A day to forget

I swear if not for Vincent and Melvin, my day will be totally unimaginable! Looks like old buddies can always be counted on, i can't thank them enough for accompanying me till the wee hours at Zouk especially when Vincent had camp at 7am in the morning. Thank guys, i'm so appreciative that my day was not totally ruined. Can't thank u 2 enough man!

Nobody fucking likes to be 'put on plane', i specially hate this especially when its a last minute thing and i'm all dressed up and outside. Thats certainly the case today i was fucking stranded outside without a clue as to wat to do. Yes whatever the reasons are, no matter how reasonable they seem, its just not right to fly someone's plane isn't it? I was so fucking happy when Kylie said we're going Zouk as i was dying to be there just for tonight and 20 mins or so before i left my place i still double confirm with them to be sure we're going. Their reply was yes and yet when i'm out of my place they said its off due to all sorts of reasons - no money....not many people know...not many are going....most are saving for saturday's clubbing...whatever it is, god damn shit! Why can't they tell me earlier? And even if they did told me late, why din't they bother to do anything to 'make up' for it or something? And did i mention i saw them there later on? What the hell were they doing there? Why am i not invited? Am i a friend to them? Do they ever respect me at all? Why am i always the last to know about something? Why do i have no say in anything? I think too much? FUCK IT actions speaks louder than words and they don't lie do they?! The disappointment hurt is deep, deep because its caused by people i feel i could count on, people whom i feel are the closest to me currently, people whom i trusted!

Enough of the rantings, Zouk was fucking packed today, and luckily i bumped into liting and carol so managed to cut through the long queue. Zouk and Phuture is fun for many souls tonight i guess but i can be counted out of it. I felt i should never have made the trip down there, disappointment is all i got from the night spent there. Bumped into quite alot of friends down there, 'Hi-Bye' friends u guessed it right! Tonight i learnt a lesson, humans can be fucking selfish and insensitive, the treatment dished out can be cruel at times. I guess i should start being selfish myself as well, screw it i don't give a damn about anything or anyone right now and if u dun like me it doesn't gives me a reason to like u as well. Enough is enough, the feeling is sick, really sick!