The good guy always loses out

I woke up feeling a sense of disappointment this morning. Not because of last night's world cup bets or projects but because of matters of the heart. I'd just finish preparing the bets for tonight's games, taken a bath and ready to work on my project when I felt unease. There's something I just had to get it off me, hopefully blogging helps.

Just why do the bad guys always gain or win in matters concerning the heart? Are girls blind? Its ironic that sometimes a girl know that a guy is a player or something but still can't help falling for him. What makes a bad guy so attractive is probably the exciting stuffs he will bring, there will be alot of fun and excitement but no committment. Is it wrong to say then, that only the bad girls fall for the bad guys? I doubt so.

I'm very sick of hearing and seeing girls saying how they want a sweet loving great nice bf who will only love and care about her all the time blah blah blah...and yet fall for a bad guy or rejects the one who fufilled all the above. A bunch of bollocks!

I am seriously considering becoming a big time player for good. Afterall, I've got the wits, the looks, the cunning, the flirty nature and a cold heart to go with it all. Ame once told me this "its better to be a player than be a good guy and be played". I disagree with her at that time probably because I was very much in love and love could blind someone. But I didn't agree now because I'm out of love. I disagree now even though I'm still missing that someone very much, even though I'm still feeling for her very much. But I do see Ame's point in giving that advice to me now. I'm not contradicting but its true that at times its better to play, at least my heart wouldn't ache. At least I wouldn't get replies like "U're too good for me, Im not good enough for u"....."don't waste ur time on me", etc etc.

A bunch of total bollocks! In love there isn't any comparasion of whether a couple is good enough for each other. If u love someone then that someone is perfect for u isn't it. Its not as if the someone minds your flaws or weakness or your past.

Humans are stubborn creature sometimes, we know deep inside our heart what we want but we're afraid to try. We're afraid to give ourselves and our future a chance and yet we always whine about how regretful we are. So what makes of people who writes those emails or bulletins like "tell the one how much u love him/her or u'll regret it", etc etc.

And how about the people who always console others, telling them to be strong, that when love comes grab the chance and so on? U people are good at telling others what to do, consoling others but u people have no fucking idea what it is like to do it yourself. U people are just shunning from reality!

The good guys always loses out, so why not be the bad guy? Don't even tell me I can find someone better because the whatever someone better out there will tell me the same thing as well.

I'm terribly fumming, sad and depressed and I still have to fucking work on a Saturday. My heart aches badly because the love was deep. My anger rose fast and high because the passion was aplently.