Have u ever wondered about the things in life? The beautiful things that u want so badly in life? There's a saying 'we can't get everything we want in life' and how true that is. How does it feels to be looking directly at a beautiful necklace on exhibition for example and yet not being able to buy it since it already has a owner? Or silently admiring someone's looks knowing u can never look that way? There are countless things we want yet we can't even get near some of them. The feeling is melancholy and yet frustrating at the same time but we can do almost nothing about it. I do wonder sometimes if the most impossible things are the most possible ones if we're willing to work hard and make scarifices for them.
There're so many things i want i want in life, so much i want to accomplish and yet so few are possible. Not that i'm giving up before the battle has even begin. Is it possible to have a house by the beach where only 3 warm souls live happily in it? Is it possible to have a worldwide regconition? How about having all the happiness in the world? Very hardly possible.
They say god send us down for many reasons, one of them being the searching of our soulmate. 22 years have passed, maybe i've already met and lost her or maybe i haven met her yet or maybe i've already met her but she's not mine? This is something i really wished to know but they say heaven's secrets can't be revealed. I know my time will come eventually, the unexpected always happens. How do u catch a rare fish in the big ocean? U can move your ship all over the waters trying to catch it or u could cast your net and wait patiently. The latter is obviously the wiser choice, but does god rewards patience all the time? I could wait my entire life but ended up empty handed without knowing the reasons and that would seem cruel. That's where fate and destiny comes in, if u're fated to be u will be no matter what. If u're destined to be alone u'd be no matter how many lovers u have right now. I hope i'm destined and fated to have a happy and warm family, a stable career and a neve empty rice bowl. Just some random thoughts on a lonesome, boring and embarrassing Sunday..........