Wednesday, January 16, 2008
It's so limited
Sometimes what we can do is so limited. You can have all the money in the world but u can't buy certain things like love or friendship. You may be a doctor but maybe u can't even save the life of your own kins. You have excellent grades but u struggle to find a good job. Is this part and parcel of life? Would it be better if we live in a world without limits?
I will never know because a world without limits just doesn't and will never exists. Limits instantly brings in the word 'IF' - If I have a million dollars....If I was borned perfect.....all the IFs. I believe this is karma. What we did in our previous lives probably played a part in what kind of limits we get in our current lives. I think I must have committed truckloads of sins in my previous life. I feel so bounded in this life, there seem to be a limit to everything I'm capable of doing. It's not a matter of not trying sometimes. It's a matter of knowing it wouldn't work or happen even if I were to try a zillion times.
Just an example in a sea of examples....The other day I was checking up all the degree courses available and I found out that even if I can afford the fees, I don't have time on my side. I cannot wait 3 - 4 years to finish studying. That brings in 'IF'. If I hadn't been foolish and wasted 2 years in secondary school last time, I wouldn't be in this plight. Can I turn back the clock? No. Does it mean I give up on my dreams here? No. Does it mean even if I try hard I may not succeed? Maybe.
This issue about limits have been bugging me for quite sometime. I guess it's also god's way of ensuring all's fair and equal. U win some, u lose some but I hate losing. Can I not lose? I can't. All I can do is to treat it as taking a step backwards to move forward.
Anyway these days I've been really tired and busy. Haven't had the time to blog, due to having so many things to do. I updated my calendar schedule the other day and couldn't help but take notice of the date Feb 14. Am I going to spend a 3rd consecutive year at home on Vday? Ughhh....
Sometimes what we can do is so limited. You can have all the money in the world but u can't buy certain things like love or friendship. You may be a doctor but maybe u can't even save the life of your own kins. You have excellent grades but u struggle to find a good job. Is this part and parcel of life? Would it be better if we live in a world without limits?
I will never know because a world without limits just doesn't and will never exists. Limits instantly brings in the word 'IF' - If I have a million dollars....If I was borned perfect.....all the IFs. I believe this is karma. What we did in our previous lives probably played a part in what kind of limits we get in our current lives. I think I must have committed truckloads of sins in my previous life. I feel so bounded in this life, there seem to be a limit to everything I'm capable of doing. It's not a matter of not trying sometimes. It's a matter of knowing it wouldn't work or happen even if I were to try a zillion times.
Just an example in a sea of examples....The other day I was checking up all the degree courses available and I found out that even if I can afford the fees, I don't have time on my side. I cannot wait 3 - 4 years to finish studying. That brings in 'IF'. If I hadn't been foolish and wasted 2 years in secondary school last time, I wouldn't be in this plight. Can I turn back the clock? No. Does it mean I give up on my dreams here? No. Does it mean even if I try hard I may not succeed? Maybe.
This issue about limits have been bugging me for quite sometime. I guess it's also god's way of ensuring all's fair and equal. U win some, u lose some but I hate losing. Can I not lose? I can't. All I can do is to treat it as taking a step backwards to move forward.
Anyway these days I've been really tired and busy. Haven't had the time to blog, due to having so many things to do. I updated my calendar schedule the other day and couldn't help but take notice of the date Feb 14. Am I going to spend a 3rd consecutive year at home on Vday? Ughhh....
posted by mango at 6:40 AM
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