Feeling Blue

2nd March 2006, 3pm I finished the last exam paper in my life (hope so!!). I did a calculation out of boredroom and found out that I've taken a total of 24 examinations in my 2 1/2 years in NP. By rights i should be on cloud 9, out popping a drink or 2 to celebrate the end of my association with school and exams. But no, I'm feel blue instead, not because next Tuesday will be the start of my attachment but just some mood swings i guess.

There are many things I can't understand, one of those being the mindset of people in my generation and those in my dad's generation. I just can't see eye to eye with many things, why do they have to be so cautious about everything?? Why are things which are perfectly normal to people in my generation considered wrong or sinful to them?? Why can't they wake up and adapt to the changing world? They expect us to respect people but do they know that respect comes from being respected by people in the first place? How do u expect me to respect someone who don't respect me in the first place?

Its a really funny world out there, many people still think they're living in the 70s or 80s. Their thinking is freaking old fashion and it does gets on my nerves many times. I did think about maybe in 20 years time will my kid be saying the same about me. But no, i'm very sure i'd adapt and live with changes in the world. I hate it when people expect me to think like they do, old fashioned thinking especially.

ENOUGH!

I'm supposed to be enjoying my time now but instead i'm feeling so frustrated and moody. I feel i need a big break or a chilling session right now but I've no idea who to approach. Suddenly my circle of real friends seem so small again. Kelvin did asked me to tag along with them to wenjie's chalet or something but i din't feel like going. I need some loud music and lots of booze!