Exclusive Entry!

There's one more, I couldn't her pic though.

Not many would post such an entry, especially the picture below but ever since I drew the curtains on relationships, I thought it would be a good idea to do something of a reflection of all my previous partners. Yes all of them from the very first one at the age of 14 in 1997 to the very last one early this year.

I believe many people out there often associate me as a guy surrounded by girls but I think having 11 ex gfs over a 10 year spell for a guy turning 24 in a week's time is quite okay. Of course those who have 1 or 2 extremely long relationships will say something like "i only have 1 ex bf and we last 6 years lor". But hey how can u compare this way? If I lasted with 1 of them I wouldnt have met the others right? And for those who think I've got high expectations I believe I've justified my saying that my expectations in terms of appearance isn't that high as some people would make out of. But I believe in the future when I open up the door again this expectation would be alot higher than compare to previously. I always believe I deserve better.

In these 10 years, I've learnt countless invaluable lessons, scarred many hearts and broken even more others'. Beside having to be selfish and devote all my time towards my goals, the other reason for drawing the curtains on relationships is because I'm so sick of starting all over again after meeting the wrong ones. It's not as fun and exciting as some might think or assume of me.

I still crave for love sometimes and at times I see couples on the streets I felt a gush of loneliness sweeping past me. But I will never give in to this craving anymore for now, I'm still young and there are more important things to look forward to. I would rather kiss a real cinderalla than be kissing 20 wrong ones and so when the time comes, the door will be opened once again. I will miss the feeling of being in love for sure, the sweetness and tenderness of having someone you love with you is second to none.

I do not understand too, how people wanna get into a relationship and yet still wishes to have fun and enjoy their life. If u know u can't commit and still wanna enjoy ur best years in life, why bother to have a partner just for the sake of having one? Or issit because their self esteem is so low that they need a companion all the time?

You know, I'm getting sick of seeing guys trying to 'grab 'every girl they see in sight, trying to get their msn, hp, it's always the same thing. I wonder what thrill or exciting anticipation is there in doing these? This idea of 'making friend' and 'getting to know u' have always rank as one of the worst behaviours in my mindset. I've never ever said such a line as "hey can we be friends"? Never and never will. While there is nothing wrong with making friends, going all out and making friends with every single girl u see in sight is just not correct in my opinion. And these idiots are to be blamed for girls having such stucked up mindsets about guys being desperate and pervertic nowadays.

I firmly believe all humans are borned horny and need sex. It's just a matter of how u control and potray yourself. Look, girls are horny and need sex too but they can't possibly show it out or they will be termed as sluts isn't it? Similiary, guys too will be termed as desperates or perverts if they potray it wrongly or can't seem to control those horns of theirs. The difference is that girls are somehow very much better than guys at being able to control it whilst most guys are just potraying it all wrongly and setting up a bad image of themselves.

This is why I never want to follow the crowd because if u do what everyone else does, u will get what everyone else gets and that means rejection and leaving a bad impression on others in this case. And before anyone who can't stomach this entry start being a keyboard warrior, please...I didn't point a knife at u and made u read it. The little [x] is just at the top right hand corner of your window.