I'm fed up with my life

I mean it seriously. My life's like a piece of junk, haven been in the mood of late to blog anything. I even thought of closing my blog down for good. Is it one of my another but many mood swings? I don't know seriously.

I've been clubbing non stop for the past 4 days in a row......butter factory on wed, mos on thurs, zouk on friday and mos again on saturday. So much alcohol, so much unhealty stuffs that I woke up on Saturday morning with a heavy fever and terrible sore throat. Nevertheless I still went to drink somemore on Saturday and made merry out there.

Such a lifestyle is really unhealthy, money wasting and a casts a bad impression on others. I'm well aware of it. But I still choosed to live it this way. If i'm lonely, i know i wont be anymore once i step into a club. Strangers will automatically become my friends - even if its just for one night. If i seek a quick thrill, i know i could just as easily get it. If i'm feeling upset, i know tequila and chivas are there to bandish all those thoughts or feelings away - even if its just for a night.

That was one unhealthy, chaotic and rendevous week.

For now, I'm going away. Whether or not I blog another single entry wouldn't matter to most people. I'm fed up with life, fed up with the people around me, fed up with how things are turning out, fed up with everything!