God Bless Me

After 2pm later on I'd have almost certainly severe all my ties with education, that is unless I decide to further my studies in the near future. I really dread presentations, especially solo ones. I've like totally no experience in solo presentations. The one and only solo one I did was somewhere in 2004 I guess. But that was different, a presentation about EPL and soccer stuffs that I know what to say.

I spent like the entire day figuring out what to add into my powerpoint slides, asking around for starting speeches and trying to prepare my speech. Its a real nightmare really, I would rather be taking an exam tomorrow with all to study today than have a presentation tomorrow with all the time in the world to prepare for! That sums it up!

The thoughts of being tongue tied, speaking too fast or fumbling on my words are making me sick. Give me an argument or debate in front of a thousand I would ooze confidence in every line I speak. But give me a presentation in a cold quiet room solo-style is totally another thing!

Neverthless I figured out I'd have to make myself all fired up tomorrow morning in order to speak calmly and confidently. Must really thank Carol for her help in the speeches stuffs and Kate for all the encouraging words.

I've already decide what I'm gonna do once these shits ends. Lots of movies, lots of shoppings and lots of relaxing - for 3 weeks that is. Job searching begins right after that and I'm still cursing the fucking government for delaying my NS letter. Its hard to plan things when I dont know my enlistment date, idiotic shit!