Just another entry

We make a living by what we get, we make a life with what we give.
Sir Winston Churchill

Yesterday marks the start of Euro 2008, a month long competition that takes place once every 4 years. Needless to say it gets hardcore soccer fans like me all pumped up with excitement. I can foresee lots of sleepless nights and sluggishness in the day as a result of the former. With 2 matches daily that ends at 4.45am until the quarter-finals, it's easy to see why. I opened an account with a major legal betting site to spice things up. Watching such major competition games are boring without having a wager or two. I'm a bad gambler as my horoscope have proved to perfection, which is why I never liked to gamble but this is just for fun even if it means risk inglosing afew hundred bucks. At least it's not something illegal like betting with those bookies.

I feel really old nowadays. I feel like I'm like a man trapped in a boy's body. Age does matters, I can't help thinking about my future. What will I be doing in 5 years time? 10 years? Will I still be living in Singapore? Will I be married? What job will I be doing? I would like to think everything will go according to what I plan but it isn't always possible. Suddenly I feel a deep sense of regret for wasting away 2 precious years in my life. I know I can't change things but I can't help thinking of that what ifs. Maybe it's fate. I'm borned to be slower than others. I've repeated this line many times; "I may be slower but I will still reach my destination eventually". Sometimes this sentence seem like a cushion to comfort my heart. I do know although I might reach my destination eventually, it could also be a case of too late. Too many times in life I have experienced it - the case of so near yet so far all because I was late.

Because of the 2 years I wasted in the past, I seem to owe alot of people an explanation. I always had to answer questions that starts like this: "How come at this age you are still.............."? I've grown used to answering them but sometimes it does gets to me. It will start playing on my mind that I've failed miserably in my life even though I know it's not the case. Being a Cancer, I can't help it. Cancerians loves to think alot and think too much.

I used to wallow in self pity, hoping the skies will open up and a ray of light will guide me out of the maze. Not anymore. In this cruel world, it's every man for himself. There seem to be no place for second best. I believe I can create my own fate and destiny if I work for it.

Boring thoughts (what's new?) aside, this has been a miserable week for me. The haircut went terribly wrong. It seem that I will need to bring along a photo of the hairstyle I want next time. Thankfully with the Euro coming up, I have little time to think about this disaster. 2 days ago, someone whom I barely knew found me in facebook. She knew my chinese name, remember my english name and birthday. Eventually I realize it was someone I had met in MOS 2 years ago. Apparently I had showed her my IC to prove my age. It was just a normal conversation but it's amazing someone who claims to be absent minded actually remembered my particulars so well and went to dig me out from facebook. Stranger things have happened!

Taken at Priscilla's 21st Birthday with Carol

Why is the pose so......

Haha saltfish!