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The aftermath of chinese new year was entirely ordinary and boring. Everyday was the same - more or less, driving, going to school, complete my tasks and sleep. Obviously i din't like any of it but there's nothing i can do.

Daniel, Fiona, Chris and Kylie came over to visit me on Friday and that was considered some sort of a milestone because no one from my class have ever came to my place before except elmo after clubbing once. How nice of them haha.

Finally kicked a ball after nearly 3months since that heartbreaking ICT tourement today. I admit i was totally out of sorts, thanks to all the clubbing, booze, cigarettes, cny food and the lack of exercises. I felt my lungs busting after a mere 20 minutes out there and it din't help that the sun was fucking blazing and those who din't apply sun lotion got their skin burnt. I was teasing elmo about how his face looked like he'd applied too much blusher or foundation afterwards! Great to kick a ball with the guys after such a long time!

Everyone i'm pretty sure has some 'important' dates on their calendar such as xmas or holidays. I'm no different, mine are the usual ones like xmas, new year, cny, national day, valentine's day and of course all the public holidays! The next date coming up is valentine's day which i've already noted long ago especially when its right after chinese new year.

There's no denying that being a romanticist, valentine's day usually brings more than excitement to me ever since a young age. I'm a dreamer, unrealistic at times and i'd usually dream of the perfect romance happening during such a day.

This year, the thinking suddenly changed a little. I no longer feel so much excitement and pondering how pathetic it would be having to spend vday alone. One of my friends asked me once: "hey whose your date this year?". I replied: "nah, i dun have one and its no big deal spending the day alone". I admit that response was alittle fake. Alittle because even though its really no big deal to me if i'm dateless, deep inside me somehow i'd still feel blue about it. Its just a normal feeling i guess.

Afterall if fairytales do ever happen to me, well i know they do exists but i haven had one yet, then i'd wish for a perfect romance. Meeting that someone special on this special day and spending the rest of my life with her. Now this is just a big fat dream, even though its possible but the chances are like 0.01%.

I've imaged the most realistic scenario on the 14th, and i guess it suits me well. 9-6pm in school, get home for dinner and sleep! How perfect is that for a big time romanticist without a date? Quite perfect and i'm gonna go ahead and make this scenario happen unless something of a surprise comes along the way. A much appreciated and silently awaited one i'd say!

Valentine's without a date is obviously a little saddening but thats not the end of the world, there're far too much important things to do and acheive.