Bad hair day

Sometimes when I look into the mirror, I can't seem to figure out if my hair's suddenly gone haywire or is it my mood or mind that's gone bonkers. I mean, I can look into the mirror on 1 day feeling pleased and satisfied with my hair and the following day I just can't be satisfied no matter how many times I style my hair over and over again. This morning was an example. These days, I don't bother to apply anything to my hair or style it when I go to office. I simply flip it into shap using my fingers.

And this morning when I look into the mirror, I saw a disaster. It's like you know, you look into the mirror and tell yourself: "oh fuck I seriously need a haircut, I look like shit!" or "omg my hair texture is like fucking rough and ugly!" Then you start to get paranoid and pissed with yourself. I realized whenever I feel this way, I will never be able to style my hair properly and even if I do, I see a nice hairstyle as ugly. It's like the moment you paint a picture of your ugly mob of hair in your brains, that picture sticks there for quite sometime until you get rid of it. And its precisely because that ugly picture gets stucked in your brains that no matter how nice your hair is, you just don't see it. I have this problem sometimes.

I remember afew times where I got so pissed off and fucked up with my hair after styling that I forcefully went to the washroom to wash everything off and redo it all over again. I guess this is what you call amateurish.

So this morning, aware of this problem, I decided to try something different. I decided to heck care and just get out of my house. I was already running late anyway. Throughout the journey I tried not to think about how sucky my hair is and instead try to have paint a nicer picture of it in my mind. True enough, when I reach office and went to the washroom, the mirror image of my hair was satisfying. This is no illusion, I've just come to realized that many times, things ain't as bad as we deduced them to be. It's just our own powerful imagination that is screwing us up sometimes. Nevertheless, I need a haircut and I'm gonna get it done anytime soon!