Friday, December 02, 2005
Officially Single
I had just finished my morning 3km jog and was doing push-ups.......
Her - wad r u doing? can spare me 5min of ya full attention?
Me - doing sit ups. ok what u wan tell me?
Her - i wan tell u i tink its better we remind as frenz
Her - sorry
Me - *dumbfounded and stun, dunno what to say*
Me - hmmmm why do u say so
Her - i dun feel happy nor l0ved
Her - i wanted to gif us some more time. but lots of actions of yours tells me u dun lOve me, but is juz 2gether for the sake of 2gether
Me - u do have a point there
Her - i m correct huh
Me - half half
Me - i guess will be unfair to u also if we stay on
Me - i'm being too selfish at times
Her - y u say unfair?
Me - coz u dun deserve this
Me - there are many things u deserve which i din or cant or fail to give u, so its unfair to u
I sucks, ever since i broke up with Jessie i've never really given my heart as a whole to a girl. Its not like i haven gotten over Jessie or what, its just me being me. Maybe its because of the hurt i've suffered in the past, but i guess its really very difficult to get into my heart afterall or that the special someone is very hard to find indeed. There have to be a special kind of attraction and feelings and sadly these were lacking in the relationship before we broke up this morning. I feel like a piece of shit, how could i feel abit relieved that the whole thing has ended?! I guess its because i know she won't have to suffer anymore with me. She certainly deserve someone and something better than this, better than what i can give her. There's alot i can do or give to a girl i love, in fact i will go to the end of my limits to do it, but with her i juz failed to do it. Its so unfair to her and selfish of myself if we were to continue to be together. This is the best option for us, i don't know how this thing will affect our friendship if there's anymore left.
I wont say sorry, its a cowardly word, a stupid excuse. Time heal all wounds, it fails because we're not meant to be. It fails because i'm not your special someone and u're not mine as well. U're a nice girl who would put in efforts and scarifice for your loved ones bur unfortunately the fault lies with me, as hard as i tried finding that special feeling, i just can't find it. In the end my selfish actions left a scar and devasting effect on u, for that i hate myself as a person. Jean was right, whats the use of staying together when u don't seem to love her? Its staying together for the sake of staying together.
I'd always remember the memories and times, thats the most i can do.
I had just finished my morning 3km jog and was doing push-ups.......
Her - wad r u doing? can spare me 5min of ya full attention?
Me - doing sit ups. ok what u wan tell me?
Her - i wan tell u i tink its better we remind as frenz
Her - sorry
Me - *dumbfounded and stun, dunno what to say*
Me - hmmmm why do u say so
Her - i dun feel happy nor l0ved
Her - i wanted to gif us some more time. but lots of actions of yours tells me u dun lOve me, but is juz 2gether for the sake of 2gether
Me - u do have a point there
Her - i m correct huh
Me - half half
Me - i guess will be unfair to u also if we stay on
Me - i'm being too selfish at times
Her - y u say unfair?
Me - coz u dun deserve this
Me - there are many things u deserve which i din or cant or fail to give u, so its unfair to u
I sucks, ever since i broke up with Jessie i've never really given my heart as a whole to a girl. Its not like i haven gotten over Jessie or what, its just me being me. Maybe its because of the hurt i've suffered in the past, but i guess its really very difficult to get into my heart afterall or that the special someone is very hard to find indeed. There have to be a special kind of attraction and feelings and sadly these were lacking in the relationship before we broke up this morning. I feel like a piece of shit, how could i feel abit relieved that the whole thing has ended?! I guess its because i know she won't have to suffer anymore with me. She certainly deserve someone and something better than this, better than what i can give her. There's alot i can do or give to a girl i love, in fact i will go to the end of my limits to do it, but with her i juz failed to do it. Its so unfair to her and selfish of myself if we were to continue to be together. This is the best option for us, i don't know how this thing will affect our friendship if there's anymore left.
I wont say sorry, its a cowardly word, a stupid excuse. Time heal all wounds, it fails because we're not meant to be. It fails because i'm not your special someone and u're not mine as well. U're a nice girl who would put in efforts and scarifice for your loved ones bur unfortunately the fault lies with me, as hard as i tried finding that special feeling, i just can't find it. In the end my selfish actions left a scar and devasting effect on u, for that i hate myself as a person. Jean was right, whats the use of staying together when u don't seem to love her? Its staying together for the sake of staying together.
I'd always remember the memories and times, thats the most i can do.
posted by mango at 12:53 PM
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