Growing Old



I hate the feeling of growing old and yet I love it at times. I hate growing older because it means I'm 1 year further away from my youthful days. But I still love growing older because it means I'm 1 year closer to my dreams and goals. Some people age physcially, others mentally. Appearance wise, I don't seem to grow any older that rapidly but mentally I'm older by another year. I still have my boyish looks.

I don't like my birthdays, to be honest I never enjoyed a single one of them that much. There were only 1 or 2 memorable ones, that was all about it. And most of the time, few people would remember the date. Over the years I've grown used to the disappointment, people often imply the idea that I've had a party in full swing celebrating for me but the fact was I spent my last 2 birthdays sleeping at home and watching a world cup match with a friend.

Hence I never liked my birthdays, there's an aura of excitement as the day approaches but often clouded by disappointments eventually. Still, happy birthday to myself......I'm a year closer to my dreams! And I know only after this entry will the birthday wishes come flooding in..and I say thanks in advance.

Pls do me a favour, do not dampen my mood by asking me how I'm gonna celebrate. Esp those who have my msn. Thanks but I have simply grown sick of this question coming in for years.