I hope u rot in hell!!

Integrity - People who lack them deserve to rot in hell. I learnt a lesson today, a lesson I've always knew but having a soft heart means I sometimes forgot about this important lesson. "Never lend anyone who is not close to u money"

I'm really disappointed, upset and furious with both myself and the bitch. I can't imagine someone would choose to betray the trust and end the friendship over a sum of money that isn't that big. I could have said no, I should have said no. This is one of my weak points, one of the flaws of having a soft and kind heart. I said yes and I lived to regret it. I'm feeling very fucked up because I've got bills to clear, I've got hotels to pay, I've got alot of expenses to spend on next week for HongKong and finally lets be clear - I'm a NSF, I don't get 4 digit pay checks and to think I willingly place my trust in a friend? How dumb of me...!

I guess this is the consequences of having a fucking useless boyfriend who can't even support their girlfriend to the point that she had to resort to borrowing money and running off. This is probably why girls these days are turning materialism into a trend. All thanks to these worthless and useless faggots! And I'm the dumbest of them all - for choosing to play Santa Claus!

As I hate chasing people for money, I'm not gonna prester the bitch for it. I will just take it as a costly lesson learnt. I believe in karma, if she doesn't have the integrity or heart to do something right, the same thing will happen to her in future. And yes I hope u rot in hell!!!

I'm feeling so fucked up right now!! ArgHHhhH!!!!