A dark patch

I'm back to boozing again. This is after all my kind of life, the kind I'm used to. I'm not destroying my body in any ways, I do more healthy activities and suffs than what I drink. But u know, I just love drinking, so welcome back my dear Martel, Chivas & Whiskeys.





I'm going through a very rough patch in my life where no matter what I do nothing seem to succeed. My social life is pathetic, my ns life is hell, family ties are losing grip and my love life is a mess. I feel this picture of my desk currently sums up my love life....a total mess!



No I didn't arrange it on purpose to make it look messy, it's just u know bit by bit, one object after another they came lying on the desk and before u know it, it's in a mess. I feel myself withdrawing from everyone now. I just want to be left alone, afterall the people who could make a difference wouldn't bother.

There are always positives in every negative siutations but at this point, I can't see any of it. All I see is negatives and more negatives. Sometimes I wonder how could people be so insensitive to other's feelings. Maybe I should start doing the same.

It's 7pm now on a Sunday and I really dread it, totally. I dread having to go to work tomorrow in such a state. I will either flare up easily or pull a black long face all day long. I'm going to take leave on Thursday and Friday, I need a break badly. Human beings and their cold bloodied hearts are killing me slowly and tenderly. I'm too tired to bother about anything now, I shall just shut off from everyone for now.

Love kills me off, I'm too afraid to fall again.