirt and tie, with my brand new tailored slacks and Ecco walking shoes. I needed to get rid of the belt, pants, underwear, shoes and socks as quick as I could. My insides were turning to water and I was about to explode. I also had only about 7 minutes before the meeting was supposed to re-convene.

I decided I’d better get started. I inspected the space and found a nail sticking out of the wall. I carefully draped my precious 20 inches of single-ply toilet paper over the nail, then double checked to make sure there was no chance that it would fall. Now I had to get my shoes and socks off. Fortunately I’ve had some practice at this over the years and I’ve got a pretty good move where I loosen and step out of my shoe and remove my sock from my right foot. Then, I stand on top of the shoe I’ve just taken off, and remove the shoe and sock from the other foot.

All this care was pretty much for naught today, since I was gonna have to squat barefoot on the wet floor anyway, but I still executed the move pretty smoothly.

I gracefully removed my pants, but then realized that there was no place to put them where they would stay dry. With the pressure on my sphincter mounting I finally spotted a bolt on the window that would serve. I hooked my belt loop over the head of the bolt and miraculously my pants stayed where I’d put them. The underwear were off in a flash, since my feet were still dry. (I hadn’t yet abandoned the island-like safety of my Eccos).

Finally I was ready to move into position. I turned my bulk so that I could get a foot on each side of the opening; this necessitated that the souls of my feet get damp, but I comforted myself with the idea that it was all fresh clean water from the cistern bucket. My ass, instead of being carefully placed two or three inches above the hole in the ground as intended, was hovering a foot and a half or more in the air. It was a dangerous position to be in… one where anything could happen.

There was a split second wooossh and what had been inside now was outside. Fortunately I’d moved my shoes against the wall because there was a fair bit of splatter.

Now that I’d relaxed, my urine started flowing freely. And this is where the logistics all got to be a bit too much for me. I failed to maintain directional control and the spray started missing the hole and streamed all over the floor in front of me. I was so dazed and confused that I spent three or four seconds creating a yellow puddle before I realized what I’d done. It was too late.

But there was no time for self-recrimination. I was just going to have to make the best of a deteriorating situation.

Now there was a critical decision to be made. I only had enough toilet tissue for one wipe, so I couldn’t have any false finishes. No wiping and then realizing that there was more ammo loaded in the bomb bay, so I concentrated on making sure that there weren’t gonna be any late surprises to compound the pee pee problem. This requires a certain amount of calmness and relaxation, but at the same time the sweep second hand was counting down towards the end of the meeting break. I probably only had four or five minutes tops to finish up here and get back to the meeting room.

I was in Thailand, so I tried to enter a zen-like state were I would be completely one with the universe. Only then would I know that it was safe to wipe with the tiny white tissue, that at this moment seemed more valuable than gold. Finally I was sure. I folded the tissue carefully and cleaned myself.

A Thai person at this point might have made use of the bucket of water. I decided to make do with the single pass of the tissue. I just didn’t think I could handle the logistics of washing, and I had no idea how I’d dry if I could.

I stood up and reached for my underwear. The first trick was to get them on without contaminating them with the damp water on the bottom of my feet. I managed pretty well I think. Now the slacks. This was gonna be a bigger issue. I had peed on the floor and I didn’t want to drag my pants through that puddle, nor did I want to capture any of the poo poo splatter in the cuffs of my trousers. I decided I needed a new move… something I’d never tried before. I gathered up the legs of my pants so that they were folded like an accordion and only as long as a pair of cargo shorts. I carefully stepped into them, managing not to fall. Whew! That felt like I’d probably passed the most delicate part of the operation. But I’d underestimated the challenge that lay ahead. I had to get the socks & shoes on without fouling them in the puddle of piss or the poo splatters.

Without taking you through the painful details, I’ll tell you that I got the socks on, but before I managed to get my foot inside my shoe I stepped in the piss! D’oh!!!

In fact, to my horror, I did it with both feet. Now I had to put my piss-smelly feet into my beautiful leather shoes and walk back into the business meeting. Well, a man’s got to do what a man’s got to do. The only step left was to try to clean up the mess. I grabbed the scoop and started pouring water everywhere to flush the toilet and try to wash away the pee. Needless to say, when I finished I washed my hands with soap and water several times.

I arrived back at the meeting, expecting that I would look cool as a cucumber… none the worse for the wear and tear. Instead, I arrived looking very much like I’d been through an ordeal. I was sweating profusely. My face was red. I hadn’t realized it but I was short of breath. The people in the meeting asked if I was okay. For all I know I smelled like a Belgian hooker in a leather coat with my piss-soaked socks inside my shoes.

I apologized and blamed the heat outside. I told everyone that I’d be okay after a couple of minutes in the air conditioned room. I doubt that anyone actually believed me, but this is Thailand so they all smiled and agreed. My workday ran until nearly five o’clock. Somehow during the day I forgot about the ordeal in the toilet… perhaps my subconscious just buried it from my conscious mind.

I took a taxi and a train to get home. I bought a bottle of milk at 7-11. I walked into my room and did what I do nearly every day. I took off my shoes and socks. And from 30 years of habit, wondering whether they needed to be washed or if they were fresh enough to wear again tomorrow, I held my socks to my nose and took a deep whiff.

ouch!

2008-08-04T13:56:00.005+08:00

Ouch!

Bad year with injuries continues with no signs of stopping. One problem after another, Saturday laptop crashed, Sunday my toe crashed during soccer. I think there's a problem with the bone in my big toe, hurts everytime i try to move or walk but x-ray results proved otherwise. I'm not convinced whatsoever.

The doctor must be nuts as well, she stated on the paper my pain level is 1-2 (1-10 with 10 being the most painful). Anyone wanna try having 4 needles inserted into ur feets at one go and then having someone cut open ur nail and slowly dig and pull it all out?

death of my laptop

2008-08-02T18:38:00.002+08:00

Death of my laptop

I'm an angry man today. My laptop died earlier than I expected. All my fucking files, softwares, programs, documents and stuffs are inside!! I don't have any back up and to be fucking honest there's nobody to blame but myself and this is why I'm so furious with everything. So furious that I slammed the laptop so hard on the desk afew times that my arm muscles accidently got strained.

Fuck the bloody laptop, goodbye all my pictures and important stuffs.

Perhaps this is all fated.

I'm so fucked up!!

Argh!!!!!!!!!!

something is in the air

2008-07-17T21:46:00.003+08:00

Something's in the air!

I officially declare myself in love with white - the white of Apple products in the form of Mac! My faithful good old IBM laptop of 5years plus is growing older and getting fragile as the days passes by. So it's time for a change! And I've got in mind getting either an iMac desktop or the Macbook Pro or Air but the thing is I might not get used to a computer that doesn't operates on the microsoft windows platform. Decided to heed Dino's advise to check out more during the upcoming IT show in August but quite frankly, I'm drooling at the sheer elegance of the iMac!

iMac

Macbook Air

Macbook Pro

his melancholy

2008-07-12T14:11:00.004+08:00

His Melancholy

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love.
But then one suffers from not loving.
Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer.
To be happy is to love. To be happy is then to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy.
Therefore to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness.
I hope you're getting this down.
Woody Allen, Love and Death

The rays of the sun shone through the gaping of my partly opened window like a glide of laser beam down on my face. I opened my eyes to a brand new day - Saturday; but nothing had changed. Immediately I felt the demons of a fornight circling my fragile brain like a pack of hungry werewolves circling a vulnerable boy in the forest. I closed my eyes, hoping it was a dream. It wasn't. Then I felt the call of nature, relief myself in the toilet, came back and close the window shut and got back into bed. I lay motionless, sleeping without really sleeping until the anxiety in my mind became too unbearable.

Instinctively like a good old habit that never dies, I drag myself up, turn on my laptop and head to the kitchen to pop in my daily dosage of Lingzhi pill with a glass of water. As the system boots up, I lit a cigarette and her words came flooding down all over me like an unexpected downpour. I looked at the time; 11am, did a self check on my stomach; not really hungry, that means approximately an hour more to lunch. Logging into msn, checking my phone, I couldn't find the courage to see if she's online or even think I would get a message from her on my phone. Then it beeps, I shot up like a bolt; 'click click' - it was Sean, telling me about the change in location for tomorrow's soccer game. The disappointment of the message sender was soon comforted by the fact the reminder that there's a game on tomorrow. Soccer have always been like a faithful old friend to me, never fail to find me when I needed to get away from my demons.

It was nevertheless, a temporaily resolution as the moment I put away my phone I was reminded of the predicament I was in. There question marks in my mind were getting unbearable; "am I a very difficult person to understand?", "why doesn't she feels it?", "what did I do wrong?", "is this karma?".....on and on, a never ending stream of questions perhaps as long as the Yangzhe river. I needed answers, I needed to know.

"hey, u okie or not, what's wrong", Carol always pop up at the right moment like a good old buddy she already is. The thing I like about Carol is she always talks sense although at times I couldn't stand her forthright honesty.

Me: issit very hard to understand or know more about me as a person? how u find it?
C: i dun say i really understand u, but more or less i know what kinda of person u are.
Me: tat means its hard uh
C: its not hard or easy to know someone
C: its more like whether u wanna spend more effort in knowing that someone
C: then again u cannot expect ppl to know someone inside out
C: married couples only get to know their partner only after marriage after years of courtship
Me: what about ppl who wants to know a person completely very well before entering even a rs
C: sometimes they just thought and assume this person's character out
C: as in, thinking this person is like that assume this person will react like this
C: a person before r/s and a person after r/s is very different
Me: i think i reveal very little of myself, which is true in a way
Me: i don't trust people easily, i will only slowly open up
C: ya took me 3 years, took me 3 years for u to open up to me, haha

I got the answer partly although it came from a buddy. Then my mind switched...

"i used to think that can happened also, but now i think i knew already "
"so far i knew i feel i saw, yes i dont think we can happen"
"juz my feeling, that u make me felt ..... "
"what issit about me or what i do, that make u feel we ainn't possible?"
"i dont know how to answer this question"

Humans are complex, and flawed. People who ask over-specific questions of those they love often end up getting hurt. Her words will remain a consignee that live with me for as long as we aren't together. I thought about myself, was it because I often told her that I was a box of secrets? I don't like to lie through my teeth, indeed that is the way I am. People often don't think twice about being judgemental towards me, and actually I don't mind it. Because they aren't important, she is. I can't change the way I was borned and had live for 25 years within 5 minutes, 5 hours or 5 days. I keep to myself, it is my way of protecting myself. But it doesn't necessarily meant that the cat wouldn't be let out of the bag. It would and it's dependent on the circumstances and the person, or more accurately, my relationship with the person. The few people who truly knows the kind of person I am will paint a whole different picture to the countless who don't or don't really know. It's not that I love being secretive or anything like that, it just takes time to see the real me, the more I feel right about a person, the more that person will see of me.

It's been almost 2 years to the day Iko & I broke up. I don't consider that love, because it just wasn't. My last love came in the form of Joreen, more than 2 years ago. The manner in which the relationship was ended after the amount of efforts I put in and the predicament I ended up made me distant myself from love and relationships to the point where I don't feel a thing for it anymore. The carefree life I led as a single guy all these while had always been missing something. Put it this way - I had everything, and don't want more, but if I had one more I'd give up everything.

Can we love someone we'd never seen before? In the past, I never thought or considered having a long distance relationship. I didn't think it would work, too many negatives overshadowing the positives. The years I was single, I never thought I would feel so right about a girl again, and now it had happened - at the most unexpected time in the most surprising manner. Sometimes you just have to think the unexpectantcy of love can be beautiful isn't it? But I feel helpless, there are zillions of things I would love to do for her but my current situation forbids it. I would dearly to fly over and give it my last shot in my belief of love but there's a limit to how much I can do, at least until December. There's time, I could wait, she could wait, but can love wait?

Sometimes you have to swim for your life, other times you have to go with the flow, flumbling and floating towards things unknown. Love is like this too, I always believe in letting nature take it's course. Between motionlessness and emptiness you can actually feel a hard and perpetual kernel of existence, like the core of an apple and the real truth. What is the real truth? Nothing in the world is ever totally perfect. The trick is to be happy with your lot and approach life with a spirit of understanding and tolerance, especially relationships between men and women.

the longest friday

2008-07-11T18:33:00.003+08:00

The Longest Friday

There is time for work. And time for love. That leaves no other time.
Coco Chanel

Ol Friday, they say we were supposed to thank god for it
But today I found no solace
For it was the longest Frday I've ever known
Minutes were like hours and hours were like miles
Miles apart we may be
But I've never truly got u out of my mind all these while
As absurd as it may sound
That is the naked truth
Each time my phone rings I grab it in frenetic anticipation
And today all I got was having the smile
Wiped off my face time after time
With each passing second
Irresistible doubts cloud my corrupted mind
The longest Friday it truly was and it is showing no sign of ending

the wonders of make-up

2008-07-07T00:57:00.003+08:00

The wonders of make-up

I always knew make-up can do wonders to humans but I guess I never had a more closed up insights and enlightenment on the actual aftermath effects.

Pretty?

Maybe not to the point of gorgeous but still, ask 10 guys and chances are 9 of them will say yes I want her to be my gf!!

Looks cute or sweet like a doll, thats until........

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I thought it was surgery but then it wasn't. It was make-up, but seriously I'm still not 100% convinced it's make-up. Here's the step-by-step guide on how to turn an ugly duckling into a swan without going under the knife.

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Step 1 - The clean face after washing, without make-up

Step 2 - Add contact lens that enlarge her pupil, and double-eye lids Sticker & Glue

*ps I cant help but notice the difference btw the 2 lip shapes....somehow Sonia insist it's e same person...shrugs

Step 3 - Foundation is important! make skin tone more even, IMPORTANT!! apply VERY little amount of Foundation at both side of the cheek, in order to make your face look longer and slimmer!

Step 4 - Concealer is to cover up all flaws, such as eye bags, pimple and wrinkles

Step 5 - Next Add natural Fake eye Lashes & draw a nice brow!

Step 6 - Added mascara at the bottom eye-lash, in order to make both upper and lower eye lash even.

Step 7 - Add eye liner

Step 8 - Longer eye-liners! longer the better, make small eyes look not only bigger, also longer as well

Step 9 - Add eye shadow. use one dark and one lighter colors to blend

Step 10 - Add lip gloss and blusher! & Lastly Style your dolly hair

Tadaaah!

I'm still not really convinced until I actually see the 'transformation' with my own eyes - live!

Nevertheless it's still something amazing and interesting to share. But I for one, wouldn't want a girl that is all make-up even if it makes her gorgerous. Natural beauty is still priceless, even if natural beauty is lacking, at least being natural is more beautiful than being covered by a mask.

the death of youth

2008-06-30T16:05:00.003+08:00

Just some thoughts

You're alive. Do something. The directive in life, the moral imperative was so uncomplicated. It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences. It sounded like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act.
Barbara Hall

It seems that I'm not cut out to be an actor, the doctor refused to hand me a 2 day MC no matter how pitiful I acted. Damn have to make do with only 1 day...~!^&*^%&^!*&(! There goes my long 'weekend'.

The street soccer tournament on Saturday was a disaster on a personal note and I only have myself to blame for not being responsible enough. Going drinking and having only 1 hour of sleep before going to play in a competition is sucidal as I found out. And thanks to some monkeys who dunk me with 100-plus drinks after the game, my hair and body had never felt so istonic before.

Looking back on 24 long years, I realized what the difference was between those years and current. I can no longer do anything without thinking much. I can no longer be naive. Everything I do from now onwards I would have to think before doing. Quite a tough goal to acheive having grown up a rash and reckless person but since choice is something that doesn't exists in this situation, I will just have to try and do it. Life is so different now, everything has consequences and every move I make seem to be watched by a dozen of eyes. I guess this is all part and parcel of growing up. Life have suddenly turned really stressful, a resolved problem results in yet another one resurfacing. It seem that it will never end, at least from me. I yearn to escape from all these, to seek solace somewhere far away, or even in my dreams. Someone said not too long ago that it seem nowadays I'm never happy, always seem down and troubled. I disagree with the person initially but I'm starting to change my mind now. My life puzzle is lacking some missing pieces.

The lastest book I read, totally rocks my socks off!

Happened to saw this while clearing away stuffs on my com....1995 and 2007 what a big difference!

Been a long time I visit this temple to pray, I did just that on my birthday

Grace & Me

S'pore is getting more beautiful at night

a quarter of a century

2008-06-27T00:36:00.003+08:00

A quarter of a century

I sat on the chair of my desk eating my baked beans with meat and a fried egg as the last of the milliseconds hit 1200 hours. It was my usual late night dinner for this month because of screwed up sleeping hours thanks to Euro 2008. Overwhelmed with tiredness and a lack of beauty sleep, I could and would have skipped dinner and slept on. But the child in me got excited, it wanted to stay awake and watch time tickle by to a quarter of a century of years from the day god decided I was due to arrive. Little things like this still excites me.

Wippy was the first to give me an sms right on the stroke of 12 even though the time on her watch reads 11pm (Thai time). As always, Raymond gave me another of his annual sms, the only time his words ever seem decent and makes sense. Jolene, unaware of anything, approach me for advise on selections of her only shopping stuff. Someone actually came to ask me which dress is nicer a few minutes into my birthday! And then there were the usual happy birthdays in advance, and afew others like Grace, Priscilla and Saltfish started msn-ing me. But the one which I desire most to hear from perhaps forgot about the date. Such things still matters to the child inside me. "It must be the watch, the 1 hour difference in time", I tried to comfort myself. And then she came online minutes ago where we chatted briefly about how she didn't enjoy the FHM party last evening before leaving to grab a bite. Said she will be back late. I felt a tad of disappointment overpowering my tender heart. Did Kate forgot all about my Birthday? I knew she didn't, she'd afterall sent me an sms in the afternoon jokingly mentioned about how prepared I was to turn 25 tomorrow. "It must be the hunger in her stomach", I tried unsuccessfully to comfort myself for the second time.

The settings more than often used to be the opposite of today. Loud music would blast the place and booze flowing like water from a hole in the broken pipe. I'm never one who would organize a crazy big party. This year, after deciding I won't be heading to Bangkok for my first birthday outside Singapore, I decided on quality time with someone I feel comfortable with, could talk anything under the sun and who knows me well, my reason being I just wanted something really simple yet comfortable and enjoyable. Grace immediately came to mind, and her response didn't disappoint me. I actually feel a little excited about dinner tomorrow even though we aren't strangers. I could feel the kind of excitement about meeting a date lingering through my mind. Am I out of my mind or am I getting too crazed up - feeling excited about dining with an ex-girlfriend?

As I type this entry, the ever bastard Dino gave me a double message on the phone and on the msn. He, together with Dan the manic had dunk me with water today. Thanks! But sometimes you just have to love this bastard - he's a real pain in the ass but some days he's a lovely friend.

I feel really old right now, and as much as my face defies it, it's a fact that I'm really old in terms of numbers now!

that's fuck-you money

2008-06-24T19:22:00.003+08:00

That's fuck-you money

Money was invented so we could know exactly how much we owe
Cullen Hightower

Money depresses me more than it makes me happy - I came to this conclusion today. I could strike the lottery tomorrow, become afew hundred thousand dollars wealthier and the satisfication would still be short lived. I'm not going to cheat myself and say I would be able to retire with a million dollars. There's a different between having money and having another kind of money - fuck-you money.

The ability to have or do something whenever you feel like it. That is my definition of fuck-you money. The key word is feel, it's not like I'm actually going to do/have it, it's the freedom to do/have it when I feel like doing it. Even if it's only for once a year - imagine having a top notched jazzuzi in my home that I use less than 2 times a year. Wasted? That's what fuck-you money gives you. Just to be able to have something available to you when you feel like having or doing it - I like the idea. Money is a big fuck when I'm not living in cyberspace, when I'm living in a dollar starving rat infested country where the niggard government pays out taxes credits only to take every single cent plus interest back from me.

It isn't everything but it is something, something that I want and need. I grew up with this "it isn't everything" mentality, hence there's little chance I'd ever let the dollars increase the size of my head, nor will it makes me walk down the streets with a "fuck-u I'm rich" aura. Call it greed or Satan's work but this god damnned fuck-you money is of significant importance to me. It isn't beyond reach, and it's not gonna come easy for sure, not like buying toto every weekend and hoping it strikes once. Life fucks us all, there's no better way of redemption than having the kind of money that could really fuck the shit out of life. God, I'm damned...

problems

2008-06-17T20:07:00.004+08:00

Problems

As only New Yorkers know, if you can get through the twilight, you'll live through the night.
Dorothy Parker

The feeling of waking up every morning with a heavy load of problems on your back is really frustrating and bothersome. It's like a leech that just wouldn't get off your skin. I read somewhere before that people who think alot and think too much risk losing hair. That could be the case for me. Things haven't been going well recently, mainly due to the bill problem.

It started when The Cannery posted the May08 bill over to me on May 6 and I only received the fucking bill on June 9! That is one entire month and needless to say I missed the deadline and got charged with late payment which can't be waived. $20 dollars isn't excatly a big sum and it's not the issue that is leaving me fuming with rage but rather it is how SingPost handles the situation that really pushes my blood to the tip of the scale. Apparently the company has a really inconvenient form of payment methods that is by either cash or cheque. Naturally I choosed the latter and so I mailed them my cheque last Tuesday and till today they haven't received it. The worse thing is that the June deadline 20/06/08 is fast approaching! I haven't had such a problem in the past because back then I had a friend working there and I could deposit the money to her and she would clear the payment for me but she has since quitted and that marked the start of all sorts of problems from mailing the bill to the wrong address to late bills and now missing cheques!

Carol said I should have sent the cheque as a registered mail instead of a normal mail so they will place more responsibility on it. Maybe I should have done that but how would I, a person who uses mail or postage services as often as the government increasing everyone's income, know that there is such a thing as normal (26 cents) and registered ($2.30) postage mails? Maybe I was really dumb. Fine but all I know right now is I needed to resolve this fast. I didn't want it to drag on any longer. I had already perceive I would have a bad birthday next week so the last thing I wanted is having this problem unsolved. All will depends on what kind of answer SingPost gives me tomorrow. I couldn't resist it, so I made my feelings and intentions known very clearly in black and white to them in the evening.

I should have known too my day wasn't going to go or end well judging from what happened this morning. I went to 7-11 to get my cigarettes and papers, and as I didn't have enough cash, I gave the cashier my debit card. She looked at it like it was something alien to her before asking me confusingly: "What card is this". I told her it was a debit card and her next question almost left me banging the wall beside: "what is a debit card"? How in the world could a cashier in 7-11 not know what is a debit card? It is beyond knowledge really. As hard as she tried, she couldn't or rather she doesn't know how to operate the card machine and end up telling me this card is invalid! Invalid when I have been using it for purchases at other 7-11 stores before? Cool! Sensing that the queue behind me is getting longer and impatient, I didn't bothered arguging. "You want to pay in cash?" "Obviously I don't have enough cash if not why I wanna pay for a $11 purchase with a card right? It's ok please cancel the purchase".

Things didn't go very smoothly in office as well. As we are having an aduit from tomorrow, there was abit of chaos and due to a lack of knowledge of the need to classify all files into restricted, confidential, secret and so on, alot of files were left unclassified. And the task of opening these files 1 by 1 to check and classify them accordingly became my job. I cannot stand Dino sometimes, he likes to whine, stomp his feets and throw his temper around like a girl until his requests gets fufiled. And to think he went as far as saying I made him beg me to help him and that I was giving him excuses for delaying to help him. I only have 2 hands, he needed to understand that. I wouldn't have agreed to help if it was someone else for sure.

As bad as things stand right now, I know it will only get better. It's just a matter of time isn't it.

2008-06-12T12:52:00.004+08:00

Fishy Day

God not only plays dice, he throws them in the corner where you can't see them.
Stephen William Hawking

The fishy smell on my fingers and palms stubbornly refuse to extinguish despite washing it with soap for the 3rd time in a row. I had cooked salmon kimchi ramen for lunch. It still seem surreal that I had actually cooked fish, something of a taboo for me. To find myself eating fish is like seeing people eating stuffs like fried bugs, grasshoppers or even raw squids, the first 2 which are considered one of the delicacy of Northern Thailand cusine. Ever since young, my stomach have rejected fish, especially fish skin and the fishy smell like a pretty woman terrifyingly rejecting a wasted man on the verge of throwing up trying to bear hug her.

Despite the constant irritations from my Mum in the form of naggings, I've always managed to stay clear of fish and fish skins. There will still be the odd days I eat fish though, perhaps I was having PMS and my mind wasn't in a stable state. Still, the fish I ate were always rid of fishy smell, like fish & chips, salmon sushi, or fried fish fillet. I've never eaten fish skin for as long as I can remember, that must be like 15 years ago when I was still in primary school. The end product of forcing fish skin down my throat is a massive reaction followed by puke. Even without actually touching fish skin, the sight of others indulging in it in a rather disgusting manner (to me), or the scent of it which in turn leads to my brains painting all kinds of scenarios is enough to make me throw up sometimes. It almost happened earlier this year at a wedding dinner when Dino started eating the fish head leftovers on the table, tearing everything eglible from the fish head to eat, including the eyes and all these while I was sitting beside him glancing as far away as I could. Didn't helped that the table was rather squeezy for 10 persons and needless to say I lost my appetite for the rest of the night.

What happened today was rather historic to me. It was the first time I ever cut and peel fish skin with my own fingers and a knife. In fact I didn't realized the whole load of salmon was attached to a large fish skin under it. It was those bought from the supermarket. I was horrified when I saw the fish skin but it was too late to backtrack. The ramen didn't taste very nice afterwards and I didn't finish it all either. I wouldn't think there will be a chance of the same thing happening ever again as well. The fishy smell on my fingers is making my stomach ill.

All these happened at a time when I shouldn't be at home but due to screwed up sleeping, fatigue creeps in and I decided to do a self declare off day for myself - mc. I have been sleeping at 8pm everyday, waking up at 11.30pm to catch the matches until 4.30am before sleeping another 2 hours to wake up at 6.30am again, repeating the same process everyday. It's such a welcome break for me, to be able to catch up on my precious sleep.

just another entry

2008-06-08T18:30:00.006+08:00

Just another entry

We make a living by what we get, we make a life with what we give.
Sir Winston Churchill

Yesterday marks the start of Euro 2008, a month long competition that takes place once every 4 years. Needless to say it gets hardcore soccer fans like me all pumped up with excitement. I can foresee lots of sleepless nights and sluggishness in the day as a result of the former. With 2 matches daily that ends at 4.45am until the quarter-finals, it's easy to see why. I opened an account with a major legal betting site to spice things up. Watching such major competition games are boring without having a wager or two. I'm a bad gambler as my horoscope have proved to perfection, which is why I never liked to gamble but this is just for fun even if it means risk inglosing afew hundred bucks. At least it's not something illegal like betting with those bookies.

I feel really old nowadays. I feel like I'm like a man trapped in a boy's body. Age does matters, I can't help thinking about my future. What will I be doing in 5 years time? 10 years? Will I still be living in Singapore? Will I be married? What job will I be doing? I would like to think everything will go according to what I plan but it isn't always possible. Suddenly I feel a deep sense of regret for wasting away 2 precious years in my life. I know I can't change things but I can't help thinking of that what ifs. Maybe it's fate. I'm borned to be slower than others. I've repeated this line many times; "I may be slower but I will still reach my destination eventually". Sometimes this sentence seem like a cushion to comfort my heart. I do know although I might reach my destination eventually, it could also be a case of too late. Too many times in life I have experienced it - the case of so near yet so far all because I was late.

Because of the 2 years I wasted in the past, I seem to owe alot of people an explanation. I always had to answer questions that starts like this: "How come at this age you are still.............."? I've grown used to answering them but sometimes it does gets to me. It will start playing on my mind that I've failed miserably in my life even though I know it's not the case. Being a Cancer, I can't help it. Cancerians loves to think alot and think too much.

I used to wallow in self pity, hoping the skies will open up and a ray of light will guide me out of the maze. Not anymore. In this cruel world, it's every man for himself. There seem to be no place for second best. I believe I can create my own fate and destiny if I work for it.

Boring thoughts (what's new?) aside, this has been a miserable week for me. The haircut went terribly wrong. It seem that I will need to bring along a photo of the hairstyle I want next time. Thankfully with the Euro coming up, I have little time to think about this disaster. 2 days ago, someone whom I barely knew found me in facebook. She knew my chinese name, remember my english name and birthday. Eventually I realize it was someone I had met in MOS 2 years ago. Apparently I had showed her my IC to prove my age. It was just a normal conversation but it's amazing someone who claims to be absent minded actually remembered my particulars so well and went to dig me out from facebook. Stranger things have happened!

Taken at Priscilla's 21st Birthday with Carol

Why is the pose so......

Haha saltfish!

change is essential

2008-06-01T11:20:00.003+08:00

Change is essential

The air aftermath of a rainfall never fails to freshen me up. It feels like I've just walked out of a dark tunnel into the sunshine. Sometimes when things starts to turn stale, a change is essential and necessary. After helping Carol to change her second blog template in 2 years, I felt I needed to do something to my own even though I'd just changed it not that long ago.

I don't really enjoy changing a blog template for myself, let alone do it for others. I've only done it for 2 person before. The first was considered a deal. I was paid to do it, and the only other honourable person is Carol. Being one of the better brotherly friends I have who never fails to lend me a helping hand sincerely when I needed, how could I refuse her afterall? I'm always nice to people who deserve it most.

In the case of my template, it seems that everytime I designed a new one I'd feel a sense of great satisfication blowing through me but after sometime it seem that satisfication have evaporated into thin air. Is this human nature?

From the very first template I did I always make a point to design it into something which relates to my character. I choosed a dark shade again because a bright and lighter shade of colors simply doesn't justify my character. I'm not the kind of out-going, cheerful and happy everyday kind of person. I decided I would do without the tagboard for the first time ever as well. When I started blogging it was meant to be a personal diary. It didn't really crossed my mind how many people reads my blog each day. But 3 years later it seem that readership matters to me. I had to deny it and I hate it even more to admit it but readership matters. Having a comments column there with zlich or nearly zlich comments all the time is really pathetic. So, off with the tagboard in the hope the comments traffic will be flooded like a stall selling freshly baked chocolate pies. Sometimes it's good to have dreams.

Someone sent me this sms from the land of smiles this morning :

"............Happy Sunday, do u know how much I miss u?......ummmmm juz count the rain drops outside.....that means how much i miss u.........see? There's no rain outside lol........"

But it was raining heavily outside my window at the point of receiving!

Makes my Sunday... =)

the week that was

2008-05-29T17:54:00.004+08:00

The week that was

As soon as I stepped out of the bus interchange, the first of many tiny droplets started falling from the greying sky above. The path home had carefree feeling to it, thanks to the breeze and the tiny droplets that continue to fall. I'd always enjoy walking in such weather. It brings about a kind of feeling that I'm freed, freed from worries and anything that's on my complicated mind. The breeze seem to take away with it all that's on my mind and the moment I found myself back in my room I started typing this entry. I have a habit of forgetting what I want to write or talk about in a short time.

It's been a lonesome and slow week. At times it seems like time was like a broken clock, a stop starting every now and then. I had spent the entire week reading a new literature novel titled 'Marrying Buddha' which I had bought last Saturday in office just to kill time. It helped that the novel was well written to my liking - full of emotions, sentiments and surreal. I even bought a packet of cigarettes on Monday to smoke at irregular intervals when I the craving comes along. It was the first packet of cigarettes I bought locally in about 2 months and it lasted me 4 days.

Stepping beyond the glass door to the enterance of my office building everyday this week, it is like stepping out of jail. The air outside the glass door has a refreshing and different feel to it. Instantly, I could feel my sluggish face brightening up, my mood changing as well. I can finally leave this lonesome place, although I will be back for another 8 hours the next day.

It seem like the rainy season has just begun although the ever eccentric weather meant there will still be humidity in spite of the rain. I prefer the rain to the heat, no questions here. The rain instantly meant I couldn't go jogging as I had planned to. But it doesn't matter anyway, I felt so sluggish and tired every evening when I got home. It wasn't the result of a heavy workload. I don't think it was due to the lack of sleep either. Can a person feel ulterly tired and sleepy after a boring yet long day? Can the lack of any meangingful activities or things to look forward to causes sluggishness?

From the time I had dinner with Sze Wei at a Japanese restaurant at Paragon on Saturday to now, it seem that the week had passed without a trace when it's actually not. Thursdays often had a special aura to it, the aura of Friday in the air.

I can't help feeling chuffed that Friday has arrived.

one huge rat race

2008-05-20T20:37:00.005+08:00

One huge rat race

Bhutan has one of the worst economy in the world and yet the happiest, and most contended people in the world are found there. In Singapore, it's the exact opposite - great economy but financially unsatisfied population.

We always find something to blame for an insufficient pile of dollars. We blame the government for explicity linking everything to economy and money. We blame our bosses for not increasing our pay when everything else that has a price tag is increasing. We blame the bloody hawkers for charging an extra for the damn container that they use to pack our food. We blame everything but ourselves and the lack of financial planning.

The downfall for any financial planning is being unable to prioritise our wants and needs and not wanting to see beyond our next pay cheque. If we think about it, it's all to do with the society with we live in (yes blame the bloody government) but also the mindset of the typical Singaporean. In Singapore, we are just too insanely competitive to the point that it is too suffocating for many people. Notice how materialistic we are? Everything has to be better - your friend bought a Lancer and you want a WRX, your friend got an EVO and you want a BMW convertible. And it doesn't ends with material possessions, even education is included. And so with all these unlimited wants, money plays a key role. In other words, we aren't excatly money minded, we are instead money controlled - slave to material wealth!

To others, money is not everything but to us, we would definitely say something
like "without money you cannot do anything!"

Someone said...."In Singapore, you tell me where no need to spend money. Drink 1 kopi also need money, have sex also need to use condom, even worse sometimes need pregenacy kit to test...everything also money!"

I would ask, in the first place, who gave this damn piece of paper its value? It's us humans. From young, we were taught the importancy of this piece of paper known as money. We then learnt that money is not the cause of evil but having no money is.

In between black and white, there are different shades of grey. It is just that most things fall in the grey zones, hence nothing is 100% right or wrong. No one owes Singapore a living, if you are really pissed you could migrate elsewhere where you are financially better off alot. However I believe should Singapore continue it's over competitive trend, it would hit a stagnent point like Japan did sooner or later.

We are advancing too fast in terms of education, technology and economy. Take education for example. In the near future, a degree qualification will be a norm because everyone is able to attain it. But will everyone get the same job as what we're having now? Maybe 10 years down the road our children, with a degree qualification can only get a job as a manager at some fast food outlet or supermarket. With such advancement, when excatly is enough, enough? You may think the changes within 10 years i not great but I remind you that 10 years ago we were using pagers and big Ericsson handphones 768/688 models. You may laugh at the stupidity of the models or the sheer comical ways some people decorated those phones but it's not funny when you think of the changes 10 years later could bring. What will happen to our future generation?

To everyone of us, it is basically "Good to have enough but great to have more than enough" and with almost everyone going for the 2nd option, Singapore has long become one huge rat race for the cheese.

thai-ish diaries 3

2008-05-19T10:13:00.004+08:00

Thai-ish Diaries 3

A summary of my first solo trip to Amazing Thailand...

1. Questions which Thais never fail to ask :
-Where are you from?
-How long you stay?
-Your first time here?
-How old are you?
-What is your name?
-Why you come to Thailand?
-What you work?

2. The university girls' uniform is hot and will always be hot!

3. May is rainy season, it rains every single day I was there. Light to moderate rain.

4. No cover charge + cheap drinks + great crowd and music makes a club looks more like a club.

5. Taking BTS instead of taxi saves u a hell lot of money and time. I spent less than $50 on travelling expenses overall for 7 days.

6. Saw a young ang moh kid cleaning vehicle windows during the usual long jams/stops. Seem to be a slave as he's being watched and order around by a Thai. Probably got kidnapped and sold.

7. Gay clubs can be scary. People asked for my number and someone tried to kiss me...unsuccessfully though.

8. Hanging out with a big group of Thais makes me the star instantly, difficult to understand what they say but fun to observe nevertheless.

9. The best clubs in Bangkok are probably Route66 and Nunglen. Lots of young and beautifully fashioned people there.

10. The MacDonalds there doesn't seem to have any solo items except set meals.

11. Travelling alone instantly increases the amount of spare time. I found myself struggling to decide where to go or what to do sometimes.

12. Durian lovers have to try the cheap, big and fleshy Thai durians. It puts those in Singapore to shame.

13. Power cut doesn't affects just 1 building there, it usually involves the entire street or area. Was bathing halfway and everything just went black. Went downstairs and all the shops are dark too.

14. Never wear slippers when it rains, bad experience learnt. The back of my bermudas had nice 'polka dots' afterwards.

15. Patpong market and silom areas have the worst prices. The fake designer goods there are so nicely sealed and displayed but yet an eyesore because it looks damn fake. Don't mention the irritating touts that follow me everywhere like a dog as well.

16. Thais say "yes" in a funny way, almost all of them sound the same when saying it.

17. The fair skinned Bangkok youths dresses alot better than we thought. Chic....

18. Eating sticky rice with slices of mango on a rainy day gives me tummy aches.

19. It is not really easy to bargain for stuffs anymore. Makes me wonder if some dumbos have been paying skyhigh prices because they are rich?

20. I must look like a Thai in some way, strangers often talk to me in their local language.

21. Got caught at S'pore customs for bringing in pirated CDs (games + softwares) and duty free cigarettes. Made to get my luggage searched in front of people and of course pay the taxes and fines. I hate Singapore!

Here's a video clip of my 2nd hotel. This is actually a serviced apartment somewhat like a condo but no different to a hotel in terms of facilities and everything. (http://www.legacybangkok.com/)

I spent at least 2 hours in this lovely bathtub everyday!

High tech! No need to hang those stupid signboards outside your door!

Seperate shower area from bathtub. Great!

Mini kitchen

Bath robes!

Iron & ironing board!

I miss this bed......fucking shiok bed I tell u! Haha!

A nice restaurant for crepes lovers

Orange chicken crepes

See how big the durians are?? I ate like nobody's business..

Mango sticky rice

Pad Thai

Kway Tiao

Raining at Khao San

And now some of the stuffs that I bought.....I bought quite alot till my luggage was overweight during check in and had to remove 4kg of baggage from my luggage in front of everyone. =(

Finally got myself a Thai keyboard for only like $9! Cheap bargain!

My prized possession...the latest Nike Mercurial Vapour boots..got it for a bargain $104!

Will be back again, but for now it's time to concentrate on other more important things.

thai-ish diaries 2

2008-05-11T19:36:00.003+08:00

Thai-ish Diaries 2

Well well well, I'm back.....on blogger that is. Have been partying hard and core for the past 2 nights and it really took alot out of me. My new hotel is fantastic, I've got all the pictures and videos but I just don't have time to post it. Too tired and too lazy.

And now I'm stucked in a humble internet shop taking shelter from an unusual thunderstorm at Khao San Road. My stomach feels wierd as well after eating sticky rice...shrugs. So far so good, travelling alone is really a challenge as I found out. You have only yourself to depend on, and it's exciting yet scary at times.

Alright the rain seem like it's gonna stop and I'm really tired after walking and shopping all day long. Gonna hit some bar for a drink before returning back to downtown Bangkok. Updates to come soon....adios!

thai-ish diaries 1

2008-05-09T09:18:00.003+08:00

Thai-ish Diaries 1

As I board the plane, I saw a group of kids which doesn't look any older than 20 to me, getting all excited and snapping pictures. It reminds me of my first time going to the land of smiles. And going through customs, seeing all these familiar surroundings after a 2-3 months absence makes me smile. I'm back...to the real world!

So nice of Wippy to fetch me at the airport along with her little sister. Walking with a Thai beside you automatically means the irritating taxi touts will only look at u in amazement instead of harassing you to take one of their horribly overpriced rides. A few tried their luck though but I didnt have to say anything, Wippy did all the talking for me!

The first of the 2 hotels I stayed was quite a disaster as the aircon had problems working and the first guy didnt seem to know how to fix it. It was so hot in the room like some oven and although the room was good, this small serenity hotel doesnt have any lifts and I had to climb 4 floors to my room! Thankfully I'm only staying 2 days. Really looking forward to Legacy suites...it's what the Thais call hi-so (hi class & expensive) place.

As I arrived at about 5pm (thai time) and wasted 2 hours in my room fixing the air con, I didnt do much but I had a nice dinner treat from Wippy and then it's on to Route66. What a blast, this club is amazing, it's like some penthouse mansion, dozen times more posh, cheap and better than our Mos and Zouk or even St James. Singapore clubs should start adopting the Thai method of waiving all cover charges, reduce the bottle prices significantly. A bottle of Black Label + Mixer costs only $66 SGD and every table has a bottle, now this is what I call a real club and everyone was rocking as well. Eye candies were plentiful, Thais are such sociable people it's so easy to chat up anyone and I got a number or 2 as well.

I'm really tired today, didn't sleep much yesterday and I'm gonna spend the afternoon snoring away before going shopping at night and then its party party and party again! BKK rocks my ass off!!

Everytime I saw this sight from the plane window, i get excited because it means I've reached Thailand!

My bed, cute! haha

Bathroom

With seperate shower area, generous space and cool!

MK Trendi steamboat restaurant. Popular with the Thais.

I'm tired after a long day..

Me & Wippy

Every restaurant in thailand has such tissue box, even the clubs and its free! Damn S'pore!

One of their speciality dish..roasted duck!

Green maggee mee?

The way they serve their steamboat dishes....

Wow they serve Tang Yuan as desert!?!?

Ok thats really few pictures, because I didnt brought my camera to Route66 damn but I will be back for more!

is my forehead really black?

2008-05-04T21:07:00.003+08:00

Is my forehead really black?

I want to complain! DBS sucks big time! I was booking my hotel through my usual preferred site and then as usual I click submit after entering all the card details shits. They got back to me a day later as usual (effective) but told me the rooms were full and that they will cancel the booking and no payment will be charged. But there is a problem. While checking the availability of the rooms, they had blocked the funds to ensure there is enough money in the bank and the card is valid etc. So when they unblock it, I still found the money missing from my account and after contacting DBS, I was told I had to wait 10 - 14 days for them to unblock it! This is shit! Why so long? I had a similiar situation with Citibank before regarding flight tickets but it took only 1 or 2 days. Damn!

Seem like my forehead is still black, but never mind the Thai trip is just 3 days away and I'm going to have the black shit washed off my entire body there! Talking about Thai trip, it makes me wonder how am I gonna survive he heat there when it's already so bloody hot here. All these makes for perfect tan though!

These days I've been forcing myself to run at 3.30pm or 6pm under the heat to regain my fitness and stamina and today it felt good to be finally kicking a ball again at training even though both my legs are cramped beyond cure now!

Anyway it's been a long time I played with my camera....

There are somemore, but aiya just make do with these for now. Thinking of tomorrow sucks...monday!

for fun or for the sake of addiction?

2008-04-28T20:43:00.003+08:00

For fun or for the sake of addiction?

Not that long ago, a friend of mine won over SGD$2000 in a single night of soccer bettings. Recently, this same friend is over SGD$3000 in debt.

It always starts with something like "just playing for fun" but ending with "i'm in deep shit, i regret it". It's then followed by "I will quit", only to return with "aiya just a play abit only lah".

I don't understand, what do people see in gambling, especially soccer bettings. Okie I think I might have a clue thanks to my past experiences. When you watch a football match, it is often not that thrilling just watching as compared to watching with a wager or bet already placed. Which goal post the ball ends up in determines where your money goes. This is thrill to the punters.

Yes you will win, definitely. But you will lose too, and more than often the amount you lose always exceeds what you win by a big figure. The common mistake people made is that when they win, they are greedy for more, they feel great they feel high and invincible. They want more and often end up losing more. And when they lose, what do they do? They try to win back even more. You lose $50 and u want to win back $100. You lose and instead of losing $50 you have lost $150 now. It's just an example but if u change this figure to those that the 'serious punters' bet, the amount of money is incredible.

When you lose, it is always because your luck is down and that means you should take a step backwards by restraining yourself from betting. But very few people do that. Why? Because it's become an addiction. They are now addicted to it.

It is a problem when you wake up every morning and the first thing that goes through your mind is "what match tonight? bet who? bet how much? odds?" You have a serious problem if you are like this. I been all these myself. It is shit, and I realize I'm more 'accurate' when I guess or make predictions for people than when I choose who I'd place my money on. When you guess or predict you do not have pressure, when you bet, you have to contend with the knowledge that you are putting your money at risk and that is where one often makes the wrong choice and end up losing.

Gambling can really make one rich, I've won a thousand on a single game before. The feeling was fucking incredible but I have also tasted the devasting feeling of keying in zeros on the atm machine for people. There are 2 kind of gamblers: those who go with their heads and those who go with their hearts. I belong to the latter which is why I'm just not cut out to win big money by gambling. A moment of rashness, a moment of sentimental craziness often makes my money fly. Whereas for those who bet with their heads and always seem to have luck, they are better suited to gamble. But still, the chances of one becoming rich through gambling is very slim. If it is so easy to get rich by gambling everyone would be driving Ferraris on the road now.

People do not realize what adverse effects gambling could bring. Relationships could be broken, friendships too, families and many others. Above all it is an act of an irresponsible person. I hope this friend of mine see the light soon enough before he falls deeper into the well.

Euro 2008 is coming in 2 months time and I can forsee more tears than joy.

depressed

2008-04-24T21:10:00.003+08:00

Depressing

Never in my life have I imagine that I woould one day require these...

I'm those who have a thick crop of hair, so thick that it is so irritating sometimes. It takes me alot of courage to write this. This is a huge blow to my confidence, my manhood, my life. This is also what happens when you don't listen to your Mom and constantly color your hair. Make no mistakes, hair dye have nothing to do with this, an accident at the saloon did. It is just my guess because the signs were obvious - I'm losing hair on a particular part of my head in front by the sides. Everywhere else is very normal. That part is also the part where it bore the blunt of the accident. I was bleaching my hair and trying to get it turned into baby blue. The bleach probably stayed too long or the heater was too hot, my hair scalp bleed, there was a little cut and I suspect all those chemicals had gone in and 2 or 3 years later the results were finally visible.

Although it isn't very obvious and it could be hidden, that is not the long term solution. It is a very devasting blow that nobody will really understand until a person as vain as me starts losing his/her hair. I am 24, and the thought of going bald (even though its just an imagination) so young is making me really depressed. It is more depressing than when a girl walks out on u in the middle of sex.

I'm not giving up, never. I know the problem can be rectified, it is not impossible and I promise myself as long I'm still breathing I will do everything I can to solve it, even if it means having to go undergo that special scalp patching which costs over $10,000 SGD. Right now I can only hope the shampoo and conditioner helps. It is not a big problem yet, but it is causing me huge worries.

Sigh..

remembering fondly

2008-04-21T05:15:00.003+08:00

Remembering Fondly

As the next trip edges closer (approx 14 days), I always can't help but shift my mind towards it. The most exciting period for me are the days leading up to the actual day, you can feel the excitement and expectations building up. It didn't really matter that I'm no longer a newbie to the City of Angels, I still feel the same excitement as the first time I was going there. Ahh yes those beautiful first memories that still sticks to my brain like glue. It was still by far the best trip I've had there even though it was only 4 days 3 nights and I've had far longer ones after that.

I had came a long way since that virgin trip but the memories remain fresh. I still remember everything vividly, from the excitement at Changi all the way to Suvarnabhumi, to the first time we entered a go go bar and got intimidated by the girls really badly, to the time Alvin & I got lost at some pier and took boats randomly to find our way out, it was so refreshing everytime I think of it. Never fails to make me laugh or smile.

I remembered the time we were selecting our hotels, it is funny that Singaporeans have this mentality that their first hotel in Thailand have to be in the Siam or Pratunam area. I always hear the word 'Baiyoke', 'Asia' or 'Samran'. I don't understand why either because I myself was one of these people who insist on one of these hotels for my first time. Now when I look back at it, it makes me laugh. Maybe it's because we Singaporeans think that these are the 'convenient' places. It's like the hotel is located right beside The Heeren or Cineleisure in Singapore. But of course that isn't true, Bangkok is not Singapore as I eventually found out. There are so many better options, better value for money places but it's just the Singaporean mentality of u know...."eh my friend stay there leh she say good so I also want to stay there".

Whenever I see people talking enthusiastically about their upcoming virgin trip to the Land of Smiles it makes me think about my own as well. I feel like a veteran now but that isn't true even though it is now like a second home to me, I'm only a veteran to the newbies. Anyway I can smell Tom Yum land coming again, it is going to be solo this time. Yes I'm going all alone, cool? Nay it's scary but thats what defines thrills.

sleepless nights

2008-04-18T06:16:00.005+08:00

Sleepless Nights

Strange. When one takes a variety of different medicine, lala land usually comes calling soon after. But that doesn't seem to be the case for me, my medcine seem to be like pills made from Red Bull instead. I have been badly ill and without wanting to go into details, lets say some kind of fever that could kill for the past few days. Whats new? 2008 is a terrible year in terms of health for me, and it's only April....wonder what other mishaps or illness lies ahead. Anyway I just can't get to sleep no matter how hard I tried. My mind just couldn't close shop and sleep it just keeps on thinking about all kind of things. The last 3 days I had slept less than 12 hours and since last night I haven't slept a wink. Rolled on the bed for 4 fucking hours, got fed up and gave up. Doesn't helps that I was having an uncomfortable nose and coughing non stop as well.

Before this damn fever I haven't had such insomia for a long time now after this sickness I just can't get to sleep! Hopefully I can fall alseep in office later. I herby declare myself a zombie today. Sigh.

single-minded

2008-04-14T04:10:00.012+08:00

Single-Minded

I actually slept less then 3hours to wake up at 3.30am to cook mee goreng because my stomach was calling for it. Am I mad? Maybe. I can't really sleep anyway, I had woken up at 7pm on Sunday, sleeping at least 13hours. I used the term maybe because I have no idea what time I slept on Saturday. I only know I reached home at about 2.30am and then feeling emotional and awful inside I drank myself drunk with Martell and fell asleep. If I weren't awake at this time then I wouldn't be typing or have typed this entry.

It is not very often I share something private with people and even seldom I share it with a person I've never seen before. But on Friday, I did just that during office hours because I needed to get it off my chest. I wanted a guy's opinion and amongst that I know and are available, there aren't many suitable ones so I asked a friend I know from the MINDEF forums, just someone I chat and gossip with during office hours when we are bored at times. Yes guys do that too, surprised? Anyway I sought his opinion on something about relationship and there was one particular point he said which haven't been able to leave my head since. I can't remember the exact line but I remembered the exact meaning - "be single-mind when it comes to relationships".

Before I go on I shall explain the meaning just in case anyone happens to read this and get the wrong meaning.

single-minded
• adjective concentrating purposefully on one particular thing.
— DERIVATIVES single-mindedly adverb single-mindedness noun.

The reason why I haven't been able to stop thinking of that sentence was because I felt it was so damn correct and that I haven't been doing the correct thing for a long time. Maybe this is why it was so different now and before. In the past when I woo someone I would focus 100% on the task and that person alone. Nowadays it doesn't happen. I don't go 100% out to win someone's heart. I do it bits by bits, hesitate alot and that is probably why the ones I considered have probably not felt anything. I know the reason for this as well - because I had options now whilst I didn't in the past. Now whenever I thought of going after someone I always add in the options. It was my way of making myself feel secure but in the end I will end up with none no matter how many options I had.

That friend had also said being single-minded is a very difficult task that very few guys succeed. His reasons were that guys are always tempted by a moment of lust or folly, resulting in something tragic. He added that no matter how confident one is about a person there are always times of doubts and distraction that sway our attention. Right, it is really difficult but I don't agree with it completely because I've passed this test before successfully.

Being single-minded in relationships is one of the elements for success, I come to realise it. But still, it is not enough because if a girl doesn't fancy me no amount of single-mindness would be able to place me in her heart. I can be single-minded 100% and she'd be my only focus and center of attention but it still wouldn't work. Love is so confusing sometimes........

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你

flu-ly bad mood

2008-04-10T10:26:00.004+08:00

Flu-ly bad mood

Today is a very fucked up day. People say I have a nice nose, but they have no idea what a stucked up nose it is. Flu basically everyday, can't even get a bloody proper night of rest! And today I must have offended the gods again, they present me with a bloody stupid doctor. Ok I should have known better that majority of the polyclinic doctors are either stupid, useless, or both!

I mentioned I have been having serious flu everytime I wake up and I added that it is NOT block nose and he basically "ya ya I know I know I know" all the way as if trying to impress the female trainee doctor sitting beside and learning. So that's how an upperstudy teaches his understudy? No wonder one by one they are all so dumb and fucking useless. I assumed he really know what he's doing since he say he will give me the medication at the phramcy and when I went to collect it I got a shock. What?! One bloody bottle of nasal spray meant for blocked nose?! I asked the lady if there's other medicine and she said the doctor only perscribe this one. Whatever, I took it, and headed straight down to my usual doctor's clinic at my old housing area.

I whine and complained an awful lot of shit about the polyclinic incident to him. He asked me about my flu symtoms and stuffs, gave me a clear understanding of my condition and then explain what medication he's giving me as usual. Now this is why he is my favourite doctor and this is what seperate the so call 'healthcare workers' from those in the private practice. Time for MOH to duct the pay of these fucking useless 'healthcare workers'!

That's not all, when I was making my payments, the total amount was a whopping $66. Apparently the special spray he gave me costs $43 which explains it. I have no problem paying it but I had only $50 in my wallet and they do not accept cards, not even nets. So I had to went out to withdraw money and it incurred to me at that moment that I do not have any POSB/DBS cards with me and there is no Citibank ATM machines around that area!! The nearest one was at Lakeside MRT station. I think there is no need to write about what happened after that.

My fucked up day was compounded soon after when I got back home and found that I cannot upload a single photo into photobucket or bloggers , so yeah no photos for this post. Singnet wireless sucks big time, fucked up slow and inconsistent connection! Bring back starhub!

*It's only 11am I wonder what other shits are awaiting me for the rest of the day!

my not-so-charmed life

2008-04-07T20:20:00.003+08:00

My not-so-charmed life

I admit I seldom visit or read blogs, but when I do I tend to read a whole pile of them. Today is just one of those days. Something hit me when I scroll through all those blogs - that my blog is damn plain and listless. Not true uh, as much as I try to convince myself it doesn't works. Then I think of it, hey it used to be full of life but then the key word is 'used to' and that is past tense.

I think the past 1 year my life is getting washed off, my circle of friends is dwindling with each passing days. I find myself at home at times or days when I used to be out. People just don't believe me on this part, it's so irritating. I don't really know why my life is getting listless and plain but I put it down to a few factors - the lack of real friends, boring personality, no love life....etc. It's abit depressing to be honest when I see others' blogs filled with so much life, daily happenings, pictures, stories, all sorts of things they can write about.

Should I close down this blog for good?
This is sad.

a tribute

2008-04-06T18:58:00.002+08:00

A Tribute

Some wonderful tributes to Fernando Torres, the best thing to have come out of soccer since Beckham. Some say both the men and the women love Torres, below are the reasons.

ughh

2008-04-02T19:40:00.004+08:00

Ughhh

I have an ulcer.
It is right inside my lips.
Near the gum area.
I can't remember the last time I had one.
I can't eat without pain.
I can't talk normally.
It is fucking painful.
My boss took leave tomorrow to watch soccer tonight.
Can I take leave because of my ulcer too?
Or better still can I take MC?

Damn....

it can be that bad sometimes

2008-03-28T21:07:00.003+08:00

It can be that miserable sometimes

I was talking alot of rubbish with Carol while helping her see those online shopping stuffs - girls clothes of course. At one point, I said:

Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
wah sian
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
why i dun have a nice gf
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
if i have one
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
i will buy for her
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
secretly
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
as surprise
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
damn it

Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
really leh
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
everytime i go bkk
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
i see so many nice chabor clothes
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
i think
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
wah if i have a gf jiu hao
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
i can buy
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
hk also same
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
hk alot!
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buy for me lor

Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
its different!!!!
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
u know when u buy for ppl u like
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
e feelingis diff
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
and when u see them wear it
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
it feels even more satisfying
Fernando Torres - selection headache says:
right?

Sometimes, having a girlfriend isn't that bad. I definitely miss the days I had someone to pamper and surprise. I love giving surprises, be it small or big and when I'm in a relationship I always pamper my partner more than myself. It's true, everytime I go overseas I stuffs which I thought would make a perfect gift or a surprise for a gf but then, I don't have a gf, so I can't buy it. Buy for a friend? It's different, the feeling is not the same. The sense of satisfication and joy when you see your gf being happy with the gift is a wonderful feeling.

Then I thought about my upcoming overseas trip. I'm going to stay in a luxury suite with living room, living room, a rooftop swiming pool, and so on but think about it, having a someone special there would definitely make a huge difference. It's fun travelling overseas but sometimes I do wonder how it is like to travel with ur loved one. 2001 seem such a long way ago, that was the 1st and only time I ever travelled with a gf. But then, just face it, I'm single so I shall just treat that as a bachelor's trip. 7 days where I will live a life that I've always dream of.

Rooftop Pool

Bathtub - amazing veiws isn't it?

thoughts of the day

2008-03-26T19:31:00.003+08:00

Thoughts of the day

Change - Not everyone fancies changes. To some, it is like having to start from ground zero all over again. It is a tiring challenge and more than often it forces people to come out of their comfort zone.

I don't like changes but if I don't move with the flow and adapt to whatever life throws up, I will always be on the backfoot. Life is about being able to discard away your comfort zone and face up to the challenge of something new.

Too often in disappointing situations, we mention that tomorrow will be a better day, or that the grass is greener on the other side. But some don't realize that tomorrow will never be a better day until you let go of yesterday. Similiarly, you will never reach the side of the hill where the grass is fresher and greener until you totally let go of what you are currently holding on to.

Embrace change as it comes, let go of yesterday and there will be a rainbow at the end of a storm.

english as it is broken

2008-03-25T19:16:00.007+08:00

English as it is broken

In Singapore English, we tend to construct questions the same way we make statements. In standard English, questions always begin with either a question word such as who and what or a verb such as did or will.

Singaporeans love "got" meh? So a sentence can be translated into "His son got study overseas meh?"

In making a statement, we might say, "His son studied overseas". But since we are asking a question it should be, "Did his son study overseas?"

"Meh" appears to be operating as a marker to flag the sentence as a question, Singapore style of course! But it is unnecessary since it should be the word order and structure that indicate whether a sentence is a question or a statement.

"Got" is unnecessary as well, in fact it is often overused and misused in Singaporean speech. To think that Singaporeans nowadays often wanna follow the western way of speaking English but often we end up making a fool of ourselves. Of course we don't know it because 2 people speaking broken English can't possibly see each other's fault but try speaking our English to the Americans or British and we could well be in for a rude shock.

"I'm going to tell him to do something."
"I'm going to ask him to do something."

Is there a difference between the 2 sentences?

Definitely so in Standard English but the typical Singaporean will tell u "aiya same la where got different" It is a distinction that Singaporeans apparently do not make.

In Standard English, the use of "tell" in the above sentence would imply that the speaker has authority over the listener. The former is instructing the latter to do something and the listener would have no option but to do as ordered.

On the other hand, "ask" in Standard English is akin to "request". Hence, if u were to ask someone to do something, you are making a request to the person who has the rights to turn u down. The difference thus lies in the power relationship suggested between the speaker and the listener.

You might just want to bear in mind this difference next time before u tell your boss to do something!

English aside, I must really say I'm thankful to Dino for helping me to fax all those dreadful loads of purchase orders. I would have been screwed if not for him because I left office earlier and then my boss suddenly ask me to do this shit while i was on the way home! You have to love and hate dino. U love him for being helpful like today and u also hate him for being an irritating kid that comes into people's office and turn their desk upside down especially dismantling my newspaper!

Anyway I'm going to buy him breakfast tomorrow, he deserved it now that's what a friend is for! And to end this post with some incredibly broken Singapore style English (the latest version which i have been hearing quite often nowadays!)......... "Me is love u dip dips!!!!"

*dip dips of course translates into deep deep!

the lies i believe

2008-03-21T17:50:00.003+08:00

The lies I believe

Truth or lie? We humans have a complicated mind that we ourselves sometimes struggle to understand. In the midst of these struggles, we sometimes foolishly believe things which aren't true. It could be strong pressure from our friends or family, it could be due to a lack of confidence, or it could be just our imaginations. In fact there are alot of reasons as to why re believe lies, each depending on the situation. I'm no different from everyone, there are lies I foolishly believe as well, some which are as silly as a slim girl looking into the mirror and say to herself: "I'm fat, I need to diet and lose weight!"

Lie no. 1 - I'm still young
Each time I tell myself: "I'm still young", it was words of comfort to possibly a setback but to be realistic, how young can a person stay? There is a time we have to tell ourselves: "I'm not young anymore it's now or never." Sometimes when we make ourselves feel young, it could have an adverse effect. It could become our comfort zone and eventually become an excuse for every failure or setback.

Lie no. 2 - I'm good with girls
Lets face it, a guy who has a way with girls wouldn't be dateless nearly every single weekend and is still left on the shelf after more than a year. Once upon a time I admit I had a way with the opposite sex but nowadays isn't the case anymore. For one, I'm not really a funny person, and I'm plain boring. Maybe that explains why uh.

Lie no. 3 - I'm good-looking
I don't know how people define the term 'good-looking' but fact is that it should be a complete package meaning looks and facial features aside, the height, physique and charisma should be there and I lack all of those.

Lie no. 4 - The grass is greener on the other side
Another piece of excuse of words which brings music to my ears during difficult times. What I didn't realize was the hidden line - the grass is greener on the other side but u also need to make sure u manage to find the other side.

Lie no. 5 - I can live without a woman
Been there, done that. I have no problems living a single life but all the happiness in singlehood added up still conjures upon the fact that there is still a missing piece of happiness that can only be found when my status reads: "Attached". It's not for nothing they say 'behind every successful man is a woman'.

Lie no. 6 - I'm good enough
Everytime I tell myself I'm good enough for something, disappointment always follow thereafter. Confidence is an amazing thing, too little and u fall apart, too much and u fall apart too. I was never good enough in anything, because there is no limit as to how good I can become. Hard work pays off and the key to working hard is to be humble.

Lie no. 7 - God is fair
I don't know about others but as far as I'm concerned, god was never fair to me in the beginning. And all my life I've always had to take the longer and harder route when everyone else takes the opposite. Since when is god fair to me when he already more than ruined my life.

Lie no. 8 - Girls are stucked up
This impression have always been livid in my mind but to be honest it's also because I've met my fair share of such girls which further cement that thought in my mind. It's as though as I've got a thing against girls which is true as I don't give a damn to appearances or status but however this is just some stucked up thinking I have. There are nice girls arounds and just simply meeting and getting a tummyache from a rotten appple doesn't necessarily mean I have to paint the same picture for the rest of the apples in the cart.

Lie no. 9 - Money is not everything
I can say it 100 times that money isn't everything but 10000 times my mind will tell me money is 'almost' everything in this world, especially when I'm living in a place call Singapore. Yes a country whose people are extremely money minded, whose living standard is very modern and where pieces of paper could be worth more than diamonds.

Lie no. 10 - I'm a positive person
For every positive I have, there are probably 3 negatives accompanying it. But ironically its because of this negatives and fear of failure which inspires me to success. Having said that, I can't say I'm a positive person because I hide alot of negatives behind the positive and confident image I put up. I guess I'm one of those who allow negatives to inspire them further so it's not all gloom and doom.

There are definitely much more than these 10 lies I often cheated myself with. I don't know if I will continue to cheat myself, I'm quite sure I will but I too, am quite sure I will think harder and deeper each time to avoid cheating myself.

random photos

2008-03-12T03:34:00.006+08:00

Random Photos

Some random photos, first time i allow someone to snap solo photos for me. I think I'm really not used to it yet, can't seem to be myself when there are people around. Thanks to Simbian for the help nevertheless.

no title entry

2008-03-10T22:10:00.004+08:00

No title entry

Can't think of a title for this entry. So lets just say today I did something I've been longing to do for more than 2 weeks - bathe on 2 feets!

Went to NUH to remove the bloody cast and was shocked to see how much of my sexy leg hair I've lost due to either the cast or my scratchings. Walking is abit wierd now, the whole knee is so stiff like some roti prata dough filled with glue. I couldn't resist walking around so I walk and walk until the nurse made me lie down until the doctor came over. But anyway like they say, the grass is greener on the other side. When I bathe on 2 feets, fast and comfortable after I got home, it made me appreciate my legs more than ever. Think of those who lost a limb or is paralysed for good. If 15 days is hell for me then an entire lifetime for them must be unimaginable.

Another thing came to mind. While I was at my private doctor's clinic after NUH to get my flu medicine and MC, I went to eat at a familiar place, the coffeeshop at my old house. I order wanton mee and when the fella delivered over, I gave him 2 $2 notes but he returned me one. So ok it's still $2. Talk about rising costs. Then awhile later he returned to give me back my change of 50 cents! What? A plate of wanton noodles cost $1.50? And to think before they renovated this place the previous seller sold $2 each plate. It makes me wonder, just how do they make any profits from this? $1.50 wanton mee - 4 wantons, char siew, veggie, noodles & soup. It is almost the same as those $3.50 or $4 ones in the food court. I looked around and realize the chicken rice is also going for $1.50! Wah lao, talk about rising food costs indeed! I will be back!

i wanna get out

2008-03-06T00:25:00.003+08:00

I wanna get out

It may only be early March, I may still have another trip this coming May, but it has not deter my mind from thinking about December and my ORD trip. I have long wanted to live in anywhere but Singapore and this December I will finally have the chance to fufil that dream. It is not because I detest Singapore but because I find no peace and serenity here at all. I wanna be somewhere where nobody knows me, nobody judges me and I can live all by myself and experience a new kind of lifestyle. Even if it is just for a month the most, it is something I relish and look forward to.

Although I have yet to submit my application for my full time degree course, I forecast the course will begin somewhere in Feburary or even July so I will have at least more than a month to seek paradise somewhere. I want to go to somewhere where there is winter, where there is snow, where white christmas isn't just a dream. I've shortlisted afew places, amongst them seoul, tokyo, paris, and shanghai. I'm able to afford Paris but I'm very doubtful for that one because I've always wanted that for my honeymoon and besides, if I were to get so far to a place like Paris, I would also like to visit the famous wine yards and farms. That leaves the asian countries as the more realistic targets. I will give myself a timeline of up to my Birthday to book the air tickets. It would be great to have companion but I'm fine without it also. There are people who ask isn't it pathetic going overseas alone? Well, it depends on how an individual sees it, remember the last blog entry? Enough said.

And people often ask, how I could go so many trips considering the financial burden. Alot of them actually don't realize their monthly expenses is enough to go to places like America or Europe. How u scrimp and save is how far u will travel. Alot of people will be shocked if I tell them my lifestyle. Because I scrimp and save so badly, my friends misunderstood me as unsporting, unwilling to go out. Because I save like hell each month, I eat the sucky food from cookhouse everyday. Can anyone go out daily and just spend 70 cents on newspaper? Do anyone knows I don't even bring my wallet when I go to camp every morning? Perhaps $2 is the most I would bring on odd days. I'm not stingy, I just restrict myself from unnecessary spendings. Savings is important to a person whose sex reads: Male.

It's not easy, but if u want something, it's not beyond your dreams as many tend to think, it's just about whether u are willing to scarifice some things and go that extra mile to reach your dreams. Because I save and scrimp so badly, I do not have much of a social life. People often think I date different girls everyday and spend my nights getting wild at some clubs but that's not the case. An average week in my life could be that I get to bed by 11pm every night on weekdays, spending Saturday in the gym or at home watching soccer and Sunday out on the soccer field. I'm not like what people think but I don't give a damn to what people think either.

December will be harder as I have to settle my course beforehand, there will be more expenses. But again it will not deter me, I just want to get out of this country and have the most wonderful month of my life in a foreign land before i commence on a new chapter in my life when I get back.

like & dislike boxes

2008-03-03T14:48:00.005+08:00

Like & Dislike Boxes

There are many colors this this world. However, people only appreciate the ones
they like. They do not realize that when all these colors hug together, a
rainbow appears.

Then, what happens to the colors which they don't like? They are unappreciated and people will never see their true values. A human brain seem to consist of 2 boxes - like and dislike boxes. Assuming that the brain is fixed in it's thinking and mindset, the moment a color falls into the dislike box, it be there for good, more or less. No matter how it tries to change the person's opinion of it, it will always have the tag 'dislike' placed over it.

I find that humans are like this. Once we are fixed in our thinking towards something, that something either falls into the dislike or like box in our brains. If a person thinks a particular dressing is nice, then it is nice. It doesn't matter if everyone thinks it sucks or it actually sucks like hell because it's already fallen into his 'like' box. In other words, he can see no fault with it and it would be hard to change his opinion of it.

3 down 12 to go

2008-02-28T14:56:00.003+08:00

3 Down 12 to Go

Personal Nurse + Maid cum 'Bao Ka Liao' Wanted!

18 to 28 years old only!

Requirements:
1. Must be able to cook
2. Must be willing to bathe me
3. Must be gentle & patient
4. Must have basic medical knowledge
5. Must be able to tidy my room
6. Must be willing to help me scratch my leg

Appearances is not necessarily important but guys need NOT apply!

Salary:

Blank Cheque

Jokes aside, today is the 4th day I've been stucked at home. Basic chores like bathing, sitting, and sleeping have been nothing but burdensome so far. What used to be a 10 minute bath is now like an hour, and does anyone wanna try sitting down on a chair without being able to move/bend 1 of your legs? Not for 15 minutes but 15 days!

To kill time, I paid $16 for a month's subscription to watch all sorts of Asian movies and dramas online. (Piracy is stealing, and stealing is a crime! yay im a good citizen!) I'm still thinking what else I can do beside the dramas, movies, books, psp, and playing games online. I'm dying to go out and I don't mean downstairs! I thought about watching movies but gave up the idea after thinking I will need a seating area as big as a parking lot for me to rest my big leg!

Have been surviving off instant noodles for lunch for the past 3 days I got so sick of the yucky flavour so I scrambled my way downstairs only to realize my favourite Tom Yam noodles is either sold out or they are not selling it anymore. Looks like my luck is still down.

And the ultimate torture is the incredible unbearable ITCH!
To think there is still 12 days more to go!

down on my luck

2008-02-25T19:33:00.003+08:00

Down on my luck

Just when I thought things couldn't get worse with the lamppost accident.........

The result of some very unfortunate incidents during soccer yesterday evening. Tore my ligaments and had a knee facture. On cast and clutches for the next 15 days. Great. I wonder which god up there did I offend? And best part of it all is that it's still only the beginning of the year!

First time in my life walking on clutches. Damn uncomfortable. Suddenly sitting down on the favourite chair in my house facing the computer is a torturous process. Imagine sitting on a chair with 1 of ur legs in a big fat cast, unable to move or bend?

I'm tired, the painkilling jabs are wearing off, the pain is coming back. To think i actually limped my way to the polyclinic in the morning before being referred to NUH in the afternoon all by myself. I'm great isn't it? Hohoho.... Thanks to Dino for coming to the hospital to fetch me back, if not god knows what might happened. I slipped while walking to my block as the floor was wet and the clutches were slippery. Thank god dino was there, if not I think 15 days could well become 150 days!

And lastly before I sign off, as if to give me another round of endless problems, I've found out the face of the idiot who used my photos going around doing obsence things. Credits to Bessie for uncovering it. I've yet to think how I should handle this asshole. Leg too painful la, count himself lucky for now....

Good i hope u get sent back to where u belong!

headcrash

2008-02-21T18:11:00.004+08:00

Joke of the Day

Today I while I was walking out to the bus stop from camp as usual...........

When I saw a pilot in uniform desperately flagging for a cab...........

I thought it was amusing as pilots were not supposed to take public transport especially in their uniform......

So I continue to observe and watch while walking.......

And then.......

BANG!!

I walked RIGHT INTO A BLOODY LAMPPOST!!!!!

I look around, thank god nobody saw it..........

My head hurts like fuck........

My ear had a cut and was bleeding........

But I felt no pain or dizziness that moment.........

I felt like a dumbass instead..........

Finally after afew close shaves........

I had the unwanted experience of walking into a lamppost!!!!!

And the saddest thing is that I crashed into a lamppost while looking at a pilot - a guy!!

At least I could have comfort myself if it was Miss Universe!!

along comes the C

2008-02-20T06:25:00.004+08:00

Along comes the 'C'

Just when everyone thought it couldn't get skimpier than the 'G', along comes the 'C'! I'm talking about the C-String, the latest and probably most ridiculous underwear ever designed.

I'm a big fan of the 'G', but that only applies on women. I don't think guys, however great a body they have, should ever wear G-Strings because it simply makes them look like some sissy gays. I don't think it suits guys as well as they have their nuts to carry in such a skimpy and thin underwear. But yes, girls who have a great ass definitely look hot in those tiny thongs.

I don't think the C-String is hot, it looks wierd to me and at 1st sight one could mistaken it for a hairband. It doesn't looks very secured either even though the designer assured the world 'it wouldn't fall off in the middle of a hot date'. Even if that statement is true, how about the comfort factor? Having plastic or bend-able material pushed right in the between a girl's privates? Wah surely that isn't a nice feeling. And to think they even have C-Strings for guys coming out! No way, surely!

While one of the advantages of the C-String is to terminate visible panty lines, so what does it do for the guys? Make them feel as naked as possible? Anyway there are alot better ways to terminate visible panty lines for girls if they know how to match their clothes with their undies.

Would anyone buy the C-String or better still, wear it to the beach for a tan? The will be, but I can still visualize the world crying foul......

Give us the G-String anytime!

nobody's favourite teddy

2008-02-17T21:16:00.005+08:00

Nobody's Favourite Teddy

He says.....

....he can't believe he's reached today, still single and unattached. Today marks official 24 months of singlehood for him.

Since the day he 1st got attached back in 1997, he can't remember going through an entire year single. Perhaps 10 months is the most he went through. It's not because he can't live without woman, it's because back then he's still naive, still at the stage of finding out which type suits him most. Hence, he fell in love easily.

Today, the old him no longer exists, he's no longer the naive young man he once was. But who will believe?

In the eyes of the world, he's nothing but a playboy, a person who's always surrouned by girls. People often tell him he's nice, and that he would be able to find someone and so on. But if u ask these people if they would be willing to get into a relationship with him, they wouldn't hesitate in saying no.

He is sick of it.

He's sick of people using the opposite sex as the word that is closest to describing him. He is sick of his guy friends often using him to get girls out. He's sick of people assuming and judging him. Sometimes, he wished he didn't look like how he did. He knows a huge part of the reasons why people make assumptions and accusations on him is because of his looks. Sometimes he wished he was borned ugly or nerdish.

People often ask him where is his gf and when he say he doesn't have one, they often don't believe him. In everyone's eyes, he's always attached all the time. Sometimes when he ask someone out, the person would say something like: "....your other friends leh? thought u have alot of female friends one..."

Very few knows the real him. Even fewer knows he'd never been unfaithful in all his past relationships. Those who knows the real him sings a different tune.

The past 1 year he was single, he fell for a girl. He tried to woo her, but she didn't even gave him a chance to woo her. He thought....perhaps she thinks like the majority. But when she didn't even gave him a chance to prove anything, how would she know if he's really a player or whatever? It was dissapointing. She was the only girl he fell for during the entire year. He gave up fast. It wasn't because she meant little to him. It was because he already knew the answer even though she didn't reject him. He didn't want to push things too hard and lose the friendship.

During the 1 year he was single, life was good. He could do anything and go anywhere he wants. Quarrels and arguments did not exists in his life. He led a happy and carefree life he's happy with. Many times though, he would miss being in a relationship, the special kind of happiness that comes only when a person is in love and being loved in return. He would also get envious when he see couples around him. In the past, he might have gone and find a new gf. But this wasn't the old him, he didn't wanted to find a gf for the sake of finding one. Somehow as he grow older, it is more difficult for anyone to get into his heart.

People often mistaken this as choosy or having high expectations. While he does have his own expectations of his ideal partner, they are by no means high or ridiculous. It's actually very simple in the sense that finding someone who understands the word 'commitment' and yet gives him that special feeling and chemistry is downright difficult. He doesn't believes in finding either, maybe he read too much "once upon a time......happily ever after" when he was young, but he would rather leave it up to fate to surprise him.

Sometime not too long ago, he realized how dearly he miss being in a relationship. He realized he's now willing to open the door he'd shut for a year. He's determined to smash the impression he gives to others for good. He told himself if he'd ever met someone right and special for him and yet is willing to allow him to prove himself, he wouldn't disappoint anyone. That being said, he's not in a rush, he doesn't sets any deadlines either. He believes some things are decided by the one up there.

As he look back at the past 1 year, he looked at the positives more than the negatives. He's grown older when it comes to relationships. The most important thing he found out was the the exact type of partner he wants.

A year spent in the wildness wasn't in vain afterall.

valentine's day 2008

2008-02-13T20:45:00.004+08:00

Valentine's Day 2008

I don't want to be reminded of this day, but all those advertisements in the papers and gifts on sale outside more than reminded me! I'm single, I'm dateless and tomorrow I'm gonna spend Valentine's Day alone! Ok it's not the end of the world but I'm sure if given a choice, everyone would rather choose having someone special or just someone to spend the day with rather than alone. Same goes for me, damn!

Now I'm thinking what can I do tomorrow. By rights I should be going to office in the morning, go home at 5.30pm, have dinner, surf the net and then sleep! But I thought of taking 1/2 day leave tomorrow to do something all by myself. What can a single guy do all alone on Valentine's Day uh?

1. I can hit the gym, sweat it out, vent my frustrations on those weights and who knows I could end up meeting someone there?

2. I can go to the beach, tan under the sun while reading the a book and as above, fate can be funny sometimes!

3. I can go on a mini solo shopping spree in town, there's nothing more pleasing for a shoppaholic than to go shopping!

4 . I can hit the bookstores like borders or kinokuniya and spend hours reading like a bookworm out there.

5. I can hit a bar full of singles hoping to hook up some lonesome souls.

But all the above mentioned options have 1 thing in common - I will still be seeing lovely dovely couples with flowers everywhere!! Arghhhhhh!

boring cny

2008-02-10T12:35:00.000+08:00

Boring CNY

And so CNY is over just like that. Ok some will argue that cny is 15 days or whatever but to most of us, including myself, it's all about the first 3 or 4 days. So what's new this year? Hmmm I'm a year older, more experienced, 10 months away from ORD, still single, nothing have really changed at all except hmmm I'm now less than a year away from a new lease of life. How will life be after this year? Hard to predict, a lot can happen or change within a year but what I do know is that a year from today I will have begun a new chapter in my life.

CNY is rather boring and pretty average this year. Meet the people I see once a year is boring? Of course not, but it's how the events of each day patterns out that makes my days very plain. Pigs are never known to be good gamblers so I stayed away from most form of gamblings and the first 2 nights were spent drinking out there. The clubs and bars are very clever actually, they ate up most people's ang baos because these people think oh it's CNY lets splurge abit without realizing where their ang bao money is going to haha.

I miss alot of things this year like visiting houses with a girlfriend, gambling and talking rubbish till the wee hours of the night with big group of people, and going out to bai nian with all kinds of different friends. It's what makes CNY ticks for me but unfortunately it's all missing this year.

Now that CNY is 'over', I can really smell Valentine's day approaching.....oh no!

I wonder what are those for?

For some reasons my house is never fully decorated with CNY stuffs haha

But the fridge is never empty during cny

Mom & Sister

Grandma's place

My Aunts

My tall funny cousin

Family - Dad's side minus 2 uncles

My younger cousins

I like this picture

At clarke quay

Dino & Jeri

My old friend Yuting

Sze Wei & me

Angela

My cousin & childhood playmate Ah Bee

Mom & 2 of my cousins

My Aunt

1 of the places I visit once a year haha

Some of te FSD guys at Kwa's house yesterday

This rox isn't it? :)

i cheated death

2008-02-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

I cheated death

I'm back from Bangkok in one piece. By rights, I shouldn't be here. But a miracle happened and I survived a heart-stopping accident there.

It was night time, we were crossing 1 of the jam-packed, fast-paced and messy roads. The road we were crossing was supposed to be a designated pedestrian crossing but as people familiar with Thailand will tell you, pedestrian crossings do not 'exists', and that vehicle rules the roads with any rules. We were chatting while walking halfway when I suddenly stopped and that that split 1/2 of a second, a big van zoomed right past my face! The van was so close to me that I swear if I stepped forward 1 feet I willl not live to write this entry now. The people around me were shell shocked. The caucasian guy behind me stood rooted to the ground staring at me with his jaws almost dropping. His girl was covering her face and screaming something in Thai. I was shocked, I didn't know what to do except quickly get past the road safety and it's only when I got to the safe side of the road did it occur to me how I danced with death. I had no idea why I stopped suddenly, I did not noticed the van approaching either. I just stopped suddenly. It must have been heaven's will that I will not die that day. And strangely that night, $1000 bahts (about $50SGD) mysteriously disappeared from my wallet.

No doubts I was worried and angry as to how did that big note disappear from my wallet for no reason? I don't remember dropping any money, or did I use it. It was only when I carried my thoughts deeper and further did I realized it could all be destined. I survived, but I lost $1000 THB. I decided to treat it like I paid for prolonging my life with $1000 THB. My 2 friends were not as lucky, Jeri lost his handphone & wallet when he was drunk and Daniel lost his digital video cam.

I had an average trip and perhaps the most wonderful point was that I finally stayed at this stylish fashion hotel called "Le Fennix". The interior design and furnitures are especially stylish and nice, making the letter 'L' the trademark of the hotel.

I love this TV! Pure white!

Breakfast cafe

Mini Bar

The windows are all L shaped! cool!

Compared to HK, the number of pictures I took this time easily dwarfs the size of the HK album. I always have a little regret not taking more photos but I always can't seem to be snapping alot when I'm in Bangkok. Maybe because Bangkok is now like Singapore to me which I know like the back of my hands. Bangkok isn't really a place for holidays anymore because I've been to almost all the attractions and so on and I think this explains the amount of pictures I took.

A very old and vintage BMW

Driving through floods...

Doughnut shop. Krispy Kreame from HK tastes better though

Normal daily Thai life of the average Thai

Bed Superclub - One of BKK's most posh clubs

BTS Station

Soi Cowboy - 1 of the Go-Go bar areas

Rual Thai province

A typical Thai apartment without any living room

Ahh I missed this!

This chicken rice street stall tastes alot better than those sold in foodcourts here

Traditional thai noodles

The foodcourt at Platinum Fashion Mall

Piri Piri Flaming Chicken! Nice must try!

Hotel Breakfast

Swiss Airline's standard meal

My thai friend Porpia's birthday

what girls want

2008-01-24T20:25:00.000+08:00

What girls want

I will probably have had afew dozens of rotten eggs thrown at me by the time u finish reading this post. But if I were to blog conservatively I might as well not blog at all. I may be a guy and for this fact alone people can say I don't have the rights to say I know what girls want but who is to say I can't be right either? If u can't work out which side to stand on, then simply read it as 'a guy's views on what girls want'. Everyone is happy this way, so lets start the ball rolling.

As in the entry 'what guys want', I shall start with some golden facts...

Fact no.1 - Girls will always have a soft side
Forget about how fierce, tough or rough she is when she's furious and angry. When she cools off her heart will always melt like mashmellows on a BBQ pit. They probably wouldn't show it but somehow they are feeling rather soft and this is their weak points. After an argument or a quarrel, more than often a sweet line of words is enough to completely melt the mellting heart. Why do u think girls are always forgiving guys then?

Fact no.2 - Security and Sincerity wins the day
The predominant reason why we see all sorts of incompatible couples on the streets. I always say good looks buys u a date but it's usually the amount of sincerity and efforts u put in plus how secure she feels about u that wins you her heart. Perhaps you are as good looking as Brad Pitt but u don't have a future as bright as Cristiano Ronaldo or a bank account as big as Bill Gates, so therefore she probably wouldn't want to be with someone whose future is insecure.

Fact no.3 - Girls are naive
Girls have a tendency to think things are as simple as ABC or that things could work out easily and that everything will be alright. They do the most naive things like believing their flirtatious partner's sweet honeyed words, forgiving him and entrusting him with her heart only to get it all broken into pieces soon after when she caught him perform adultery again. They either get influenced or believe easily - one of the weakest points girls possess. Silly silly silly

Fact no.4 - Girls are cute when they are angry
There is a reason why guys tend to laugh and say: "Honey, u look so cute when ur angry u know" and the girl simply do not get it and say: "What? Are u mad or something?" The truth is that when a girl is pissed off, angry or frustrated, their body behavior and facial expressions are somehow cute to guys. But of course it isn't funny when she picks up a chopper......

Fact no.5 - Shopping is every girl's favourite past-time
What do u do when ur down? Shop! What do u do when u've just received ur salary? Shop! What do when u looked into your ready-to-burst wardrobe and feel like it's too 'empty'? Shop! Shopping probably flows in the blood of girls like how sex flows in those of the guys. There's no limit as to what they can buy and there's no indication of when they will stop. Shopping simply makes a girl's day and the worst scenario is when they see a beautiful piece of clothing and they cannot buy - financially or with other reasons involved.

Fact no.6 - Girls love sex as much as guys do
As much as try to deny it (well they won't admit it anyway), it's a fact that girls love sex as much as guys do. The ones who don't are either nerds who haven't been sexually exposed to the adult fun scene or are simply mental up there. In any case, girls can't reveal their sexual preferences or they will be termed as sluts or whores. Hence they will never admit that they love sex - well almost all of them. And to put it in context, like everyone else, girls love having 'a happy ending' when having sex - orgasm. They hate it when their guy 'comes' too early and they are right to feel that way because such guys are insensitive bastards who only care about themselves.

Fact no.7 - The Knight in Shining Armor Syndrome
It must be the fairytales. It must be the dramas and movies. Either way, girls love to feel or dream of themselves as a lovely wounded princess and havng a handsome prince or knight in shining armor come riding on a white horse, grabbing their frail body and riding them down the sunset. The picture they paint in their mind is as fantasy as fairytales but hey fairytales do happen sometimes! It is right to say all girls at 1 point of their lives dream of their knight in shining armor.

Fact no.8 - Girls are bitchy by nature

Shopping aside, gossiping and bitching just about anything under the sun is probably what girls do best and the topics seem endless. It is incredible just how much and what they can bitch about to each other. It is of no surprise then that, girls whine and moan more than their counterparts.

In the real world as of current, there seem to be a trend going on amongst girls and it isn't very glam to speak of. Girls are getting demanding these days, expectations are soaring to ridiculous heights and attitudes are slowly but surely changing as well. In fact the number of ugly truths about girls can easily surpass the number of good ones about them.

Ugly Truth no.1 - Girls are gold diggers
And the guys get digged! No matter what they say, all girls are materialistic in some way. Tell me which girl doesn't craves luxury and all the comfort and joy they can bring? And these luxury are most of time in the form of Louis Vuitton, Gucci and Coach among others. In a courtship, the amount of money a girl actually spend on a girl is ridiculously high. These days, girls don't hope for but they expect! Where do these expectations stem from? From seeing their friends having boyfriends who drive big cars, shower them with LVs and all sorts of gifts of course. They need to do a reality check on themselves.

Ugly Truth no.2 - The Princess Syndrome
This is a very good example of a female trend. When one of them wants to be the princess all of them want to be the princess so if this were to be the case we would have a couple of thousands of princesses out there but where are the princes? They have probably watched too much of 'Princess Hours'. While it's perfectly fine for girls to think of themselves as princess because girls have to be treated well, it just isn't right to think they are real princesses and expect things to turn out the way they want or behave like some queen out there. It's this kind of princess attitude that sucks real bad.

Ugly Truth no.3 - Girls are flirts
Yes it applies to those who are in a relationship. When a girl meets a guy who ticks almost all the boxes of her 'mr perfect', chances are she would forget for a moment she's got a boyfriend out there or something and flirt with the new guy. Yes it could be just plain flirting, she may not have any intentions to go any further but still, it's flirting! And when they are caught, they claim it's just socializing and being friendly or that their partners are being 'too sensitive' or do not trust them. Yet when their partners does the same (what goes around comes around), they said it's unfaithfulness and that the poor dude is a big time butterfly/flirt.

Ugly Truth no.4 - Seeing no wrongs
As illustrated above, girls can sometimes see no wrong with themselves. No matter what, they are always right. In an argument, they expect to win and when they can't win verbally, they resort to childish means like throwing tantrums or using manipulative means to make the guy feel that he's commited the most terrible sin which in turn turns him soft and start pampering his princess even though she's the one at fault. I herby declare we guys can no longer stand this sentence: "Because I'm a girl!" To which I say: "So what?"

Ugly Truth no.5 - Girls think they know the world
When in fact they don't. They love to think they know, and refuse to heed advices given or worse still, label the guy as an irritating nanny but when things goes horribly wrong and those pieces of advices came back to haunt them, they are sorry for themselves and expect to be comforted. They promise to listen next time and so on but the next time u tell them something, it goes in 1 side and come out the other. Trying to be too clever thinking they know everythinng especially stuffs about the guys can only be their own downfall.

Ugly Truth no.6 - There is nothing a diamond can't buy
"Can I watch soccer with my guy friends?"
"No! U have to accompany me to go shopping!"
"But I have a present for u....*opens up a box*

"Come back as late as u want ok, enjoy more don't want come back also can!"

Ugly Truth no.7 - Girls are jealous creatures
We should start calling them 'greenies' for the fact that they are always whinning, moaning and most of the time it's due to jealousity. They can even claim it was provoked even though at times it's not.

Ugly Truth no.8 - Girls fantasize about other guys during sex
The next time your girl is on the verge of orgasm with her eyes shut, slightly biting her lips and rocking your 'boat', u have every right to suspect she's probably fantaszing herself riding cowgirl on Brad Pitt or Edison Chen. Or worst, she's probably fantazing herself making out with her former beau who gave her the most unforgettable orgasm in her life. It happens, why not?

Ugly Truth no.9 - The time of the month
The time of the month instantly gives her the rights to be queen for at least 6 or 7 days. "I'm having PMS, don't make me mad" can actually be translated into: "I'm the queen now, and u better do what I say and make me feel like a queenie!"

Ugly Truth no.10 - Dollars and fast cars hooks the hottest babes
They will never admit it. But the crude fact is that girls would rather go out with someone ugly but drives a nice car and is quite well do than to date a good looking hunk who takes public transport and maybe isn't strong financially. It's not a fluke, u look around and u see all these rich ugly bastards with the hottest women. There's a reason, and u've just heard it.

In relationships, what girls want is rather simple - security and happiness. People say girls mature faster than guys but that is not necessary true. Girls tend to be as afraid of commitment as guys do. They probably want a boyfriend instead of a husband. Girls tend to prefer enjoying their youth before settling down with the right guy. Even though they tend to expect alot from their guys without realizing it, what can actually please them or touch their heart is simply anything that is sincere that comes from the guy she likes or love. This simply means happiness.

hooked on tennis

2008-01-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

Hooked on Tennis

Recently I'm hooked on Tennis, I've been watching the Australian Open currently going on in Melbourne. While I watch soccer because of my love for the game, the same cannot be said of Tennis because I've never played it before. I just enjoy watching it, simple as that and there are 2 big reasons why. Easy to understand - Babes! There's nothing more exciting than watching babes running their lungs out across the courts hitting balls, screaming when they win a point and cursing or smashing their rackets when they don't. It's like what girls see in those pop idols but I'm definitely nowhere as crazy as those girls. I just enjoy watching, it's so exciting! Haha

These are the reasons why I watch Tennis!

My all time favourite - Maria Sharapova!

See, told u she's hot! haha

Ana Ivanovic - Exotic Flavour!

Love this dress!

And the upcoming Babe Hantuchova!

Please can we have Sharapova VS Ivanovic in the final since both are in the semi finals now? That would be 1 hell of a final! 2 Babes with brains, beauty and body smashing each other on the court!

knight in shining armour syndrome

2008-01-22T19:32:00.000+08:00

Knight in Shining Armor Syndrome

They say nearly all females dream of having their own knight in shining armor but the truth is that it's the guys who struggle to resist the urges and temptations of wanting to be the hero and 'save' the girl. I call this the Knight in Shining Armor Syndrome, an actual disorder.

Many times we have seen guys wanting to be what some would term as "Da Nan Ren" in a relationship and would never settle for anything less than that. Guys in general need to feel they are above their girl in a relationship and they all have a Lion's heart in this aspect alone.

Guys who suffer from it have this need to “save” girls who they feel are messed up not realizing that this in fact makes them (the Knights) more messed up. Guys try to save damsels in distress because it makes them feel powerful, in control and manly. Sometimes they are afraid of girls and think they won't be rejected if they fix a woman's problems. They hide their inadequacies behind what looks like strength. They know they don't have their act together, so instead of working on themselves they'd rather work on someone else. Such relationships are doomed to fail because it simply does not work out this way.

Should they open a door, pull out a chair, take a girl's hand when crossing the street or give her their jacket if she's cold? Absolutely. Should they try to save a woman whose life is a mess? They do so at their own peril.

It is also guys' 'thing' of wanting to feel a notch above girls. Some say it's the ego and pride, while others mention the self beliefs. If these guys were really strong, they would not be trying to save someone that appears to be a victim. They don't realize that aside from a few circumstances beyond one's control (acts of God, accidents, disease, etc.) one's position in life is based on who they are on the inside, not someone or something "out there". There is an axiom that says:

There are no victims, only volunteers.

Knights believe that if the woman gets better, she'll become the perfect girlfriend. The only problem is that if she does become healthy, she will not want to be with someone who is so flawed that he tolerated being with a "broken-winged bird". Healthy people do not want to be with unhealthy people. The world is forever a selfish and cold place.

On the other hand, if she doesn't get better, the man will never have the perfect girlfriend because he won't get his needs met. In addition, his fears of an intimate relationship will not be repaired by staying with an inadequate woman. It's a no-win situation.

Maybe one fine day it will be the females who 'rescue' the males but until then, the Knight in Shining Armor Syndrome will continue to exist in every male. It's of little wonder then, that girls often accuse guys of being male chauvinist pigs but they have to realize that it's not like we could help it sometimes. And being girls, it's something more difficult than hunting down Osama Bin Laden.

sick pervert!

2008-01-21T06:50:00.000+08:00

Sick Pervert!

I was having my much needed sleep after a long day today when I got a call from Bessie at aboout 3.45am in the middle of the night. I could barely open my eyes but I figured out she's probably drunk and making those nonsense calls that happen so frequently when a person's soul is controlled by alcohol. But my phone just wouldn't stop ringing and eventually the words: "Just to inform u this...someone online is using ur identity and your photos to get to know gals and trying to ask them out for sex" shot me up like I was 30 minutes late for work.

Eventually I found out that there is this sick pervert (im not ruling out more) who supposely stays in Tampines and have been stealing my photos and using them to chat hook up girls online, chat them up (dirty stuffs) and then lure them out for sex. Unfortunately for him - justice has long arms - he approached one of my friends. Stupid!

Thankfully enough my friend played along even though she smell something fishy when he said he lived in Tampines and not Jurong. Just how many such people do we have to come across in our lives? Why can't these sick moronic perverts out there get a life instead of ruining their precious lives? If ur horny, porn is only afew clicks away on the net. If u're so sex deprived, Geylang is only a cab ride away.

To think he even showed Bessie his webcam featuring his hairy dick. And of course, he didn't dared to show his face. Does this guy really think my friends are that dumb and naive? Anyway, below is just part of the conversation he had with Bessie. He's smart enough not to use any photos on his friendster/wholivesnearyou/facebook or whatever. He only place my photos up in his msn window. I've got his mobile number and email addess and I'm seriously considering reporting this asshole to the authorities. Don't try it, son of a bitch!

Dear friends, I've only had 1 msn and should u encounter anyone else who tries to hook u up through a simple "Hi u are cute, can we be friends" etc etc, it's definitely not me. I don't use such lines, I don't type big-small words as well and I believe my English is alot better than the one he typed. Please do not be taken in or jump into conclusions. If in doubt, clarify with me. :)

*Remember Bessie is only playing along with him after finding him suspicious. Man this is really a stucked up blue Monday!

things i realized through an entire sat spent at home

2008-01-20T01:36:00.000+08:00

Things I realized through an entire Saturday spent at home

Less than 25 people are online in my entire msn list in the afternoon
Venus Williams is freaking ugly like some African mama
My disgust for Xia'Lan'Xue is more than I thought
Confidence can shoot up once u make a simple breakthrough on ur goals
Potato chips don't go well with red wine
Girls always get more attention than guys
I'm not as excited about upcoming BKK trip unlike the first few times
Intelligent and argumentive girls brings the best out of me
I'm 99.99% gonna spend a 3rd consecutive Valentine's day alone
Half the truth is a whole lie

it's so limited

2008-01-16T06:40:00.000+08:00

It's so limited

Sometimes what we can do is so limited. You can have all the money in the world but u can't buy certain things like love or friendship. You may be a doctor but maybe u can't even save the life of your own kins. You have excellent grades but u struggle to find a good job. Is this part and parcel of life? Would it be better if we live in a world without limits?

I will never know because a world without limits just doesn't and will never exists. Limits instantly brings in the word 'IF' - If I have a million dollars....If I was borned perfect.....all the IFs. I believe this is karma. What we did in our previous lives probably played a part in what kind of limits we get in our current lives. I think I must have committed truckloads of sins in my previous life. I feel so bounded in this life, there seem to be a limit to everything I'm capable of doing. It's not a matter of not trying sometimes. It's a matter of knowing it wouldn't work or happen even if I were to try a zillion times.

Just an example in a sea of examples....The other day I was checking up all the degree courses available and I found out that even if I can afford the fees, I don't have time on my side. I cannot wait 3 - 4 years to finish studying. That brings in 'IF'. If I hadn't been foolish and wasted 2 years in secondary school last time, I wouldn't be in this plight. Can I turn back the clock? No. Does it mean I give up on my dreams here? No. Does it mean even if I try hard I may not succeed? Maybe.

This issue about limits have been bugging me for quite sometime. I guess it's also god's way of ensuring all's fair and equal. U win some, u lose some but I hate losing. Can I not lose? I can't. All I can do is to treat it as taking a step backwards to move forward.

Anyway these days I've been really tired and busy. Haven't had the time to blog, due to having so many things to do. I updated my calendar schedule the other day and couldn't help but take notice of the date Feb 14. Am I going to spend a 3rd consecutive year at home on Vday? Ughhh....

one night in mongkok

2008-01-05T16:38:00.000+08:00

One night in Mongkok....

(Warning! LOTS of pictures, may take time to load!)

....It was raining on an extremely cold and chilly night in December. The unmistakable smell of the famous 'chou toufu' filled the air. We had just came down after showering in the hope of exploring the place on our first night instead of wasting it away in dreamland. The rain got smaller, the locals started dashing across the streets, we joined in, ran from street to street and somehow ended up in the infamous Portland Street. The sight of the triads having their supper at the street cafes and the pimps and whores touting along the dark corners was a sight to behold. It was something new, it was the beginning of a long journey....

I'm back, in fact I was back long ago like afew days before this entry but I haven't had the chance to blog and I had like over 900 pictures to upload. It's impossible to place all 900+ photos on the blog so I've uploaded almost all of them onto my multiply photo album. The link is just below. Sum it up, HK + 1 day in Macau was great, I didn't wanted to come home. The x'Mas period especially had an x'Mas feel about it - something which Singapore lacks. Maybe it's the cold (i mean really cold) weather, maybe it's the way the locals there celebrate x'Mas (it's totally different from SG!) or maybe it's the sight of all those winter clothings, but nevertheless it was way better than Singapore and that's excatly what I was there for!

Hong Kong is a shopping paradise really, but I will say there are more girls stuff than guys and finally I can officially say that despite being winter, there were TONES of summer clothings on sale. Forget about those people who say winter sucks because it's all winter clothings. That sentence has 0% truth in it! I've also learnt how to walk fast and eat fast basically on the streets of HK everyone walks super fast and u just cannot stop suddenly when walking. Sometimes I felt I was living in the middle of Orchard Road on Christmas day or eve! This was my most memorable x'Mas ever and the entire trip was a big success!

A little diary of my trip, with the rest of the photos in my multiply album. Click the link below to view them.

http://callmemango.multiply.com/photos/album/8

Day 1
We spent the day shopping at the local markets like Fa Yuen Street, Ladies Street, and Temple Street Night Market after checking in. Also passed by the famous Goldfish market and went to Argyle Centre, a far east style mall selling basically all girls clothings and stuffs and the mall was so packed and hot we felt like we were in an oven! The sports street at Fa Yuen rocks, lots of bargain sportswear, bags, shoes, everything! A pair of Adidas sneakers which can't be found in SG costs only $80! Cheap! The street markets are always packed and crowded and finding a place to eat there was terrible! At our first meal, I followed the local way of standing behind people who are eating, stare at them when they eat, make them eat faster and buzz off so I can take the table. Yes that's how things work there, rude in SG but normal in HK! Don't even think of having a nice big table, we had to squeeze and share with others. Nice experience and the best part of it was all the menu were in chinese words which I can't read for nuts which means I had no idea what was available. I simply pointed to what others were eating! At night, we left Liyin to sleep in the room herself while Dino & I went down to walk around and ended up at Portland Street. We decided to sample one of their famous 'free preview' and headed upstairs into 1 of the many motels (or whatever u call it). 1 by 1 or in groups, the girls walk in while we sat on the bed, smoking and shaking our heads. We spent about 20 minutes shaking our heads much to the disappointment of the person who had hope we'd each take a girl. We had no intention of doing it anyway, just wanna have a look and laugh afterwards. We did, it was so funny and we headed back to rest early for what was going to be a busy x'Mas eve the next day.

Changi Airport

Dino trying to copy my stunt

Off we go...

Octopus card - can be used for basically anything!

Airport transfer bus

I told u I had no idea what I was ordering!

Fa Yuen Street

This is how they sell fish at goldfish street!

This desert cafe has excellent Mango Puddings!

Yummy! My bird nest mango pudding!

Goldfish Street

They sell cute pets on the streets too!

Argyle Centre, a Far East style mall (Packed with girls stall)

Mongkok junction crossing- can u see the huge crowd?

Temple Street Night Market

We had dinner here...

...and tried the local beer!

At Nathan Road waiting for bus

HK's 'Singapore Pools' but it was packed with people inside!

Mongkok MTR

Day 2
Took the MTR to Tsim Sha Tsui, followed by the star ferry across the habour to Central. The morning ride was great, there was no crowd, the weather was very chilly and breezy and the view of Hong Kong Island across the habour was clear and nice. Then we went shopping at Li Yuen Street East & West but not before grabbing some nice egg tarts and puffs along the way! Went to H&M too, the store rocks. Its to HK what Topshop is to SG and I bought some stuffs inside there. Had lunch at one of the many nice and great restaurants cum bar at SOHO. Food was great but the place was even better! How I wish SG had such a place. It's basically like a slope up a hill but along the way it's all filled with restaurants, pubs, bars and so on. Very good to chill off at night! We explored the entire SOHO and took the Tram too before heading back to Mongkok to shop around at the tallest shopping centre in HK - Langham Place. The mall was really talll and big with a variety of stuffs on sale. After that we headed back to prepare for the night. Went to Lam Kwai Fong for the countdown to x'Mas and guess what? There wasn't any countdown! Instead the locals had their own ways of celebrating x'Mas by dancing and doing all kinds of funny things on the streets. It was jam packed, every club was full house and the entire place was rocking. We went to chill off at 1 of the pubs after the 'countdown' before heading back to sleep! The atmosphere was something I won't find in SG and I won't forget it either.

Tsim Sha Tsui Pier

Inside the Star Ferry Pier terminal

Me & Dino on the star ferry

Great view across the habour, thats HK Island!

Great egg tarts but definitely not as good as those in Macau!

Drools!

H&M store

The longest escalator in the world!

This is SOHO!

We found this on the gates of 1 of the houses, have a laugh!

Yummy!

Lots of seafood at the local markets!

Traditional old convenience stalls

On the tram!

View from my tram window

Langham Place

Love this sports store!!

All soccer stuffs!!

And its all Liverpool stuffs, the owner must be a Liverpool fan like me!

View from the top of Langham Place

On the subway to Lam Kwai Fong

Lam Kwai Fong!

Found time to have sushi there!

Look at the crowd!

Police controlling the crowd flow lol

See it? Its a couple frenching in the 'x'Mas circle'!

Day 3
Went to Wong Tai Sin temple in the morning. It was a bad choice to dress up as all the incense smoke and ashes means I smelt like a temple dude afterwards. Terrible! We went to hang around at Habour City. The armani there was having great sales but I couldn't find my size for the jeans! Habour City is like Vivo city anyway so we get a view of the habour. It was x'Mas and along the Pier there were huge crowds snapping photos, singing songs and the whole place was basically rocking. We went back early to refresh and most importantly, change our clothes before heading to The Avenue of Stars to watch the Symphony of Lights at night. The whole place was crowded and it was so cold that I had to borrow Dino's sweater despite wearing 3 layers of clothings! The Symphony of Lights rocks, beautiful lights but unfortunately my camera sucks at taking pictures of bright lights at night! We then took the star ferry to Wanchai to have dinner before walking down to causeway bay to sample the atmosphere. Simple and nice x'Mas!

Electronic MTR map, its so much better than ours~!

Yau Ma Tei MTR Station

Avenue of Stars

Symphony of Lights

Andy Lau's handprints

Day 4
Woke up early and headed to Lantau Island. The place was quite warm unlike HK or Kowloon and packed with tourists. There, I took the most thrilling bus ride of my life to Po Lin Monastery where the Big Buddha lies. The whole place is like a hill and the roads were bumpy and extremely narrow and yet the driver drove like the bus is some Ferrari car! I felt like throwing up my breakfast throughout the 25mins journey! Lantau Island has some of the most natural and beautiful views of mountains, hills and rivers that I've ever seen. I guess alot of movies were shot here on the mountains. We climbed afew mountains as well thanks to Dino's enthusiasm and because of that, we had no time for Disneyland which turned out to be a blessing in disguie as the place was said to be small and very expensive. Hence we went to Tai O village in Lantau Island instead. There, we took the speed boat out to sea to watch dolphins and had a sample of the simple village life. The village's main source of income is the sea which means they specialise in Seafood. So we couldn't resist trying one of the seafood restaurants there which turned out to be good in terms of the food especially the crab.

Po Lin Monastery

After climbing 295 steps to the big buddha statue!

Look at the background! This is how far I've freaking walked and climb!! Exhausted!

Help!!

Tai O village at night its extremely errie!

Rest of the days
Yes I'm getting lazy, well I will just summarize it up. The rest of the highlights include Ocean Park where I took the most scary ride aka 'The Abyss' which is almost 40 storeys high and plunges u down like nobody business not once but twice! I'm brave unlike Dino who took zero rides!! I wonder if he paid $40+ to watch the pandas & animals!

Then of course we went to the Victoria Peak where the view at night was amazing and it could have been alot better if not for the weather being kinda foggy! Damn it and boy the place was the coldest in the entire HK! I regret not wearing more cool and everyone was just shivering down there! The dinner at the restaurant on the peak was fantastic mainly because it gives us a perfect view of the peak!

Macau was all about casino and shoppings. The stuffs there are about the same prices as HK but the variety is alot better. The egg tarts were heavenly, I've never eaten such nice egg tarts in my life! But the downside is the fucking ferry terminal in Macau in which we took 2 fucking hours to get through customs! The whole place was a disaster waiting to happen - no proper lane markings, no proper security and everyone doesnt know where to queue but push and push I felt like suffocating! Of course we visited the Casino save for Liyin who choose to sleep in the room. Sometimes I felt like I'm in Las Vegas with all those bright lights and people all over the streets. Visited afew Casinos but I like Sands the best as it's more leisure kind and there were people performing on the stages. I'm a cheapo, I drink alot of free beer, wine and other drinks whilst at the Casinos. Dino brought me to watch an adult show there as well and I swear I will never watch one anymore in my life. It was so fucking lame, stupid and pathetic! Yes pathetic is the word! I felt the entire thing was so boring I felt the couple giggling in 1 corner was more interesting than what was going on at the stage. After every show, the girls will go around collecting tips from every single person! I felt like it was some scram or something. I don't understand why we paid $80 SGD each to watch such a fucking stupid show! Anyway the person said the show had ended after just 4 shows and I feel so mad like we were conned of our money!

Ocean Park!

Animal show for dino muahhaha!

The Abyss!!!!

Spot me?

View of the park....see how tall the Abyss is?

In the restaurant at Victoria Peak

Most delicious chicken ever!

Cafe Deco

Victoria Peak, I'm at the top of......HK!

Stupid Macau Ferry Terminal! Wasted 2hrs here to clear customs!

Emperor Hotel

The ruins of St Pauls'

Casino Lisboa

The streets of Macau at night

The fountain at Whymm casino/hotel.....!

OX noodles, some find it disgusting i find it nice!

Baby Pigeon - A delicay!

Traditional chinese herbal soup....tastes.....omg..

Very bitter!

We saw this street protest by over 3000 mainland chinese people while walking on the streets!

Preparing to depart!

Baking those delicious doughnuts!

I almost missed my flight while buying these doughnuts!

The most delicious doughnuts ever!

My Christmas Present for myself! Heh!

seasons greetings

2007-12-22T13:51:00.000+08:00

Seasons' Greetings!

I'm due to fly off tonight and won't be back till 2008 so I shall take this opportunity to wish all my friends and close ones a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!! Hope u guys have lots of fun out there partying or countdown-ing! This is going to be my first Christmas overseas and I'm feeling like a kid in a candy store!

2007 have been a year that passed really fast and to recap, there is simply nothing really eventful and nothing really tragic either. Its' just been a fast paced year in NS for me and yes I know I don't seem like a NSF to many people but who cares. I always believe everyone have the word choice implemented in their lives. The most memorable issue this year have been my Birthday. It's the first time a group of people outside my family ever celebrated my Birthday. It may be simple but long will the memory live with me. And the one to forget has long been forgotten - 6 months of hell under my previous boss. It was a miracle I contained my explosive temper and lived with all those nonsense and hell for 6 months! In the end everything proved worthwhile - a new good boss came in, treat everyone well, I'm able to go overseas or anywhere as I wish!

I've already mentioned my simple and single Christmas wish so now I shall talk about my hopes for 2008.

First I hope I will get into the course I want, do my degree and get through everything fast and well. Then I hope I will always stay in the pink of health and the same goes for all my friends. Health is primary, others are secondary! And finally I hope ORD comes soon! This time next year I will probably in England enjoying the fruits of my ORD before coming back to start work on a new chapter in my life! I'm a simple person, I don't ask for much, just 3 simple wishes! May 2008 be a blast and yes I'm getting older it's so terrifying!

For now, I shall put aside everything and enjoy my holidays in HongKong! And before u think of asking for presents, think if u've been good to me this year! :p

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!

I'm drooling........Hong Kong here I come!

all i dont want for christmas

2007-12-19T07:05:00.000+08:00

All I don't want for Christmas...

...Is one that is screwed up and forgettable. I've tasted this bitter pill once when some inconsiderate person totally ruined my Christmas. I'm determined never to taste it again but hey who is to say it won't happen again right! So I'm going to be less greedy this year, I just want to have a happy, memorable and special Christmas somewhere out there in Hong Kong. The primary reason why I choosed to spend Christmas this year in Hong Kong is to escape the extremely predictable and boring festive season in Singapore. I want something new, something with more of a Christmas feel, somewhere where it's at least cold if there isn't any snow. I think I will be spending the next few Christmas out of Singapore.

This year certainly passed really fast, only yesterday it was excatly 1 year since I enlisted into NS. And in another 365 days, I'd be a freed birdie. I haven't really thought about ORD, unlike most people who tend to do countdowns or kept looking at the calendar and feel sorry for themselves. I tend to look at the calendar too, but it's always about my next trip or other important appointments. Maybe time passes faster this way?

It's quite scary actually, after the next 365 days I will begin another new chapter in my life. I have a year to prepare myself mentally for the adventure and challenges that lies ahead. But for now, I'm only interested in having 8 days of fun out there in Hong Kong and Macau! It's really exciting going on a holiday, and u know what? The most exciting part is the planning of the schedule itself. I learnt so much new things like culture, places and so on just by planning the entire schedule. I love planning, it gives me a sense of assurance and security when I go overseas. I may not follow excatly to the schedule but at least I know where I'm supposed to go each day and how much time I should spend at each place. It's of course not easy, u have to research all the places, check their opening/closing times, check the maps, and plan where to go each day. I've put in so much effort in this planning that if I had a screwed up x'Mas I'd be really disappointed! So dear Santa, u've heard me.....I've been a good boy this year so do grant me a great x'Mas this season!

getting hysterical

2007-12-16T17:07:00.000+08:00

Getting Hysterical

A very tiring weekend, spent 2 continuous nights out at the clubs. First it was the 2 year anniversary party at MOS on Friday and the only reason I was there was to take full advantage of the free flow specially for members only. It's not very often u hear them being so generous with the drinks isn't it, of course must drink! Went back at 1.30am I think and I can't recall when was the last time I went back so early on a night out.

I think I slept almost the entire Saturday away and woke up at 9pm. Head down to Dragonfly for Joey's farewell party with the intention of joining the T13s at Double O at around 12am but ended up giving that a miss as I just couldn't get out of Dragonfly - the queue was too long, too packed and there wasn't any transport as nobody was driving on a booze night. I love and hate dragonfly - love the songs and atmosphere but hate the limited amount of seats and tables. They should consider expanding the place. Had a good time there anyway, first time clubbing with the uncles in my office - priceless experience!

Slept at 7, woke up at 1pm today, headed down to play soccer but the match was cancelled at the last minute for god knows what reasons. I'm more disappointed than angry but anyway that spared my shagged body the torture of going through 90minutes of soccer. I uploaded the photos last night. I'm not sure if I'm just being hysterical or what but I think I'm fucking ugly - the entire package! I observed alot of guys at the clubs and I feel I'm a notch or 2 below them. I'm vain and I cannot accept that, I don't want to be ugly! Time to be self obsessed and leave no stones unturned in my mission to change that.

And yes tonight is THE night! Livepool VS The Scum!! Time for justice to be done!

Yes this is Dawn Yang and I feel like I was taking a picture with a Geisha!

i hope u rot in hell!!

2007-12-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

I hope u rot in hell!!

Integrity - People who lack them deserve to rot in hell. I learnt a lesson today, a lesson I've always knew but having a soft heart means I sometimes forgot about this important lesson. "Never lend anyone who is not close to u money"

I'm really disappointed, upset and furious with both myself and the bitch. I can't imagine someone would choose to betray the trust and end the friendship over a sum of money that isn't that big. I could have said no, I should have said no. This is one of my weak points, one of the flaws of having a soft and kind heart. I said yes and I lived to regret it. I'm feeling very fucked up because I've got bills to clear, I've got hotels to pay, I've got alot of expenses to spend on next week for HongKong and finally lets be clear - I'm a NSF, I don't get 4 digit pay checks and to think I willingly place my trust in a friend? How dumb of me...!

I guess this is the consequences of having a fucking useless boyfriend who can't even support their girlfriend to the point that she had to resort to borrowing money and running off. This is probably why girls these days are turning materialism into a trend. All thanks to these worthless and useless faggots! And I'm the dumbest of them all - for choosing to play Santa Claus!

As I hate chasing people for money, I'm not gonna prester the bitch for it. I will just take it as a costly lesson learnt. I believe in karma, if she doesn't have the integrity or heart to do something right, the same thing will happen to her in future. And yes I hope u rot in hell!!!

I'm feeling so fucked up right now!! ArgHHhhH!!!!

human essence

2007-12-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

Human Essence

Extracted from a random blog...

"So the next time your spouse isn't looking, rather than sidle up to an
attractive stranger, why not use that time to buy your one-and-only a surprise
gift or bouquet of roses?"

Next time your partner tells you how obedient or faithful they have been, have your doubts raised. Human nature, irresistable lure of lust or loneliness? Whatever it is, all of us have done it or have at least experienced some 'over the line' crimes in relationships. You tell your girl how sweet, thoughtful and great she is, and then you tell an acquaintance how nice her eyes are, how cute she is, or whatever. Is this a form of 'over the line' crimes? Sure it is. How about an attached guy buying a stranger girl a drink?

People say guys make up the majority of the flirts but I beg to differ. Girls are no different. The other night, an old friend of mine was at the club with me and being packed and squeeze, she held onto me as we zig-zag our way through the crowds. She's attached and I did feel sorry for her guy. I'm not a bastard, I didn't take advantage of her, we are old friends and there's nothing 'cheesy' going on. But I know no guys (ok maybe the odd 1 or 2 out) will be able to tolerate their girl holding hands or holding onto another guy at the club. Guys may have more tendency to flirt than girls but it's not right to say they make up the majority of the flirts or 'over the line criminals'.

I've seen girls who are attached dirty dancing with strangers at the club, flirting with the cute waiter or getting too affectionate in public when the status is only 'friends'. I put it all down to human essence, it flows in all of us. Sometimes we may not realize we are crossing the line and overdoing things. It's incredible that women can sometimes say something like "aiya its only flirting mah, not like I sleep with him or what right!" and yet when they see their guy chatting with a sweetie or cutie on msn, they get all agigated.

To most people, it seem that flirting is fine so long they don't go beyond that onto the sexual part which is totally and correctly an unacceptable sin for any attached person. And sadly, these sins do happen when insensitive people failed to realized they are crossing the line when dumping the respect and thought for their partners by participating in sinful 'over the line crimes' like getting to know new guys/girls, secretly going clubbing, going out on solo dates, etc to the point of no return.

However, god is fair. For every bad ass they create, a good apple is created too. But we humans being one of a kind, will still have the tendency to make stray sometimes without knowing it.

1 word replies & a dilemma

2007-12-08T16:57:00.001+08:00

One word replies and a dilemma

I don't understand why some people like giving one word replies or replies with some lame smileys or worst, sounding like totally mono-tune? I appreciate it and can fully understands it if the person is busy or uninterested in chatting by telling me so but I can't understand it when they give really lame replies.

You make an effort to think and then type something constructive, u make an effort to initate a conversation and then u get a reply like "haa", "oic", "lol", "is it", "haha ok" or whatever u ask, the person answer u like some machine.

"Never go out today?"
"No"

"U watched that show yet?"
"Ya its nice"

"Boring weekend today"
"Go out loh"

You don't feel like u're talking to some robots/machines/computers? I do! I know I'm not necessary a comedian who can make people laugh, I know I'm not blessed with an infinite sense of humor, but surely u can just tell me straight in the face.....

1. Ur busy

2. U don't wanna chat

3. U don't feel like chatting

4. Whatever reason u have

Surely that isn't that hard to type out is it? I've written about such an entry before but I can't help bringing this up again. I believe it happens to everyone and it's something very rude and lame to be honest. I myself do it sometimes too without knowing it but I always make a point to at least tell the person I'm closing the chat window, even if it means cocking up some excuses. It's better than making the person feel like he/she is holding u at knife-point forcing u to chat isn't it? I'm going to do the same to these people back, totally pisses me off!

My msn list is filled with quite afew white elephants and all the way the list is getting smaller and it will continue to get smaller! No time to be sentimental anymore, delete button rules the day!

On a sidenote, I've been thinking hard about what I'm going to study as a part time degree next year whilst still doing my NS. It boils down to 2 choices - designing and journalism (media). I don't wana make the same mistake as I did while choosing my course for poly after O'Levels. It's quite a dilemma this time because I'm good at both, they are both my subjects of interests and I can definitely see myself as a journalist and or a designer in the future.

There's a saying that goes by... "Get a job u like and coming to work everyday is like a hobby". It's so true man, and I also believe doing something ur good at or interested will also mean the bucks starts to come in. I don't wanna dread going to work every morning even if the salary is fantastic. I would rather do something I love for a normal salary. Of course the money is important - in Singapore it always is! But so long it isn't some obscene amount it will be okie. I have about a month and a half to decide before submitting my application forms and it's such a tough and important decision! Bahhhh

wanting to be funny

2007-12-05T20:09:00.000+08:00

Wannting to be funny

When u watch a stupid high school movie from Hollywood u see all the teenage stereotypes: geeks, sluts, jocks, nerds and so on. Each group seems to hang with its own kind, with limited cross-group contact. Growing up, I was hard to categorize and as I grew older, I wanted something...

I wanted to be funny

I'm a serious guy most of the time but I can also seem like the kind of happy go lucky type. But most of the time I'm just serious. Sure I can be amusing at times, and when I relate true life stories, there are some people who find me downright fascinating. But I'm not particularly inventive, I don't have a talent for witty phrasing and I don't really know how to make people laugh. And it's certainly not from a lack of trying.

I'm just plain boring. I need to face it; I'm not funny. I've never been funny. I never will be funny. I'm condemned to a life of humorless analysis and observation....destined forever to sit on the sidelines and cheer on those who have the gift that I don't. A gift that is important as I realize that sometimes, having a great sense of humor does make everything much easier and people much happier. Afterall.....

1. Humorous people are likeable people
2. Girls like guys with a sense of humor
3. Having a sense of humor makes u more fun & exciting to hang out with

There are other reasons but right now these 3 are probably the most important ones. It's a sad day for me, to realize that the dreams of wanting to be funny will never come true. I can try to change it, I can try to be funny but I will probably end up making a complete fool or wierdo out of myself. Sometimes in life, there are situations and things which u know that no matter how hard u try u won't succeed. Yet many times I remember this statement vividly....

You won't get everything u want, but u won't get anything if u don't try.

So sometimes, knowing that a try isn't going to make a difference or succeed, should I still go ahead and try?