That's fuck-you money

Money was invented so we could know exactly how much we owe
Cullen Hightower

Money depresses me more than it makes me happy - I came to this conclusion today. I could strike the lottery tomorrow, become afew hundred thousand dollars wealthier and the satisfication would still be short lived. I'm not going to cheat myself and say I would be able to retire with a million dollars. There's a different between having money and having another kind of money - fuck-you money.

The ability to have or do something whenever you feel like it. That is my definition of fuck-you money. The key word is feel, it's not like I'm actually going to do/have it, it's the freedom to do/have it when I feel like doing it. Even if it's only for once a year - imagine having a top notched jazzuzi in my home that I use less than 2 times a year. Wasted? That's what fuck-you money gives you. Just to be able to have something available to you when you feel like having or doing it - I like the idea. Money is a big fuck when I'm not living in cyberspace, when I'm living in a dollar starving rat infested country where the niggard government pays out taxes credits only to take every single cent plus interest back from me.

It isn't everything but it is something, something that I want and need. I grew up with this "it isn't everything" mentality, hence there's little chance I'd ever let the dollars increase the size of my head, nor will it makes me walk down the streets with a "fuck-u I'm rich" aura. Call it greed or Satan's work but this god damnned fuck-you money is of significant importance to me. It isn't beyond reach, and it's not gonna come easy for sure, not like buying toto every weekend and hoping it strikes once. Life fucks us all, there's no better way of redemption than having the kind of money that could really fuck the shit out of life. God, I'm damned...