My world is black

Don't even mention or ask me about milkshake, it was such a disaster on a personal note. I won't say why, a disaster is a disaster and what's past is already past so there isn't any point in talking about it. It doesn't turn back time. So my last party before I serve the bloody government for 2 years was never going according to the script I wrote. If I'd known better I'd have stayed at home instead.

I admit I'd never win a popularity contest but I expect my friends to treat me with some respect and face sometimes. I vividly remembered all the parties before the everyone's enlistment, pop dates and so on. Enough said isn't it?

As I drove on aimlessly around the entire island on sunday evening, the empty passenger seat beside me struck me that perhaps I should be destined to have an empty passenger seat for good. Maybe its already written in the stars that I should be a lone ranger this life. I don't quite believe in it though, I believe I've got my destiny in my own hands. I'm going to change it!

I'm going to take a long break from parties and this world of posers. Suddenly I feel very tired about blogging as well. I mean, what can I blog about? My daily life? Am I suppposed to blog about what I do every min at home? My nightlife? There isn't any. My friends? Don't even mention that word! Parties? Thats' a forgone conclusion. Relationships? Don't have one either.

ZzZzZzZz I'm such a sadist!