A burden off my shoulders

Finally....a big burden off my shoulders. I don't care what the result is, for now i can finally catch a breather and relax more even though i still have 2 papers left. Today's paper was always gonna be the hardest, most important and stressful one so u can imagine how relieved i felt when i left the exam room.

I don't know if i did well enough to score the B grade i need to pass the overall module but i know for sure i tried my hardest and its by no means easy when there's trouble and hype surrounding me everyday. The stress and pressure is one thing, the knowledge that i've to have a disciplinary hearing is another. I think i coped quite well during these 5 turbulent days and i believe many in my shoes would have stumbled to the pressure, stress and troubles. For now i'm going to enjoy myself as much as i can for today, just today and its back to studying for my next 2 papers from tomorrow onwards.

The things that happened the past 5 days made me confound what i was already well aware of, that in my entire life i always had to fight hard for something i want. There was never a short cut route in my life, and maybe growing up this way was one reason why i had the determination and the steel when the chips are down, when others have all but given up. I feel alive once again.

For all that others could say of me, the accusations, the criticisms and so much more, i wouldn't even lift an eye to them. For they've never knew me well enough to judge me and i've never had any respects to such comments. Unfair it may be, but fairness was never in the dictionary in the first place. In life we'd always have our fair share of critics and ignorance seem to be the best medicine. They say "ignorance is bliss" and i'd always found tranquility in that phrase but more so than ever after these 5 days.