A blink of the eye



Time certainly flew this year, I checked the date today and got a little surprise that its already the 30th of December. But it seem to me that x'Mas hasn't even took place and that December hasn't even came. Am I lagging behind time?

This year's festive period certainly lack spirits and the aura that usually comes with it. x'Mas seem like any other day and the days leading up to new year eve is plainly just like any other normal days. To think that last year I was all too excited about x'Mas, the countdown parties and so on. How much difference a year makes, its engrossing!

At this point of the year, many of us would be writing up wish-lists and new year resolutions but and having done so last year, I decided to give these lists a miss this time round. Reason being that I see it a pointless thing to do as I wouldn't be really working towards these lists or resolutions. How many of us can actually say we worked hard all year to make sure we acheive the resolution or targets we set ourselves at the beginning of the year? As time passes by we almost definitely forgot about them so what's the point of writing them?

Nevertheless I did acheived some of my resolutions set last year. I did smoke alot lesser this year, I've learnt to say NO when the need to arises, I've got myself a lovely gf and I've also completed my education for now.

I have certainly changed alot this year as well. Its only when I got attached again after 8 months recently that I realized how materialistic I've becomed in the space of less than 12 months. The world I'm living in now is all about luxury, fine food, clothings, cars, wine, and even the places I go. I still find myself indulging in the simple world but most of the time I find myself attached to the world of luxury. Is this a good or bad change?

This is a little part extracted from dear's blog and it certainly makes me think hard...

"...i felt like i was living in his higher world of standards, brands, materials.. and i was sturggling badly to live.. thn i asked myself.. if i can choose to live.. in this 2 world..

1) a high standard of living with rich asses, branded stuffs, nice cars, expensive daily lifestyles and get envied by almost everyone ard u..

2) a carefree life, with no worries over luxury, plain simple being ourselves and enjoying life as we are living it.. public transports.. simple foods from coffee shops or foodcourts..

which wil i choose?"

I believe its good in terms of ambitions and that being a guy I've got to set my sights high and certainly this comes with age. I can't possibly be thinking the same way and wanting the same things each and every year could I? There have got to be a time I want more and better things and this only goes to show I'm progressing and growing up.

On the darker side I guess it does puts a strain on others around me like my loved ones. Just like how my gf's gonna stress over being unable to live up to my expectations or living in my world.

In fact, the problems we've highlighted out so far have all been about such material issues. On one hand I'm contended to have a gf who doesn't demands alot and is happy with the simplier things in life but on the other hand I want her to be a pricess piece of diamond that stands out from the rest as well. Maybe its due to the fact that I'm a person who cares about image alot. I hate to admit it but its true. I do care about what others think of me and the people around me even though I know I shouldn't be caring too much about such stuffs.

I would like to think I've gone up 1 step in the 'life ladder' in 2006. As for the coming year, strangely I've got zero feelings or impression about it, much to my own surprise. Perhaps its due to the fact that I know I'd be serving the bloody army for the entire year. But at least I have the consolation of knowing that I've someone to tide through this ordeal with me.