How Embarrassing

Chinese new year this year was really bad. For the first time for as long as I can remember, we didn't went to 'bai nian' as a family as my brother was ill after the eve of cny. Hence, mom stayed back to look after him on day 1 while my dad, sister and myself went ahead to my grandma's place at Tampines. Nothing much there though, as usual but it seem wierd that there were only3 of us on the journey there instead of the usual 5 heads.

I caught the show 'Just follow Law' with Qiqi after dinner @ PS, its hard to get a good seat or even book tickets for movies during cny as I subsequently found out. But it was still worth it as I haven saw such a hilarious movie for quite sometime. I must say for the 1st time, a local movie actually impressed me especially Fann Wong acting and behaving like a guy. Ha, had a gd laugh all the way. Good, gooder, goodest!

Second day of cny was the opposite of the first day, this time my dad stayed back to look after my bro so its my mom, sis and myself who went to my aunt's place. Feels wierd again and I spent the entire afternoon, apart from dinner; surfing net and msn-ing in my cousin's room. Its' so angonising being unable to get out knowing everyone's not available. I ended up leaving at 7.30 and heading down to MOS for the shodown party.

I really embarrassed myself and tanished all my image and reputation that night. They were opening red wine like free flow and drinking so fast when it should be done slowly. I drank as much myself and after 2 or 3 hrs or something, my head started to hurt badly. That was when i sort of lost my soul and submit it to the 'drunken lord'! Ended up having Frederick, Dexter, Ricky and Amy as well as others taking turns to drag me outta the club.

They didn't drag actually, I could still walk and knew whats going on, I wasn't drunk but my head's like having a lump inside and hurting badly. I ended up stumbling upon chairs and felling down afew times at the MacDonalds' outlet in front of so many people that I knew or knew who I was that when I thought about it as I got home, I felt like shooting myself at point blank. The usually reserved, quiet and cool drinker Mango's gone bonkers and anyone who saw me would have thought I got wasted very badly. I'm thankful for those who helped me that night, thanks guys.

Still, when I got home the pain refused to go away but out of tiredness, I fell asleep instantly but awoke 2 hrs or something later on to even greater pain in my head. Strangely I didn't felt any hangover but the pain was getting bad. So for the first time, I tried something - drink some soy sauce to cure the pain. It was salty like hell but it did help in reducing the pain a little. I'm going to earn my repuatation back this Friday during the tequila shots drinking challenge at double O. Damn!


This is my youngest couisn, cute and smart haha!


I can't imagine I used to play catching or hide and seek here when we were all young...

So many things happened recently that cny lost its usual excitement, I'm glad for once everything's settled. I felt both sadness and joy at the ending of the relationship. Sadness because I lost a really nice girl, joy because I knew we will both be happier for now at least.

"You were right, we rushed in too soon. A moment of love estacy got us into this tank called 'love'. In some ways, we were not what each other wanted, but we refused to let go. Hence, we suffocated and left each other breathless in the tank. We started at a bridge and parted at one as well. The memories will always stay with me, sorry I've been unfair to u."

Through this relationship, I realized how much myself and my expectations have changed. This failure is a form of feedback for me, I've no regrets whatsoever, whats done's done. Take it as form of feedback, know where I went wrong and move on. I know people are gonna say "wah so fast break again"...but if u don't know the truths the don't bother commenting and its not like I've 80 ex gfs, just 8.

Its a pity really, I found the right characteristic in a gf I always wanted but other areas were not. Nobody's perfect, every relationship has their flaws as well. Its just a pity we didn't gave each other longer to find the solution.

I really feel Guess watches are a jinx now, both times I bought one for my gf, both times the relationship ended soon after.